Preface:
Tamaki's POV:
A day doesn't go by when I don't think about them, about her...
Today is almost like my first year. Last year I was found by family, having had amnesia. I couldn't remember anything. It is the one year of me being back to normal. With my family, in France. But lately, as it's been coming up to my first year of normality, I've been having these strange dreams. Dreams about the life of a boy living in Japan. Which, I didn't think was too weird because my father, Yuzuru Suo, the superintendent of a very prestigious school, called Ouran Academy, lives in Japan. I don't remember him at all, but I was told I was raised by him until I was thirteen in Japan. My name is Tamaki Suo, and I am currently eighteen years old, living at one of my mothers family estates with my fiance, Éclair Tonnerre.
Chapter One; Getting over it.
Haruhi's POV:
I awoke to the sound of birds noisily chirping outside of the window, and to the smell of dad cooking breakfast. I layed there for a minute.
Today is going to be a rough one. I thought to myself.
"Goooooood Moooornnninngggg Hhhhaaaarruhiiii!" I heard my dad sing from the kitchen. I arose out of bed and stumbled around the room to get dressed. I opened the closet and pulled out my Ouran uniform. I held it in my hands for a brief moment, and his face flashed into my head, saying,
"Well good morning to you Haruhi!" I could feel tears welling in my eyes. I took a deep breath, and continued to get ready. I quickly rushed out of the bedroom and to the door.
"You're not going to eat with my this morning Haruhi?" Dad said in a saddened tone.
"I know why you're not eating, just like when your mother passed, it's the same way." He said.
"It's been a whole year hasn't it." He lowered his head.
"I took me and the boys a whole two months to get you to eat a decent meal." I looked at him.
"Dad, I'm fine. I'll be off now." I put my shoes on and started out the door.
"I love you Haruhi!" He yelled as I was leaving.
"I love you too dad." I yelled back.
I hurried down the stairs and to the sidewalk, and started on my way to school.
I arrived at school to find Hikaru and Kaoru waiting at my desk.
"Hey guys." I smiled, and sat down.
"You don't have to wear a fake smile for us." Kaoru put his arm around me.
"It's okay Haruhi, we're all upset today." Hikaru put his arm around me too.
"Guys, guys, I'm fine. Really." I brushed their arms off and smiled again.
"Were here for you Haruhi" They said in unison, and walked to there desks. Hikaru patted my head while passing me.
"Were always here to be shoulders to cry on" He said and half-smiled.
"Thanks, but really, I'm okay." I said and put a smile on.
The day couldn't have went by any slower, but now it was the end. Host club time. I looked at the clock.
Dammit. I whispered. Of course I would be late. I ran to the club room. I walked in to see no guests waiting. Everyone was still putting on costumes. Kyoya walked over to me.
"Guests will be arriving shortly, here." He threw a black tuxedo at me.
"Put this on, it's what we will be wearing for the service."
"Oh, okay." I said. I started off toward the changing room, then Kyoya grabbed my shoulder.
"Haruhi." He said.
"What is it?" I looked at him with a blank stare.
"It's okay, Haruhi, to be sad." He pulled me in a little closer.
"I'm just as sad as everyone else." I looked around, Honey sat on the couch while Mori helped him with the suit, and Hikaru and Kaoru were whispering to each other. Nothing to out of the ordinary except for the silence.
"Were worried, Haruhi." Kyoya said to me in a stern tone.
"I-it's alright, Kyoya Senpi, I-I'm fine, you don't need to worry." I could feel the tears coming. He pulled me in, hugging me now.
"Y-you don't need to hug m-me like that S-senpi.." I whispered.
"Haruhi, please. It's okay. You can cry about it. Your father has told me many things. He said you haven't cried, not once since it happened. And now, the past couple of days, you haven't been eating properly. Were here Haruhi. You don't need to be brave for us. As long as we have each other, we can handle it." He hugged me tighter.
"K-kyoya Senpi." I whispered. Everyone looked over, Honey, Mori, Hikaru, and Kaoru walked over and put a hand on me. Then, before I knew it. I actually felt the tears coming down my face. Is started screaming and sobbing.
"H-HE'S DEAD!" I screamed.
"TAMAKI IS DEAD AND IT'S ALL MY FAULT!" I sobbed, and screamed. Kyoya and the others held me tightly as I frantically yelled and sobbed.
"He-He was in love with me.." I whispered in gasping breaths.
"I couldn't stop them in time, I didn't even try hard enough to reach him." I sobbed.
"He was going off to marry that girl..and I could have stopped it, if I just told him how I really felt." I cried some more in Kyoya's arms.
"And then, I hear about the accident." I could feel the lump in my throat swelling, wanting me to scream and cry some more.
"IF ONLY I HAD GOTTEN THERE!" I screamed.
"Haruhi." Kyoya whispered.
"It's okay Haru-chan." Honey Senpi said.
"Were here for you, whenever you need us, me, Mori, Hikaru, and Kaoru." He whispered. I looked up to see all of there faces, tears streaming, with a saddened look in their eyes, Mori nodded. Hikaru and Kaoru hugged me tighter.
"I truly love you guy's. You've done so much for me, and I've practically done nothing for you." I started to sob.
"You've done more than nothing Haruhi." Kyoya said.
"You've given us something more in our lives, Haruhi. You've touched our hearts." Kaoru whispered.
"Thank you." I whispered into Kyoya's chest.
They were all right. It was okay for me to be sad. I was sad. I was devastated. I knew it was my fault. I could have been there to stop Tamaki from going. I was in love with him too, I just couldn't get myself to tell him my true feelings. But now, It was too late. I let the one good thing in my life slip away from me. And now, he's gone forever.
It was the end of today's Host club duties. I hugged everyone goodbye, then I was one my way home. Kyoya Senpi told me to call him if I needed anything. And I told him not to worry. I told them all not to worry. I was going to fix things. I was going to get rid of the pain and suffering I put myself and my loved ones through. I don't think I could put up with this any longer. I didn't realize what I had, until it was gone.
