I recently re-watched the first guardians of the galaxy movie and fell in love with Gamora all over again. This wasn't necessarily a good thing, especially since I have seen Infinity War 😢 I guess this is a sort of tribute to her, even though it has nothing to do with the movie itself. I know numerous people who think that Peter is the bad guy because he destroyed all their hard work, eventually leading Thanos to complete his plan, and I guess I partly agree. But I don't think I would have acted any differently to him if that happened to me. Grief blinds you. People tend to forget that.
I should be dead.
I wish I was dead.
If I was, I wouldn't have to live without her.
But I'm not.
And I do.
There will be a time when we must choose between what is easy and what is right.
The easy option would have been to turn my back on what was taking place not ten feet from me, and do my job. Kill the bad guys. But I couldn't do that. I couldn't look the other way while he lined her up in his sights and took the kill shot. So I chose to do the right thing. I chose to turn around and shoot the bastard before he could fire that bullet. But everything comes with a consequence. I realised this as a bullet buried itself in my back, right between my shoulder blades. And as I lay in my own pool of blood, I didn't regret my decision. I was going to die, but she would live. It was worth it.
At least it would have been, if that had actually happened. But it didn't. I didn't choose to do the right thing. I chose to turn my back on her as he pulled the trigger. But everything comes with a consequence. Her scream rattled me to my core. I couldn't have done anything, that's what I tried to tell myself. If I had tried to save her, I would have been killed. But deep down, I knew that didn't matter. I would have died, but she would have lived. It would have been worth it.
There will be a time when we must choose between what is easy and what is right.
That time has come and gone.
And I made my choice.
Was it worth it?
I should be dead.
I wish I was dead.
If I was, I wouldn't have to live without her.
But I'm not.
And I do.
For Gamora ❤
