Saturday: Day of Regionals
She couldn't believe they lost. They had done so well, everything was PERFECT! Yet they still lost. Finn had told her he loved her, and I don't know how to feel about that. Then everyone left her here when Quinn's water broke. No one had asked her if she wanted to go or even cared that she wasn't there. That is what bothered her most about Finn's confession. He left her there while he went to the hospital with the girl that had lied and manipulated him for all those months with out even a thought to the girl he supposedly "loved". She was never going to measure up to Saint Quinn, or any of her minions.
Wasn't it enough that her mom didn't want her. She wanted her mom. She had wanted her mom since forever no matter what she told everybody. Shelby didn't want her, she wanted Quinn's baby. She was always going to be second. She hated it. For all the talking she did she felt invisible. She always had. With her fathers' she never really had a chance to be normal. She may have grown up with a life of privilege and money she was very lonely. This was Lima freaking Ohio, smack dab in the middle of the mid-west and the heart of the bible belt. No one wanted to be friends with the little girl with the two gay daddies. It didn't matter that they were the best people around. It didn't matter that she was a bright girl she grew up with just her fathers' and sometimes her brothers. Heck, even the mothers down at the Jewish community center kept their kids away from her. It was like she had leprosy.
No one wanted her. This had to be the worst say of her life so far.
Wednesday after regionals :
Today they prepared to sing for Mr. Schue To Sir With Love. Finn still hasn't said much to her since he told her he loved her. She think he regrets it. The past couple of weeks has been an emotional roller coaster for all of them really not just for her. She really thinks she needs a change. Anything will do.
Friday after regionals:
Finn held her hand today, or maybe she held his. She doesn't understand what is going on. He told her that he loves her but he still hasn't asked her to be his girlfriend, and after what happened before she doesn't want to jump to conclusions. They found out today that they have another year for Glee. She is happy about that, but she feels that she still needs a change, maybe its time for metamorphosis in her life, inside and out.
