Well I guess my mood isn't that great today.
I own nothing. And please R+R.. ^_^
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'If only..'
'If only I was more then I am now.. Just a weak useless girl. Always
needing help..'
Kaoru cried even more..
'I can't believe he...he'
Standing up leaning on the wall, straggling to walk up right but failing
to do so. She gave up, her body slowly sliding to the floor.
'How could this happen?'
'I'm a pretty, I'm smart..I know how to fight..but why?'
She looked around the dojo no one was here 'I bet they wouldn't want to
be near an ugly stupid girl who can't do anything right..'
She placed her hands on her sides of her head trying to relax and get a hold of herself..
"I can't believe even Tae my..bestfriend lied to me." Kaoru picked herself back up again.
Successful this time manage to walk without the support of the thin waxed walls.
"I shouldn't of followed them..Sano just came and left when they were far enough that I couldn't
see..but Kenshin.."
She entered her father's old room, everything was where it was when he was alive. Knowing exacty
what she was doing opened one of her father's chest digging untill his room was very messy with
dust and his old clothes everywhere. She stopped a happy yet sad face she had on pulling a small
but sharp dagger out.
She started cutting her arm watching the blood run on her arm and how red it was.
Taking time just to feel pain she made herself feeling something other then the sadness that she
wish was never there.
"I miss doing this.." She whispered to herself as if she were showing a friend what she was doing.
"They think I don't know..They think that I'm that stupid. I'm going to get some fish Kaoru-dono"
Kaoru said in a mocking tone.
"I know.." she placed the dagger on the ground and picked everything up placing it to the best to
where it was before she moved everything.
She took the dagger and sat down in her room grabbing a rag she never needed started to clean her
blood off of it.
"What am I going to do?" She asked the dagger. And as if the dagger replied she cut again and
again
trying to forget and push it out of her mind.
Cleaned the dagger again and put it carefully under her pillow as if it was her childhood toy
that could break if you handled it the wrong way.
She cleaned her arms and wrapped them neatly. Sure it was painful but it helped her to forget
but not to forgive.
She went outside knowing that they'll be back any minute now but bored with just sitting she
laid on the grass looking up to the sky.
'If only..'
She heard footsteps reaching towards the gate. 'How should I act?'
'The same way I always do..I guess.'
"Kaoru-dono what are you doing down there?"
She looked up to him, his gi messed up his hair even more messy then usual more messy then when
he left.
"Nothing Kenshin" She stood up and put her smile on her face
"So did you get any fish?"
"Iie" She could see that he did want to tell her something in his eyes, but not what she hoped
for nor dreamed about. But something she didn't want to know.
"Thats alright anyway I already ate dinner since you took so long Kenshin." she walked back to
her room.
"Sano do you think she knows?" Kenshin said in his most lowest voice so that if Kaoru was there
she couldn't hear what he said.
"Iie, if she did wouldn't she be crying and screaming for you to leave? And just be glad Yahiko
isn't here, he would of followed you."
"I just don't like doing this Sano.."
"But you can't help it,ne?"
"Well I gotta go, later Kenshin"
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Should I leave it at that?
I own nothing. And please R+R.. ^_^
------------------------
'If only..'
'If only I was more then I am now.. Just a weak useless girl. Always
needing help..'
Kaoru cried even more..
'I can't believe he...he'
Standing up leaning on the wall, straggling to walk up right but failing
to do so. She gave up, her body slowly sliding to the floor.
'How could this happen?'
'I'm a pretty, I'm smart..I know how to fight..but why?'
She looked around the dojo no one was here 'I bet they wouldn't want to
be near an ugly stupid girl who can't do anything right..'
She placed her hands on her sides of her head trying to relax and get a hold of herself..
"I can't believe even Tae my..bestfriend lied to me." Kaoru picked herself back up again.
Successful this time manage to walk without the support of the thin waxed walls.
"I shouldn't of followed them..Sano just came and left when they were far enough that I couldn't
see..but Kenshin.."
She entered her father's old room, everything was where it was when he was alive. Knowing exacty
what she was doing opened one of her father's chest digging untill his room was very messy with
dust and his old clothes everywhere. She stopped a happy yet sad face she had on pulling a small
but sharp dagger out.
She started cutting her arm watching the blood run on her arm and how red it was.
Taking time just to feel pain she made herself feeling something other then the sadness that she
wish was never there.
"I miss doing this.." She whispered to herself as if she were showing a friend what she was doing.
"They think I don't know..They think that I'm that stupid. I'm going to get some fish Kaoru-dono"
Kaoru said in a mocking tone.
"I know.." she placed the dagger on the ground and picked everything up placing it to the best to
where it was before she moved everything.
She took the dagger and sat down in her room grabbing a rag she never needed started to clean her
blood off of it.
"What am I going to do?" She asked the dagger. And as if the dagger replied she cut again and
again
trying to forget and push it out of her mind.
Cleaned the dagger again and put it carefully under her pillow as if it was her childhood toy
that could break if you handled it the wrong way.
She cleaned her arms and wrapped them neatly. Sure it was painful but it helped her to forget
but not to forgive.
She went outside knowing that they'll be back any minute now but bored with just sitting she
laid on the grass looking up to the sky.
'If only..'
She heard footsteps reaching towards the gate. 'How should I act?'
'The same way I always do..I guess.'
"Kaoru-dono what are you doing down there?"
She looked up to him, his gi messed up his hair even more messy then usual more messy then when
he left.
"Nothing Kenshin" She stood up and put her smile on her face
"So did you get any fish?"
"Iie" She could see that he did want to tell her something in his eyes, but not what she hoped
for nor dreamed about. But something she didn't want to know.
"Thats alright anyway I already ate dinner since you took so long Kenshin." she walked back to
her room.
"Sano do you think she knows?" Kenshin said in his most lowest voice so that if Kaoru was there
she couldn't hear what he said.
"Iie, if she did wouldn't she be crying and screaming for you to leave? And just be glad Yahiko
isn't here, he would of followed you."
"I just don't like doing this Sano.."
"But you can't help it,ne?"
"Well I gotta go, later Kenshin"
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Should I leave it at that?
