Very new to fanfic. I do not own CSI:NY or its characters (I wish I owned Carmine :D). The rich guys at CBS do. Hope that you all enjoy.
Lindsay had come to the realization that Danny was not going to come back to her and their budding relationship. Her heart ached. She didn't know what to do. She continued working at the lab but that was getting harder every day. Seeing Danny there but, not really there was difficult. She wanted to run up to him and beg him to snap out of the depression he had been in since Ruben died and let her love him. He pretty much avoided her all the time except for when they were working on a case together which didn't happen that much anymore. In fact he pretty much avoided everyone. She tried keeping busy. She and Stella would get together and go out or have a Girls Night at each others apartments but, no offense to Stella's company; she just wanted to be with Danny. He was her Prince Charming with a bruised heart at the moment.
Lindsay was walking down the hall of the lab thinking about Danny and looked over to Mac's office. She saw him and what looked to be military brass talking. Just as she was walking by, Mac caught her eye and motioned her to come inside. When she got inside Mac started to make the introductions. "Lindsay this is COL. Hall, LTC Renner, and MAJ Krandall, gentlemen this is Det. Lindsay Monroe on of my best CSI's. Lindsay these gentlemen need our help or rather Crime Scene Investigators help."
"Det. Monroe we need help in training our army to do what it is you do," said COL. Hall.
"What do you mean sir?"
"Lindsay, the army would like a team of CSI's to train their men how to investigate a crime scene. So many terrorists are getting away with their crimes that the army would like to see how we catch the bad guy. They have chosen the NY crime lab and a few others around the country to take on the training. With my former military background I am going to be one of the CSI volunteers."
"Mac what does being former military have to do with training? Wouldn't we just train the soldiers and let them go?"
"No Lindsay. Since we usually only investigate murder crime scenes those who volunteer to do the training would actually have to go to the where the soldiers are."
"You mean that you are going to Iraq Mac?'
"Yes Lindsay that means I am going to Iraq and I need another volunteer. I would like
you to think about accompanying me."
"Mac I uh … I'm uh going to have to think about this. I just don't know."
"Well go ahead and think about it Lindsay, but you'll need to let me know by the end of the day tomorrow because we would need to leave in a week. I know that this would be a big decision for you."
Lindsay left his office slowly and made her way down the hall to her shared empty office. Danny had made himself scarce again. Inside Lindsay was torn. What should she do? Going to Iraq and teaching some soldiers new techniques was not that simple. What about family, work, friends, and her apartment? Most importantly what about Danny? He might need her. But another part of her was honored that Mac would think she was a good enough CSI to take on this assignment. She was even a little excited to be asked to help serve her country this way. What to do?
The next day Lindsay walked right into Mac's office with purpose and told him "yes I want to volunteer."
"Are you sure Lindsay? I don't want you to make any rash decisions because of what is going on between you and Danny."
"Mac I have gone over this decision backwards and forwards and I truly believe in what this assignment will accomplish. I spoke to my family and while they are concerned they know that I am doing this for a good reason. My landlord said that I could store my furniture in the basement and that I could sublet my apartment. The one major concern that I do have is my job here at the lab."
"Lindsay don't worry. Do you really think that I wouldn't hire you back?"
"But Mac how are you going to hire me back when you are going too?"
"We will use the same policy that allows National Guard and Reserves to deploy. Since this is a request coming straight from the government we won't have a problem getting reinstated. Also in my absence Stella will be in charge and you don't think that Stella wouldn't rehire us in an instant?"
"Well now that that has been settled I do have one favor to ask Mac. I don't want anyone to know that I am going away with you till we have left. I know that Stella knows but please don't let anyone else know. I don't want them thinking that I left solely because of Danny."
"Alright Lindsay. I understand," Mac said as he smiled warmly at her.
The next few days were a blur for Lindsay. Getting ready was taking a toll on her. She had to get the necessary shots, shop for things she would need, store her furniture, interview people to sublet her apartment, coordinate with Mac on supplies/equipment that they had to bring with them, and still wok her normal shifts.
Finally, her last day at the lab came (none the wiser) and Lindsay felt so nervous/excited/scared all in one. She wanted so badly to tell all her friends at the lab but knew that she wouldn't. Danny kept coming to her mind and what would he think of her decision. She decided that she would tell only him because she very simply still loved him. Lindsay knew that it wouldn't be easy to tell him not because she was scared but because he wasn't and hasn't spoken to her willingly in over a month.
Lindsay got her opportunity when she walked into the break room. Danny was in there getting some coffee. She walked in and took a deep breath and began to speak. "Danny. She said softly. She saw him tense up and slowly turned around to face her.
"What do you want Lindsay?"
"Well I just wanted to tell you that I…."
"You what Lindsay?" Danny interrupted harshly. You want to tell me it's not my fault and that I need to get over it huh?" Danny's voice continued to rise and his tone more harsh.
People from around the lab started to look up from what they were doing. Stella, Hawkes, Adam, and Flack were concerned and made there way over to the break room.
"That's not… what I. I love you Danny and I just wanted to …" Lindsay tried to tell Danny that she was leaving but he continued in his angry rant towards her.
"Get this Lindsay. I don't need you to fix me and I certainly don't love you. Why don't you get that? Why do you think I haven't spoken to you in a while? In fact I only slept with you to ease an itch. You just kept on hanging around like a lost puppy. It was embarrassing. I sort of felt sorry for you. Why do you think I never told anyone about us? But now I've had it. Get lost. Don't call me anymore or anything. Got it?"
Lindsay had stood there white faced with tears running slowly down her cheeks. "I uh um I…"
"You what. Danny yelled at her. You are just sad. You were never enough woman for a man like me." He said with a nasty sneer on his haggard looking face. "Stay away from me." Danny stormed by her and the rest of the very stunned team.
Lindsay knew that the team had heard everything and was crushed. She wiped her tears away and took some breaths in. Nothing was going to heal her heartbreak but she needed to pull it together and face the team and then get the heck outta there.
"Lindsay what was that about," asked Stella. "Are you going to be ok sweetie?" She asked while trying to pull Lindsay into a hug. The rest of the team started to surround her in concern.
"Yeah Linds what was Danny going on about? Were you two dating or somthin?" Flack asked.
"Guys I… I'm going to go now, Lindsay said while giving them her best fake smile. I can't talk about this right now. I really need to go home now." Lindsay began to walk out of the break room when Stella stopped her.
"You know Lindsay," Stella was telling her, "if you want to talk about this I will be right there for you."
"I know Stell but I just need some time," Lindsay said with a sad half smile.
Lindsay glanced at the rest of the team saying good bye to them. Knowing that she probably wouldn't see them for quite a while. But knowing they had no idea she wouldn't come back to the lab for some time.
Lindsay slowly made her way to the Hotel that she and Mac were staying at prior to their departure. She had never felt as bad as she did at that moment that Danny railed at her. Well he would get his request granted she would leave him alone.
