Disclaimer: I Do not own CSI, or any of the lyrics I use in this fic. I own Caleb, He's mine, all mine.
A/N: I've been working on this for a while now, this will probably have several parts to it. I am using songs that I love to hopefully make this meaningful.
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Sara stood in the locker room, alone, cleaning out her locker before the Christmas break, she was singing a favourite song.
Dancing bears,Painted wings
Things I almost remember
And a song someone sings
Once upon a December
She felt a tear drop from her eye. She turned around slowly and sat down on the bench. Unbeknownst to her, Nick was watching from around the corner. He had heard her sing quietly to herself around the lab before, but he realised now what a talent she had. Sara wrapped her arms around her torso and let the tears flow as she sang.
Someone holds me
Safe and warm
Horses prance through a silver storm
Figures dancing gracefully
Across my memory
She let out a little sob. Memories were flooding back.
She was 22 years old; Sara had been invited to perform at a local theatre for their "Local Talent" night. She hadn't told anyone, but since most of the small town would be there, they would all find out soon enough. She was giddy with excitement, her boyfriend of two years, Caleb, always came to these nights, but she had told him she was busy with friends and couldn't come with him. He had been visibly disappointed, but had not questioned her reasoning.
She had been practising her songs for more then two months, and had even gone out and bought a new dress for the evening, a short, red number with orange and yellow beading. She looked like a star and she felt like one too.
The big night arrived. Sara waited backstage with the rest of the chosen performers. She watched the first three perform. The first woman was a violinist. She made the violin sing, Sara was utterly mesmerised by her. The next was a coupe who sang as a duet. They sang "Beauty and the Beast"; Sara could not believe how talented they were. How could she, a child compared to the rest, be expected to live up to these standards? All of a sudden, the stage manager was beckoning her, it was time for her first song of the night, she felt her knees go weak.
She stepped out onto the stage, she didn't think she could do it. She walked up to the mike. She looked out into the crowd, she could see Caleb a few rows back, his mouth hanging open, and he was totally shocked. Slowly, she opened her mouth and began singing.
Someone
holds me,
Safe
and warm,
Horses
prance through a silver storm,
Figures
dancing gracefully,
Across
my memory...
All of a sudden, it all hit Sara. She realised that this was her moment, here she was, on this stage, in the spotlight, surrounded by everyone she knew, and they were all watching her, supporting her. She smiled to herself, and began the next verse.
Far
away,
Long
ago,
Glowing
dim as an ember
Things
my heart used to know
Things
it yearns to remember
And a
song,
Someone
sings,
Once
upon a December
As she finished, she saw the whole audience smile, they began to clap slowly, but gained until they were at a frenzied pace. She was so overjoyed. She knew that she belonged there. She could see Caleb sitting, a smile on his face. She took a quick bow before exiting the stage to the back room. She needed a drink before she went on again.
Caleb sat in the audience, a little miffed, he couldn't believe Sara hadn't told him about this. He would have to wait until later to speak to her.
Sara waited in the wings with her beer. She watched the other performers do their first, and then a few second sets. Before she knew it, it was her turn again. She had changed her clothing, more to suit her next song, she was now wearing a black dress a low front ad lace trim. For the last time that night, she walked onto the stage, exuding pure confidence.
She waked out to the mike, She leaned in, and listened for the music. She opened her mouth and leapt into her final song.
Blackbird
singing in the dead of night
Take
these broken wings and learn to fly
All
your life
You were only waiting for this moment to arise.
She looked out into the crowd. They were all staring as her velvety voice floated over them, she looked out to Caleb and continued her song.
Blackbird
singing in the dead of night
Take
these sunken eyes and learn to see
All
your life
You
were only waiting for this moment to be free.
Blackbird
fly, Blackbird fly
Into
the light of the dark black night.
Blackbird
singing in the dead of night
Take
these broken wings and learn to fly
All
your life
You
were only waiting for this moment to arise
You
were only waiting for this moment to arise
You were only waiting for this moment to arise.
When she finally looked up, she had tears in her eyes. The crowd arose and gave her a standing ovation. She walked slowly off the stage. She had done it.
The rest of the performers finished their sets, until, in the end, Sara was still the only one who had received a standing ovation, this shocked her, all the others were so talented. She walked into the lobby, she saw Caleb, but not with the smile on his face she had expected. He looked almost resentful. He pulled her by the arm to the parking lot, and they got into his car, the first 5 minutes of the long ride home were silent. Eventually she spoke up. "Caleb, what's wrong? Didn't you like it?" He sighed, "Of course I liked it Sara, I would have liked it a lot more if you had told me, I mean, you have a great talent, but you never sang for me before. And then, when you do let me hear you, you're paradng around onstage in a short little dress that leaves nothing to the imagination, in front of not just me, but every guy in town. Sometimes I wonder why you seem to need all this attention. You're a great girl Sara, but nothing special. The sooner you realise that the better."
Sara was shocked, was this really her Caleb speaking? She was stuck between wanting to hug him, and wanting to hit him. The rest of the long drive home was silent, not as she had expected it. After that, their relationship had petered out. She had always believed that her singing had been the cause, which was why she always sang alone after that day.
All of a
sudden, Sara was brought back to reality, she was still in the locker
room. Her arms entwined around her body, her shirt spotted with
tears. She turned around, Nick was standing behind her, he had tears
in his eyes. She leapt to her feet, "how long have you been
there?" She asked sternly. Nick looked into her eyes, "long
enough to hear you really sing. Why don't you ever let us hear
you? You have a honey of a voice Sar'." "No I don't."
Sara said, as she ran out of the room, leaving her bags behind her.
TBC
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A/N: I have been working on this one little by little for about two weeks now. R&R? Also, coming soon- A fic centred on Catherine. Keep checking up.
