I don't wanna lose you now
Gotta be someway, gotta be somehow
Would you reconsider if I said I'd change?
If it gets too heavy, I'll carry the weight
"I need to go home" a voice came from behind Leah Lewis-Hall, Leah turned around in the
darkness outside her door, to the voice of Ethan Longacre her long time boyfriend. "What?"
she said after a consiterable silence, "I need to go home" he said, Leah noticed as he came
into the dim light of the room that he had traded his jeans and tee shirt for his home
spunshirt and trousers.
"But you are home. Th-th-this is your home" Leah stuttered, she felt her heart begin to crack.
Leah felt a warm hand on her shoulder, "No this is your home." he said calmly. she knew
deep down that he was Amish and that she was English, it would have never worked out, but
losing Ethan and Neil so close together seemed too much. "Stay" she whispered her voice
listless, "I need you" tears began to roll down her face. Ethan touched her face, "No you want
me, you dont need me" Leah shook her head, "I need you, Neil's death is so fresh and yet you
stand here and abandon me". Ethan shook his head, "I am not abandoning you Leah, I am
needed at home, I've seen your world, the violence the hate and my heart can not bear it."
Leah knew it was true her and Ethan were worlds apart, but she hadnt felt a difference this
big until now.
I know it's me, the reason why
We've come unraveled too many times
I don't know the answer, try anything
To bring us back to how we used to be
Ethan took her hand and lead her outside on to the porch, he scooped up some
dirt in his hands and held it out to her, "My father taught me the love of the land" he mused
as dirt slid through his fingers, "The harvest is getting ready to come in my father needs me
for the work" He turned and faced Leah, "I am meant to be in my world, I was unsure who i
was but now i am not" he took her hands, "Because of you i've learned where i belong" Leah
pulled away she hurt too much, sliding to the ground she listened to her heart beat as tears
fell down her cheeks dotting the dirt in a darker color. "Say something My Leah" He knelt
beside her, she looked up at him through tears, what do you want me to say she thought, my
heart is breaking, we dont belong in eachothers world and yet we fell in love what a cruel trick.
"How are you going to get home" she swallowed back tears. "I will take a bus to Indy and
catch a ride with a farmer from there" Leah shook her head, "No, I'll drive you home, go get
your things" Ethan turned and walked into the house, Leah hung her head and continued to
weep. Leah started her car, Ethan came around to the driver side, "May i drive, it'll be my last
time" Leah sighed and got up from the drivers seat and moved around the car to the
passengers seat, they took off. Rain gently tapped aginst the window echoing the storm
inside Leah's heart. Leah stared out as the blur passing in the windows. Leah leaned her head
aginst the cold glass, a hand took her's, tears streamed down her face it was reassuring yet
heart breaking. Hours passed like minutes, It was five am when they pulled up to the
farmhouse the sky was a pale pink, lights in the window showed the house was rising, Leah
stepped out of the car and leaned against the hood, "Oh My Leah I miss you already"
"You'll get over it she squeezed her eyes shut the pain hurt, "your fling is over you'll be
baptized and within a few years marry an Amish girl"
"You weren't part of my fling Leah you were part of my life" he said fiercely, "you're part of
my life" he said quietly, he reached out for her, "I love you and I'll never forget you,
until angels close my eyes" he whispered, she wanted to push him away she wanted to hold
him close, Leah bit her lip and put her face in her hands and sobbed.
I don't wanna lose you now
Gotta be someway, gotta be somehow
Would you reconsider if I said I'd change?
If it gets too heavy, I'll carry the weight
"Go, Go home" Leah said through tears, she wished she could take the words back, Ethan
looked at her, touching her face he took her hand in his and leaned in close, "Come with me."
He whispered.
Leah watched Ethan climbed over the split railed fence.
