I'll Always Keep You Safe
Plot – Dean always promised to keep Sam safe. What if he couldn't keep that promise? AU from 'Route 666'
'Route 666' spoilers
Character death.
One – shot.
Disclaimer – I don't own supernatural, Eric Kripke does.
AN – First story so please be nice. Reviews appreciated. Also, if there's anything I can work on, please tell me.
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Dean's POV.
God. It's so hard. Being alone.
I had one job. One freakin' job! And I screwed it up.
'Keep Sammy safe' Dad had said. 'Don't let anything hurt him. Protect him when I'm not around to'.
I promised Sam that I'd always protect him no matter what.
And I broke that promise. I failed Dad, and I failed Sam.
Guess were all screwed up now, in some way. Sam's dead. Dad's gone back to raging demon hunter and me. Me, I'm just screwed up all over. I'm reckless, tired and alone. Funny. We can save almost everyone else, but we can't save ourselves.
And it's all my fault.
It all started when we went on a job in Athens, Ohio. One of my old girlfriends, Cassie, her dad was killed in a car accident. Seemed normal till we put the dot to dot together and worked out that some psycho nut job of a spirit was haunting an old truck and basically killing the people that killed him. Problem was, I still loved her, however she had dumped me, thinking I was crazy because I told her the big secret about what we do. But when we met again, we realised we were stupid and that we still loved each other.
Sam realised this and told me that I should stay.
Stupidly I did.
So now, Sammy was all alone hunting demons and trying to find Dad and I was living the normal life he wanted. But I told him, before he left, I'd always be here if he needed me.
Flashback
My arm around Cassie's shoulders, I prepared to say goodbye to Sam.
"I'm always here, ya know, if you need me. I'll come running to save your ass". I laughed but inside, I was sad.
"Yeah. I know" Sam replied and I caught a tear just outside his eye.
"Hey" I laughed "no chick flick moments".
"Yeah" he said wiping the tear away.
"Call me if you find Dad" I added.
"Will do" he replied, getting into the impala.
"Bye Sam" I said.
"Bye Dean" He replied.
"And look after my car!" I yelled as he pulled away.
I saw him chuckle as he left.
End flashback
So I stayed with Cassie, and Sam kept on hunting. And he kept his word, a year later I got a call. He'd found dad.
But then, I got a call three weeks later from Dad. This time, it wasn't good.
They'd been in a car crash thanks to a possessed truck driver.
The impala was totalled.
Dad had a broken arm, three broken ribs and a bad concussion.
And Sam? Sammy wasn't doing too well. He was in a coma among other things.
So I headed straight to south memorial in Raleigh, North Carolina.
But before I left, I broke down.
For the first time in my life, I cried. Sammy was my brother, my only brother and my best friend.
I should have protected him.
But I didn't.
Flashback
I rushed in there hell for leather, only to be stopped by a receptionist.
"Please" I begged "I need to see my brother"
"Name"
"Sam. Sam Winchester"
"He's in ICU 13"
I gasped slightly. ICU? Sammy?
I thanked the woman and rushed as fast as I could to ICU 13.
I got there and another gasp escaped my lips.
Sam was… Sam was hooked up to a load of machines. Bandages and casts everywhere.
Then I saw Dad. His eyes were sagged and broken. Sleeping now. But I could see the terror and sadness etched on his face.
I walked in and placed my hand on Sam's forehead.
He was so cold. Skin like ice.
A tear dropped down my cheek. I heard a voice.
"Dean?"
I whipped around.
"Dad?"
We embraced; glad to be in each others company.
"What happened" I asked. I needed to know.
"We finally found THE demon. But, he was too powerful, he messed Sam up pretty bad. That's most of the injuries, the crash just made them worse" Dad replied.
I gulped "Is he… Is he gonna be ok?"
Dad sighed. That wasn't good news.
"I don't know son. The doctors said that he had some pretty bad internal bleeding. They managed to fix it with surgery but…he lost a lot of blood. Couple of broken bones. Deep cuts made him loose more blood. But the worst is…his head got hit when we crashed. Dean. Sam has major brain damage. They say that's why he's in a coma. There not even sure if he'll wake up. All these machines, there the only thing keeping him alive at the moment"
For the second time that day, I broke down.
I cried my heart and soul out.
I thought 'why Sam?'
End flashback
Why did it have to be Sam? Three weeks later, the doctors were about to give up hope. Dad was. When a miracle happened.
Flashback
"I'm sorry sir. But I think it's time to let him go" one of the doctors said.
"Maybe" Dad replied.
I was shocked and I snapped.
"What do you mean 'maybe'?!" I yelled.
Dad looked stunned.
"Your son is dying and you act like you don't even care!"
Dad looked upset.
"I'm sorry…I just…I'm not ready to give up on Sam"
Dad smiled slightly and said "It's ok son".
Then suddenly.
A cough
"Dad? Dean?"
Another cough.
We whipped around.
"Sam?" We echoed.
End Flashback
Everything seemed alright. Then three days later, everything changed. Out world was turned upside down.
Flashback
Me and Dad were in the canteen, when we heard an awful ruckus.
Doctors were running about as a voice came over the intercom.
"Code red. ICU 13. I repeat. Code red. ICU 13"
'ICU 13? Sam!' I thought and me and Dad bolted.
We got to Sam's room and the doctor and a few nurses were surrounding Sam's bed.
"Anything?" The doctor asked.
"Still no pulse" A nurse replied. We gasped.
"He's not responding" Another said.
"Try the paddles. 1000 volts" The doctor responded.
"Charging"
The doctor was handed the paddles and he placed them on Sam's chest. Sam's body bolted up and then back down again.
"Again"
"Charging"
"Nothing"
"Again"
"Charging"
"Still no pulse"
"One more time"
"Charging"
"No. I'm sorry doctor"
'No!' I thought.
"Alright" The doctor said as he put the paddles away. "I'll call it".
'No! Sam!'
"Time of death. 11:42 am".
'No! Sammy!'
For the third time in my life, I cried.
"Sammy" I whispered.
End flashback
I should have kept him safe.
But I didn't
That day changed my life.
Dad left, determined to hunt this thing down if it was the last thing he did.
It probably would be.
After all, it was the last thing Sam did.
The day I became as reckless as he was.
And a week later, I was alone.
Because Cassie left me too.
Because I was too consumed by anger.
Flashback
I opened the door to mine and Cassie's apartment only to see her packing.
"What's going on? Are we going somewhere?" I asked.
"No Dean. I am" she said.
"What?" I was confused.
"Look, I know you miss Sam. But what you're doing it isn't helping. It's not what Sam would have wanted you to do" She explained.
"Don't bring him into this!" I yelled.
She sighed. "I'm going to my mothers until you can sort this out"
"Cassie. Please" I begged.
"Goodbye Dean" and she shut the door.
End flashback
In the end, staying with Cassie didn't help.
It only got Sam killed.
I should have stayed with Sam.
But I didn't.
It was all my fault.
I promised Sam.
Promised him I would always be there for him.
I wasn't.
He was too young to remember.
But I still promised him.
And I broke that promise.
Flashback
We had just escaped the fire that killed mom. That almost killed Sammy.
Dad was talking to some police men who thought it was arson
I was sitting with Sam trying to sooth him after what happened.
"Don't worry Sammy. I'll always be there for you and keep you safe".
End flashback
That night, I promised him always be there for him; keep him safe.
I promised him.
I should have protected him.
I should have kept him safe.
I should have stayed with him.
I should have been there for him.
But I didn't.
I didn't do any of those things.
I broke my promise.
I failed.
End
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