AN- I'm back! I've been really busy with my first few months of college. Yay me! Well I had this idea that came to me after Wednesday's episode "A Honest Woman" when Erin gets her job offer. This is what I hope will happen, but it's kind of doubtful. Oh well. I had a lot of fun writing this and am really happy to share with you guys! So R&R! And please review or PM me with your comments and suggestions! I would really appreciate it!
She doesn't know how she ended up here. She had to tell someone. She didn't even think she just walked. She walked for miles and ended up at his door. Just as she was about to knock, she heard footsteps behind her and she turned around just as her partner started to speak.
"Hey Lindsay. What's up? How long have you been waiting here?" Jay asked her with a contagious smile.
"Uhh just a few minutes. I just… I uhh…" She notices the case of beer in his hands, "Can I come in and have a few beers? Just like the good ole days?"
"Of course! I got plenty to share!" Jay opens the door and walks into his kitchen setting the case down. "The Blackhawks game starts in a few. You wanna watch?"
"Uhh sure." She takes a beer for herself while simultaneously avoiding eye contact with her partner and heads to the couch.
Erin couldn't even focus on the television screen. Jay's complaining about the refs and cheering when they scored were drowned out by the thoughts that plagued her mind. Her own unit! That's amazing, but she could never leave her Intelligence family right? She couldn't. She couldn't take the job. She couldn't leave Voight. And if she was being honest with herself she couldn't leave her partner either. But its not like she could do anything about that anyway. But this was such a great opportunity. A once in a lifetime opportunity. Her own unit. She was pulled out of her thoughts when she felt a hand touch her shoulder.
"Erin, what's really going on? Why'd you come here? You have barely had any of your beer and you've barely said anything. I've been trying to talk to you for like 5 minutes and you've been staring at the wall."
Erin looked at Jay with a vulnerable look on her face, "Nothing. It's nothing." She sat up straighter to make it look like she was okay, "I'm fine really. Just a little tired that's all. I just zoned out for a bit."
Jay looked at her with worried look on his face, "Erin. I'm your partner. You know you can tell me anything. I won't judge. You know that. So why can't you tell me."
"It's nothing really. It doesn't even matter because I'm not going to do it."
"Do what?" The second period of the game was about to start.
"Let's just watch the game." Jay sighed and turned his attention back to the screen but was internally worrying about the person who sat on his left.
It was about halfway through the second period when Erin blurted out, "I was offered a job to run my own unit for the feds." Jay looked at her shocked. "I probably won't take the offer. I mean its a good thing right? Don't answer that. I know you'll probably want me to take it because you're a good person. You want me to succeed, but I don't need your opinion, Jay. This is my decision to make. And I don't want anyone in Intelligence to know. Voight can't know about this until I've decided. Okay Jay? You can't tell anyone. Can you promise me that?"
"Erin, I…"
"No stop there. I don't want to hear what you have to say. You can't tell anyone okay?"
"Okay." They awkwardly sat there in silence for a few minutes before Erin got up and said that she was tired and should be heading home. Jay sat there speechless until he fell asleep.
One week passed and Jay could tell Erin was avoiding him. She had been partnered with Antonio all week and he was partnered with Atwater. They just wrapped up a case. He tried talking to her once, but she turned him down and walked straight out of the room.
Everything seemed normal besides that until Voight walked in. "Alright everyone. I've got some sad news. Erin got a job offer to run her own unit for the feds." Everyone looked at Erin and she wouldn't make eye contact with any of them. "Today was her last case in the Intelligence Unit. All she has left is paperwork and to clean out her desk. That's all. Now get back to your work."
Antonio and Olinsky made their way to Erin and gave her congratulatory hugs. Atwater and Ruzek gave her snide remarks about who she would miss the most. Jay sat in silence staring at the scene in front of him. Why didn't she tell him that she decided what to do. How could she just leave without telling him. He grabbed his coat and walked out as Erin watched him.
