"Jake…..I'm sorry" I whispered softly watching my best friend jump into the woods and leave my sight for the last time.

Summer….

It's been almost two years since I last saw Jacob. Edward and I married of course letting Alice plan the entire thing…it was nice but something felt missing. We had a baby girl named Renesmee; she beautiful like her daddy considering she's part vampire but human like how I was. I still dream of Jacob to this day but have no idea where he is; his dad doesn't know and the pack won't tell me anything.

I sat on the window seat of my giant house with the rest of my family giving me the privacy I so deeply wanted. The handmade journal and pen sat in my lap while I thought of nothing but Jacob; I miss him and wish one day I would see his wolf form in the brush of the trees but every day since he left the trees remained empty as I remained hurt on the inside secretly from everyone but jasper. He never said a word about it though. The clouds covered the sky darker than usual…a storm. The rest of my family wanted to make plans for a baseball game as Alice saw the storm would be a bad one, I asked not to go disappointing little Renesmee for not seeing her first game but baseball but she nodded like everyone else.

"Bella sweetie, we're leaving" Esme said while slowly gliding into the room. I smiled and hugged her as the rest of my family including my beautiful husband with our daughter hugged me next. I told her to have fun with one last embrace and a kiss to Edward's lips. They left out the back door after a couple seconds I couldn't hear them anymore and I knew they couldn't hear me.

I ran upstairs as fast as I could into Edward and I's room scooting into the closet for a pair of jeans and a simple shirt; surprisingly I found a set that wasn't extremely expensive. A note was attached.

Bella,

Thought you might need these; don't worry everyone will understand

I promise I still won't say a word.

Jasper

I smiled at the note before tossing on the shirt and sliding into the jeans which happened to fit me perfectly. The rain started here but I didn't mind it considering my new lifestyle. I walked to the garage at a slightly faster than normal pace opening the garage door to my sports car; what Edward used to call the "After car". I purred the engine to life speeding through the bends and onto the main road in less than a full minute; La Push was 15 minutes away….Jake's house was 20 minutes from the border. I stepped onto the gas petal pushing the car to a minimum of 95 without even pressing into the seat the slightest fraction of anything. Jake's house looked like how it always did and I smiled remembering everything I could even if it seemed a blurry picture.

Billy opened the door with a smile to me and I hugged him but then apologized about my new changes. He stopped me mid-sentence and said that Jake was finally home. I smiled wide as I could when Billy motioned that Jake was in the garage like old times working on something. I hugged Billy again and smiled another apology before running out the back door into the garage to see the one thing I've missed for 2 years.

"Jake?" I said trying not to let the ring in my voice sound. Jake was working on his bike; he suddenly lost grip of what was in his hand and spun around taking me in his burning arms. I embraced him back long and tight for a long time but it didn't take him any time at all to know something was different about me…about the Bella he knew.

"Bella…how could—why did you do it?" Jake automatically unhooked his arms from around me and stepped back with a strange look on his face. I stepped closer to him but he held out a hand saying to stay back—that I had changed too much for comfort to Jacob black.

"We've been through this remember that day 2 years ago when we said goodbye. Jake it happened a while later but don't worry I'm okay; I have a daughter and she's half human, I experienced pregnancy along with birth and a wedding. I lived the life I wanted; in fact I still am."

"Bella….." Jake said crashing his weight against a table leaning against it while staring at the ground as someone would if they were irritated or upset. I looked down thinking this was a bad idea so I turned to walk away but when my back turned to Jake I felt a warm hand against my cold one.