What He feels…

Chapter one

Kyo stood before his open window eyes half lidded teeth and fists clentched. He stared out the window as the rain poured, the sky black, Air humid. His skin was pale. And his expression, cold. He was in pain…sick of everything. He was born with such a curse which made him wish death would greet him at any moment. The other Sohma's did not see the pain in his eyes, nor did Tohru.

Kyo was born under the year of the cat. Shunned by the other members of the zodiac. He was hated for a mere YEAR. Kyo slowly looked down his bangs covering his eyes. He clentched his teeth bearing them a bit and pulled his right arm back thrusting it forward punching the wall with all of his strength. What did it matter if he was born under the year of the cat… Who made them think in such a way…what made them all hate him..? Kyo fell to his knees leaning his forehead against the wall he had punched tears streaming down his cheeks and falling from his chin onto the floor. "Why me..!"

As he murmured words of hate about the rest of his family, Yuki and Shigure spoke of school downstairs and the smell of fresh fried rice and baked salmon filled the air. Tohru hummed happy little tunes to herself as she cooked for the family. "Any new students, Yuki?" Spoke Shigure with a sly smile. Yuki rolled his eyes with a heavy sigh. "Wouldn't you want to know stupid dog. All you care about are the girls anyways."

Tohru Walked into the Living room Carrying plates of food for the boys glancing around noticing Kyo wasn't there. "Have you Seen Kyo-Kun?" She asked with a slight smile. "I have no clue. He's probably sleeping in the rain. Outside where he belongs." Yuki said with a cold look making Tohru frown. "I will go get him.." Said Tohru taking off her apron setting it down beside Yuki. She turned towards the stairway and slowly walked up it gripping the railing.

She made it to Kyo's room and knocked lightly on the rice paper wall. "Kyo..? Are you in there..? Dinner is ready you should come down with us!" She smiled as she spoke but frowned when she heard Kyo yell "Go away! Don't mess with me! I'm not hungry…Just leave me alone!" Tohru could hear the hurt in Kyo's voice. She knew he was pondering on something that was causing him pain. Slowly she slid open the door to find kyo hunched over in a corner, hugging his legs to his chest, his forehead resting on his knees. He was shaking, as if he was cold. He was breathing heavily and he made groaning sound like he had been crying for a while and was still at it. When he took deep breathes he shook harder.

Kyo tensed when Tohru took a step towards him and he threw his head up glaring at her screaming out. "Go away! Leave me alone! Don't come near me!" Tohru flinched as he yelled and slowly turned her gaze to the ground. She frowned. "Kyo..? Why do you push me away..? I just want to help. I-" Kyo cut her off. "I don't CARE! Go away! I'm sick of this….I'm sick of all of you…I…want to..d..." He started crying again before he was able to finish his sentence. Tensing up he cried out "It wasn't my fault!" Tohru stared in shock at him. What was he going to say? He wasn't going to say he wanted to die. Was he..? Of coarse he had the worst curse of the Sohma's but was he really thinking of death? He couldn't be. What made him this way…?

"Kyo..? What's happening to you..?"

oo...uhm..its not good but...Im still making more chapters so BLAH! give ,me erm..like..comments..;...