Living in a Dream
Rated "M" for possible future events. Disclaimer: I do not own any of the characters involved with this story, unless I chose to involve and OC xD Then its mine. But nope, dont own them. Thank god? Gravitation would be ruined if I did!
Anyways, enjoy?
So. There I sat. Behind my desk, my elbows resting on top of the cold metal, and my forehead laying pressed onto my clasped fingers. I couldn't cry, no. I would not cry. I could hear the tears all screaming inside my head, I could feel them burning dangerously behind my eyelids. But no, I refused to let them fall, refused to show that weakness. Not now, not ever. It was finally over, all of it, dead and gone, all at the same moment his last breath had escaped his lips. Nothing was left… nothing at all. Only hours ago… he had been laughing. It had only been a few hours before, he had told me he was happy. I had almost gasped at him when he had said it. I can still remember how creepy I almost felt, seeing him walk into my office, wearing a large smile spread out on his lips.
"Eiri-san?" I looked up from my papers quickly as my door swung open, without a knock and un-announced. I watched as Eiri Yuki strode into my office. Staring at him in silence and shock for a moment, it took me too long to realize that he had a smile on his face, a happy smile. Pushing my chair back quickly I stood to my feet and walked towards him, closing the door behind him quickly.
"Eiri, you don't visit me often. Is everything alright?" I nodded towards the couch on the opposite wall, studying the strange smile on his face once more as he followed me over and we both sat down silently. Glancing to my side I watched as he turned to face me, I almost gasped out loud, his eyes were moist and his face looked of pure joy and happiness, but I held my cool and raised my brow at him.
"I'm happy Tohma… finally happy." I tried to hide the surprise on my face, but even I was not that great of a poker face. Anyone who heard the Eiri-san of these days look and speak those words, wouldn't be able to help but be surprised.
"Happy Eiri-san?" I questioned his words and he only shook his head at me, his smile staying in place.
"Yes… Tohma, I am happy. I'm not sick, don't try to tell me I am. My head hasn't been more clear in years. And Tohma… I'm going to ask Shuichi to visit the states with me again… and this time, I am going to propose. I want him with me forever Tohma…" I just sat there, not even trying to hide my shock anymore, just blinking at him. Moving quickly to hug him as I watched his smile fade and the tears begin to fall. "I..I cant lose him Tohma.. I just cant…. I don't think I could live if I lost him…." I held him as he cried,, rubbing his back. Iwasnt sure what had happened between him and Shindou, but… It looks like it was something for the better.
"Eiri-san, hush. He isn't going to leave you, and nothing bad will happen to Shindou. I will personally make sure of that." Making sure the last of my statement was whispered quietly. But slowly his tears stopped and he looke dup at me again with that same smile. Thanking softly.
I bit into my lip harshly as those same burning tears tingled down my cheeks at the memory. I only allowed a few to escape, before wiping them away quickly with my glove. Locking the rest of them back away, brushing the shattered pieces of my heart into the locked chest with the tears. Clearing my throat quickly I stood from my chair, glancing towards the clock I realized that it had already been five hours. Five hours since my heart shattered, and my reason to live flew away. Five hours since Eiri Yuki's body was crushed beneath the semi. Five hours since he was declared dead on arrival. Five hours since the phone call from my wife…. And only nine hours since I last saw his face, unknowingly for the last time.
A.N. : Alright, so its been MONTHS since Ihave written ANYTHING. I know its short, but I am concerned about how its coming along. Just leave me a comment, let me know if its got you at all. I am not sure about continueing. But will continue for sure if I get a few who like it. So, let me know. :D
