okay so this is my masterpiece. this is my story that i have worked on for a very long time. the first chapter here is kindof like a prelude to the rest of it.
back ground you need to know: this story is about the life of Alianne Carson-potter, James half sister(obviously this is an au). it starts at James and Lilliey's funeral. i have spelled names different;ly as i saw fit. i also added more characters and made another character waaaaaaaaaaaay out of canon. i hope you all like it and i hope that if you dont , you wont flame because flames are just rude and assholey things to do. there is alot of bad language in here. i tried to do as good as i could tomake them soundbrittish but im from Califonia so im not sure how well i did.
i hope you like it
aliey
Prelude
"We are gathered here today in so short a time since last we met to look back at the lives of two people who should be with us: James Anthony Potter and Lillieane Elizabeth Evans-Potter. Both were killed by he-who-must-not-be-named, betrayed by one Sirius Black- a man thought by many to be a close friend. Lillieane and James were very young and very involved in the war that has…"
I have no idea how long the priest- also known as Albus Dumbledore head master of Hogwarts school of Witchcraft and Wizardry- was talking; however from my position behind the large oak tree in the back of the court-yard, it was far too long.
Finally I noticed the Professor nod to Remus- who was standing next to me- and he took my young godson and nephew Harry out of my arms and said quietly- "Aliey, I know that you don't care to be here but please say something. James and Lilliey were important to you. I think you owe them the honor of…"
"Remus" I cut in, my voice equally low "shut up. I'm going. Just keep Harry calm"
"Alright, good luck" he told me as I walked towards the podium.
"Alianne Carson-Potter has a few words she would like to say on behalf of James and Lillieane." Dumbledore was saying as I joined him "here you are my dear."
"Thank you sir," I whispered looking at the old man. "Okay, where do I start?" I was still speaking in a low voice. Looking into the crowd, I saw a man and woman standing there- both with long blond hair, both with tears in their eyes. I knew where I had to start. "James and Lilliey… god I just cant believe they're gone. James was…he was more than my older brother; he was one of my best friends. I loved him so much. He was always there for me when I needed him (and on occasion when I didn't). He was a great man- a great father, friend- a great brother- and the last thing I said to him was that I hated him and didn't want him in my life any more." Then I whispered to my self, "God, I'm such a fool"
"Um…Lilliey... God, Lilliey. She was my best friend…" I said, tears now running freely from my eyes "and I loved her like she was my sister. So it only makes sense that she married my brother, right? She was an amazing woman. It's hard to think that she gave her life up to save that of a world that hardly accepted her. Both she and James loved their son Harry with all their hearts. They were honestly the perfect couple- both taken far too soon. And I know that I speak for every one here when I say that they will be missed very, very much." I took a step back from the podium then and as loud as I could manage, I yelled to the sky-"good-bye James and Lillieane, we love you a lot and miss you already." And with that I walked as calmly as possible back to my tree.
The funeral lasted for hours, but I hardly noticed. My mind kept drifting back to the events that had taken place five days ago- on Halloween. You see my half-brother James and his wife Lilliey were killed after being in hiding for almost a year by the asshole, or docktor Handkock another name for a man styling himself by the name of Lord Voldemordt. By the time I had found out, my fiancé-Sirius Black-had gone after Peter- an old friend from our school days- and killed him and twelve muggles- non-magic folk. Sirius was immediately sent to azkaban prison without any trial. He had betrayed my brother and his wife to death. James' son Harry was then sent to live with his muggle aunt and uncle- lilliey's only remaining family. I knew that after today I would not be aloud to see my nephew any more until after his 17th birthday due to the fact that I wasn't old enough now to take him and Petunia and Vernon Dursley would never allow me into their house. Thinking of this just made me hold the little boy in my arms even tighter.
The 'final-goodbyes' were incredibly hard for me as both caskets were open. I knew it was my place to go first but I just couldn't. Remus and Lucious-another friend from Hogwarts- were standing by me the whole time and even though I desperately wanted to be alone, I waited for every one to pass by and give me their condolences (all of them telling me how wonderful my speech was and what wonderful people my brother and sister-in-law were). After they had all passed, Remus, lucious, and luci's wife Gwen stuck a conversation up with me- no matter how much I just wanted to leave and even though they knew I had only spoken a little bit since I had found out what had happened.
"Merlin," Lucious started "it's so hard to believe they're gone"
"I just can't believe it was Sirius." Gwen said softly. "I mean who would have guessed?"
Just then Remus leaned in toward us and said in a voice just barely over a whisper "I don't believe it was Sirius. I think Peter tricked us all."