He walked around Chicago for two hours just thinking. He finally decided he needed to see her.
He walked to her apartment knocking hard on her door yelling her name. She opened the door. "What do you want?" She said with a hint of annoyance in her voice.
"Can I come in?"
"Sure. But you're going to help me pack." Jay walked in and saw all of the boxes near the front door.
"When are you leaving?"
"Tomorrow morning. My flight's at noon, but I need to be at the airport by 9:30."
"So what do you need help with?"
"Just moving boxes out here I guess. Otherwise most of my things are all packed up." She leads him to her bedroom for him to help with her boxes.
"When did you decide? Were you even going to tell me?"
Erin looked at him with a blank face devoid of any emotion, "I just called them up two days ago with my decision to go. Jay, it's a good opportunity. I would be an idiot if I didn't take a chance at something I really want." She pauses and realizes what she said and looked into his eyes quickly then glanced back down putting tape on the box in front of her. "I told Voight after I left your place the other day. He told me to go with my gut and that he would be proud of me either way and that he would be fine if I left. So, after a few days, I went with my gut and called them up."
Jay stared at her, "That doesn't answer my question you know."
"What question? Oh you mean when was I planning on telling you? Uhh well, to be honest I wasn't going to. I knew what you would say and I didn't want to hear it. I didn't want to hear you tell me to go."
Jay scoffed, "Wow Erin. We're partners or should I say were partners. You would've just left without even telling me goodbye? Wow I can't believe this."
"What do you want me to say Jay? Voight is fine here without me, Justin's back, and Burgess would finally be able to move up to Intelligence. I mean she deserves it for working so hard. Yeah sure I would miss you guys, but I need to take this opportunity for myself. This is my career and nobody elses. Nobody can convince me to change my mind. I've made my decision. Plus I don't have a reason to stay here anymore."
"Me."
"What?" Jay takes a step forward towards Erin.
"Me. I'm the reason you should stay Erin. I want you to stay." Jay steps closer to Erin until their lips are almost touching. Jay closes the gap. At first it's soft and Jay whispers, "Please stay." Their kisses became more passionate by the second.
Things heat up to the point of Erin being lifted by Jay onto the island counter in her kitchen. Erin pulls of his shirt and starts to undo his belt buckle. "Bedroom now." she says between kisses as he picks her up, her legs wrapping around his waist not breaking the connection of their lips.
He lays her gently on her bed. Clothes are thrown onto the ground. The both relish in the moment they have been waiting for, for over the past year.
The next morning, Jay wakes up with a smile on his face remembering the pure bliss he experienced last night. As he opens his eyes, he turns over to see the girl that he just had the greatest night of his life with. He saw no one there.
"Erin!" He yelled. No response. "Erin!" He looks over to her side of the bed. He sees a folded up piece of paper. He opens it.
Jay,
About last night, I'm sorry. I had to leave especially now. We could never be together if we both worked for Intelligence so its better this way. We won't have to be around each other and feel that pull. I felt it too. I want you to know that. But, I don't think I'm ever going to come back. I'm so sorry Jay. You really were the best partner a girl could have.
Erin
No. Jay thought. Why would she do this. After last night too? He looked at the clock and realized he didn't have time to think about this. He had to get home and change quick and then get to work, for his first day with a new partner.
It's been a month since Erin left. Everything felt different. There was a void in Jay's life and he didn't know how to fill it. Luckily, they had a huge case over the past week to keep his mind off things. They were just getting back from their big arrest of a Russian mobster when he hears Ruzek say "Well look what the cat dragged in! Guess you couldn't stay away for too long huh Lindsay."
Jay stops in his tracks at the top of the steps looking at Erin across the room. He's speechless. He doesn't know whether to be pissed off or happy until he hears her speak looking directly at him with a little smile on her face.
"Hey. I felt like it was time for a visit."
AN- Maybe a multi-chapter fic? Haven't decided yet. Review or PM me with any suggestions you might have! Thanks for reading!
