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/A.N/: Teddy thinks of Remus and Tonks.
It's not fair.
Not in Hogwarts.
Where everyone flaunts it in your face even if they don't know it.
Not at home.
Where grandma cries when she thinks I'm asleep.
Not at Harry's house.
Where my godfather has to tend to his children's needs first. Not mine.
Not at The Weasley's place either.
Where its so full of love and family,I think I can nearly hear my heart stop and burst sometimes.
I hate them.
Why did they go?
If they knew they might never see me again, why did they leave?
I mean, I shouldn't complain but...
I ...just...Merlin, I'm crying. If Victoire saw me crying, I don't think I would be able to look at her in the eye afterwards.
And it just isn't fair, that here I am, crying in this lousy field, way out here, far from everyone.
She's the BEST.
She tries to understand but she will never truly get it.
She will never truly know what it is to come home but not be home.
She takes it for granted.
They all do.
But its not their fault, anymore than it is mine.
And its not that I don't love grandma either.
I'm not that much of a heartless bastard.
But Harry understands.
He knows what I mean.
He knows what I'm looking for when I ask others about my parents.
Were they happy?
Were they brave?
Did they love me?
He knows what I'm searching every time I find photographs.
If I had a chance, I'd ask them,
"Why'd you leave?"
I needed them all those times when I was younger.
When people stared at me from afar and whispered covertly as I walked past.
When grandma forgot to cook for me and I went to bed hungry, not having the heart to remind her.
When I cried for the first time,knowing I lost something but I didn't know what it was.
Grandma feels a bit hurt when I Floo to Harry's to talk to him.
If not Harry ,who else?
Grandma won't tell me stories about them for really who could blame her?
To lose your daughter and husband in just a year...I'd cry MY face out, if I were her.
If I ever meet them...no, it'll never happen .
Stop dwelling on things that'll never work, Teddy Lupin.
But...what if...in another universe Remus and Nymphadora Lupin DID live and had a Teddy Lupin for a son?
Would they look like they did in the photos?
Would they have another kid?
Would I have been happier?
Would they have been happier?
I'd give anything to have them alive.
Anything.
To have them....it's all I want.
Its all I really need.
Are they proud of me right now?
Wherever they are?
Other kids hate their parents...they don't know how lucky they are.
And I wouldn't say I'm unlucky....Just a little, you know, unwanted as things go sometimes.
Not needed.
Not wanted.