"That's crazy Remus!" Gwen said sharply "why would little Peter do that to us?"
"Why not?" Was his only reply.
"Would both of you please be quiet" I practically screamed "don't talk about this dammit! Not while Harry's here!"
"Oh come on Aliey! He knows what happened!" Gwen yelled back at me "He knows his parents are gone and he know it's…" I can only thank Merlin that lucious was there and knew exactly what his wife was about to say. He covered her mouth and said just loudly enough that only Remus, Gwen, and I could hear "he doesn't under stand though, dearest. All he knows is what we've told him- that they aren't here anymore. He's too young to figure out why that is!"
"Can we please just talk about this later?" I asked quietly "I just want to get this day over with and leave to spend my last few hours with my nephew having at least a little fun."
"Your right Aliey," Remus said for every one, "Do you want to go say 'good-bye' now? I'll hold Harry for you."
"Yes, Remus, I think I do want to go now but I want to take Harry with me and let him say 'good-bye' to his parents one last time before he has to go back to that hell-hole Hagrid calls Surrey."
"Wonderful idea, my dear"
"Thanks. I'll meet you at the front gate later." I said walking forward, my little boy toddling at my side because he didn't want to be held anymore. I almost didn't here lucious say "see ya kiddo!" Hearing that made me smile a bit.
Walking to the caskets of two of the most important people in your life is hard. When you are sixteen months old, the two most important people in your life are your parents. Even with that said and known it still surprised me when the little boy standing at my side holding my hand stopped, looked up and asked me "Anna, where Prong an' l'i f'ower (his nick names for his mum and dad)? Arew they s'ill s'eepy?"
'Oh god' I thought 'who the bloody hell told him they were sleeping? I guess now I have to tell him the bloody truth. And in words he'll understand too. "FUCK!!"
"Anna? Why you sthay 'fuc'? where Pa'foo'?" I hadn't realized that he had heard me cursing out loud so I did the only thing I could think of- I scolded.
"Don't say that word Harry. It's not polite."
"Den, why you sthay it?"
"Because I'm an adult Harry."
"Oh. Okay. Where Pa'foo'? Where mummy an' daddy? Where Wormy? I misthes dem."
I kneeled down so that I was face-to-face with my nephew and said to him "Mummy and Daddy are in heaven now, Honey. So is Wormy." As I said this, I was thinking 'I can't do this! I can't tell this little boy that his god father is the reason his parents are dead. I just can't bloody well do it'
"An' Pa'foo'?" he prodded not fully understanding what I had told him.
"Padfoot" I said sighing "Padfoot's gone to a place that he's not going to get out of, Harry. Your god father is as good as dead now." There were tears running unchecked down my face yet again. It seemed like all I ever did any more was cry.
"Anna, wha's dead?"
With that question, my breath caught in my throat and when I was finally able to speak, it was in a very strained tone. I said "Harry, dead is when you go away and you can't come back. Even if you really, really want to"
"But Anna, where d'you go?"
"Heaven Harry," I said kissing his forehead "you go to heaven."
Looking into the faces of my brother and best friend was almost unbearable, and as Harry leaned down kissing both of them and whispering "Nigh' nigh' l'i f'ower. Nigh' nigh' daddy. I lo'e you. Sthay hi to Wormy fo' me." I broke down. I then told Harry to go over to Genasyne- Lucious' maid that we had all come to think of as a friend.
I only stood there for a few minutes thinking about Lilliey and James. When the two of them finally got together after years of constant arguments, I was so happy. James had kept me up all the night before their first date just running into my room at random intervals yelling "she finally agreed to go out with me! I love you Kitten, you're the best sister ever!" or something of the sort. I thought about how Sirius and I had helped them to make up when they had a fight. I remember how when Lilliey and Gwen graduated from Hogwarts, James had cried (and James never cried). He proposed to her that night with all of us there- he made it seem like he tripped over something and when she bent down to help him up, he slipped the ring on her finger and asked her. Every body thought it was so romantic at the time (I still do). As I thought about all this a man came up behind me. I paid him no attention.
"I'm so sorry, James. I didn't mean what I said that night." I whispered to my older brother. "I don't hate you. I never have. I never could- I love you too much. Merlin, I miss you, Jamie. I don't know how long I can do this. I need- no scratch that- Harry needs- you. I wish you could come back or that maybe I could join you. That can't happen though can it? Am I ever going to be happy again with out you guys? Did you think it was Sirius who gave you in or are you like me and Remus? Do you think it was Pete? Was it Pete? I can't help it, I'm almost sure it was him because Sirius was always with me. I guess you were right after all, James. Maybe Sirius and I weren't meant to get married, maybe- I don't know- maybe I just need to get away and think for a while- like Andrew did (except I have nobody to abandon).
