As always: I don't own anything, unfortunately.
Sorry for not posting so long. My excuse: school
I'm going to work on "Temptation" but right now I'm not really satisfied with chapter 4 so you will have to wait!
I hope you will like this one.
Joy and Pain
Chapter 1: The result
I dozily told him to be careful like every morning.
He told me not to worry and to look after myself like every morning.
I watched his fine ass as he walked out of my bedroom and I listened to the door closing…like eyery morning.
But this morning one thing was different.
I was lucky, that he had left for a serious meeting and he hadn't realized my nervousness.
The meeting had been on his mind since he had woken up.
Today that had definetly worked in my favour!
Because this morning was different.
I counted to 30 and then I ran to the phone.
"You have it?"
"Yes, he away?"
"Yes, hurry! I'm dyin' here."
I paced in the living-room.
It only took her 15 minutes, but it seemed like a lifetime.
She was out of breath, but I just grabbed the bag and left the room.
A few minutes later I came back in and sat beside her on the sofa.
She took my hands in hers and together we stared at the clock.
6:55…6:56…6:57…6:58…6:59…7:00
I looked at the door to my bathroom, while she looked at me.
"Come on, not looking won't change the result."
Yeah, but I was so good at ignoring problems, and if the result was what I feared in secret….I wouldn't be able to ignore it anymore!
She sighed.
"Come on, you have to look, I didn't do this for nothing!"
She stood up and pulled me towards the bathroom.
There she took it without looking at it and held it out to me.
I kept my eyes on hers.
I saw friendship, love and support. She had always supported me.
I took a deep breath and looked down.
Nausea hit me.
After looking for a few minutes I lifted my eyes again.
She was smiling at me.
My eyes watered and her smile diappeared.
"Steph, why not?"
"I'm not gonna be a good…."
"Stop, that right now! Of course you will be!"
I looked to the right and saw his razor lying there, as it had been since two months.
I still remember looking at it for the first time, wondering what it should mean.
"When are you going to tell him?"
I looked at her in shock.
"You have to!"
"But he will feel forced."
"Steph, it would have happened anyway. He loves you."
I sank down on the floor, she sat down beside me.
"Only in his own way and his life doesn't allow relationships."
"And what is it you have, if not a relationship?"
I looked at my hands, still holding it.
"He always told me he would be back."
"Who are you trying to convince, honey?"
I sighed and leaned against her.
Her arms came around me and I looked down again.
Still………positive.
TBC
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