He keeps falling short.
He's the leader of a glee club that's falling apart, the quarterback of a football team that won like, two games last season. So he's a failure at that too.
( Maybe if Blaine is Rachel's co-captain in glee, there wouldn't be so many members defecting. Maybe if Shane is the captain of the football team, they'd win more. )
He sees his future flashing before his eyes sometimes, he sees himself in Burt's garage. He's a pretty decent mechanic, and Burt's all for leaving his legacy to the other son.
He sees himself living in Lima for the rest of his life. He knows just how probable that is.
It scares the hell out of him.
But she thinks he can do anything.
She makes him feel like he's special. When he's with her, she makes him feel like he can do anything, because, you're better than the rest of them.
(But he's not. Obviously.)
She makes him feel like he's better than he really is, and when reality comes to bite him in the ass (and boy, does it keep on coming), it gets harder and harder to face.
But maybe he should just get used to it. Maybe he just needs to get used to being the guy who's never good enough. Maybe then it won't hurt so fucking much every single time he fails, because you're good Finn, you're just not good enough.
She's magic, and when she tells him they'll find his new dream together, he believes her. But when she leaves, her magic wears off, and then he's just Finn.
Just average, not good enough, Finn.