"Good-bye James. Sleep well. I'll miss you." As I finished, I did something I had never done before (to my brother at least) - I kissed him twice on each cheek and once on the forehead (It was part of a song he and I had written years ago 'kiss me once for the good times baby. Kiss me twice for good-bye'), and then turned to my best friend.
"Good-bye Lils." I whispered "take care of our moron, won't you? Take care of yourself, too. I love you Lillieane. Sleep well." And- after kissing her on the forehead as well- I did as I had told my friends I would do- I headed to the front gate.
"Alianne," a male voice said from behind me as I was walking. I ignored him, having no wish to even hear what this person wanted to say to me.
"Aliey, please you have to hear me out! Please talk to me I'm so…"
With that, I spun around and slapped the man yelling "WHAT? YOU'RE SORRY? DON'T YOU BLOODY WELL TELL ME YOU'RE SORRY ANDREW! IT WONT CUT IT!"
"But, Aliey, I am sorry. I…"
"I DON'T CARE! You don't just disappear the day after your own MOTHER dies, not have any contact, as to where you went, and then show up again-out of the blue- FIVE YEARS LATER!" I knew I should have just kept everything in the way I usually do, but once it started there was no way it was going to stop- I had been holding all of this in for five and a half years and I needed to get it out.
"Aliey-Kitten- I can't explain how sorry I am. But that was five years ago."
"And..?" Though my voice cracked at the use of my old nickname, my eyes still held their cold gaze "What? What the hell do you expect me to do? Do you want me to just forgive you? Pull you into my arms and act like the last five years of my life never happened? What, Andrew? Go on ahead and tell me, 'cause I really don't give a shit anymore!"
"No Aliey, I just want you to hear me out. Just listen to what your big brother has to say."
"Andrew," I said in a voice full of un-spoken fury "let me take a shot at what it is you want to say. You're gonna tell me that five years ago, when mom died, you panicked. That you didn't know what to do so you just up and ran. You left your fourteen-year-old sister and sixteen-year-old brother on their own- to fend for themselves. You're gonna tell me that five years ago- at twenty-four- you were too immature to take care of two teenagers, when you had in fact been taking care of twin girls since you were twenty- years old. Is that what you're going to say-BIG BROTHER?"
"Merlin, Alianne, how did you get so smart?" Andrew started- sarcasm dripping in his voice, "That's exactly what I was going to say. NOTYes I was stupid then! Yes I panicked! But did you ever stop to think that maybe- just maybe I was also scared? No! You were too busy hating me to realize this!!! I was terrified that I was going to die too, leaving you and James with no one…"
At this point in time, we were so engrossed in all out shout match that both of us were turning a very deep purplish-red. "SO YOU LEFT?" I yelled back furiously "LEAVING US WITH NO-ONE!?!? YOU'RE EVEN SMARTER THAN I AM!! (Please note my sarcasm) I CANT FUCKING BELIEVE YOU ANDREW BRIAN POTTER!"
"AND WHAT ABOUT YOU ALIANNE?" he yelled back just as angrily "YOU WONT EVEN LISTEN TO WHAT I HAVE TO SAY!"
"Then why don't you just say it before she can interrupt?" a cool voice cut in.
"Ah, hello Malfoy. Not in Azkaban yet I see." Andrew snarled turning around.
"Nope. Now whilst Aliey is still speech less, why don't you say what you came to say and leave?" Lucious replied dryly.
"Fine. I came back to tell you that after I left- after mom died and all- I realized that I still had this. So here it was supposed to be for your sixteenth birthday but… oh well." with that he threw a box at me and turned to go. "Good bye Alianne. You won't have to put up with me again, for I'm not coming back." He walked away with out a look back at me.
Picking up the box I noticed the hand writing- writing I hadn't seen in over eight years now. The box said "To my little Kitten on her sweet sixteen. I love you Leah-Raech." When I opened the box, I saw a silver locket with gold filigree letters spelling out the words "Sisters by Nature, Friends by Choice" I closed the box and put it in the pocket of my robes.
The 7th ofNovember- Sirius's 21st birthday- came and the five of us- Remus, Lucious, Gwen, Genasyne, and my self- were standing out side of the ruins of James' and lilliey's old home in Godric's Hollow. We had just dropped Harry off at his Aunt and Uncle's house in surrey, and I was getting ready to head to my train whilst the rest of them were going home to rest.
"This is all just a dream" Gwen whispered, tears attempting to escape her eyes "A never ending nightmare that just has us all fooled."
"And now you're leaving us too, Miss Aliey" Genne added softly.
"Yeah about that Aliey, why are you leaving?" Remus asked, looking at the letter in his hand.
Why am I leaving you? I thought I'm leaving because I have nothing left here. Why else would I be leaving?! I knew I could never say that to any of my friends so I thought hard about how to reword it, and answered slowly, saying "You guys all know I love you right?" I started. When I had seen that they had all nodded their heads, I continued "I know this is almost unbearable for us all, especially you Remus you're the last marauder. But as of Friday, my entire biological family, yes I do know that I am adopted, is gone. I just need some time to come to terms with that and the fact that my fiancé-"
"You aren't engaged yet though"
"Yes lucious I am-was- he proposed to me on the 30th. But I need time to come to terms with the fact that I won't ever see him again. I need to…god I don't know…distance my self from magic for a while" maybe, I thought, I should word this differently. Seeing their faces I knew I had to.
"look, I know now's when we need to be together but everywhere I look, there a memory of Jamie, Lils, or Sirius, or even all three of them., especially here in London. And right now it's just more than I can bear. I really am sorry."
"How can you do this, Aliey? Do our feelings mean nothing to you?" Gwen asked me, her soft usually kind voice full of anger. "What the hell about our feelings, huh? What about all of our memories of them? Of Peter? We've now lost so god damn many people that it's hard to believe our original 9 is now cut to four! What if we need time too? We can't take more time off work, especially me and Lucious- we have to provide for Draco! It is hard Alianne but you know what, that's LIFE! So get the hell over your self because we loved them too!" with that she ran away Genne running after her.
"I was going to say I'd be back as soon as I find out what I'm going to do but maybe I just won't come back at all." I said with tears in my eyes. Both guys noticed this and enveloped me in a hug.
"It'll all be okay Aliey," lucious said, "Gwen will come around in time. You do need time to accept all that's been happening. Don't worry about it I'll talk to her."
"This week has been hard on you kiddo." Remus added, "It's been hard on all of us."
"Thank you guys, both of you, you don't know what this means to me. And I think I will come back- if not for me for you two and Harry when he's old enough." I told them the thing is though, I thought, Gwen's right, I shouldn't be leaving, I should stay here and get over it that way. I remembered something when I saw the letter in Remus' hand "You'll make sure to give that letter to him wont you Rem? If you ever see him again."
"You can count on it Aliey." Remus said saluting "I have to talk to him for the ministry any way so when I leave I'll be sure to give him this." He then whispered in Russian "I won't even look at it"
"Thank you Rem. Tell him good-bye for me too would you?" I whispered back to him.
"Hey assholes" lucious yelled at us "it's not nice to speak in tongues that other people in the room don't understand"
"Sorry." We both said at the same time.
"Hey at least you got her to smile Lucious" Remus said looking at me.
"I have to go finish packing up all my stuff." Even though I was still smiling, it faded. "I guess I'll see the two of you when I get back..."
"Alright then kid," Lucious started apparently thinking I was finished. I wasn't.
"Wait," I said cutting him off, "before I go, Luci, will you tell Gwen, Genne, and Severous good bye for me?"
"Of course I will A.J." he said as I smiled wider at his use of an old nickname he gave me when I was 12(back when my name for him was bleeding asshole). "You take care of you; I'll make sure to take care of them."
"Good-bye, Alianne," Remus started pulling me into another hug. "Take good care of you self."
"Take care you two; I'll see you when I get back- hopefully soon." I said giving each of them a kiss on the cheek. I smiled, saluted them (inside joke), and then walked away from them, London, my friends, my family, and my past.
Waking up, I realized that my face and pillow were wet.
That was almost 16 years ago. I've been in Australia now for 13 of those years, living as a muggle named Adrienne Blackpin, a British teacher of the second grade. I've been able to keep up with news in the magical world by keeping a connection with Severous Snape over the last five years now. Four years ago, Sirius Black escaped from azkaban prison, the first ever to do so. Two years after that, he was freed after the ministry found Peter Pettigrew alive and trying to bring back lord Voldemordt. Peter was captured and given the dementors kiss and our world was put back on alert. Lord Voldemordt is back and appears to be more powerful than ever. Thanks to Severous- and the unfortunate passing of my old charms professor Fillius Flitwick- I am now on a train back to my beloved Hogwarts to help finish a battle that should never have begun -
A NEW ADVENTURE IN THE MAKING!!!
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