Chapter 1: Try!

I remember seeing his blue eyes searching for a reason inside my brown eyes. I tried to make them seem serious, seeing as he always told me that my eyes are the window to my soul, I didn't want to cry, I knew this was the best for both of us. We needed to see the world by ourselves for a while. We were already going to different directions literally. I was attending Yale University and he was going to Duke University for a basketball scholarship. Sure he wanted to try the long distance relationship but I wasn't sure if we would still be faithful to one another, and to have my heart broken would mean there wouldn't be a chance for us to have a future.

He looked at me and said, his voice full of sadness, "Why Gabi? I want to try! Please, baby, I can't see my life without you in it!" My heart started to break at his words.

I knew that this was the best for the both of us. "It would hurt for a while but once we move on, we could find one another and try again," I thought to myself. I know I was just trying to convince myself that this is really what I wanted but my heart was still breaking.

"Troy, I know you want to try to have a relation long distance but I don't know if that is what I want. I need time by myself. I want to go to college and not deal with all of our drama. You know that I love and I hope that someday we will find each other and see that nothing between us has changed," I whispered, tears finally leaking from my eyes and had started to flow freely. I looked at him and saw the tears fall from his eyes. He just stared at me for the longest time. I knew he was looking for another reason why I wanted wanted this, but he finally gave up seeing that this is what I wanted.

"Gabi, we will find each other someday and we will feel the same. I know in my heart you are the woman for me," Troy said confidently.

The tears on our faces had stopped. He realized that is he pushed a long distance relationship on me, we'd both be unhappy.

"Thank you Troy. I hope that we will eventually find one another too. Please know that you have my heart and I love you," I said quietly. The tears had started to flow on my cheeks again.

Toy watched as I continued to cry and he knew that I was doing this for us. He wrapped his arms around me and I did the same. We seemed to holding on to one another. I was afraid to let go.

"I love you too Gabriella," Troy whispered into my hair.

He held me until I finally pushed him away. I knew that if I let him continue to hold me I wouldn't have the strength to let go of him.

"Bye Troy," I said as I walked off of his porch to my car. With one final wave he walked into his house.

I watched as he walked away from me and us. He seemed to be ok on the outside but I knew he was hurting inside. I felt the same way. I could feel my heart still breaking and I was still crying. I finally pulled myself together. I knew that my heart would hurt for a little while but my head told me this was the best for both of us.

I started my car and with one last look towards Troy's house I drove away.

When I got back to my house, I walked straight up to my room.

Two hours later my mom knocked on my door gently.

"Come in," I whispered.

My mom walked into my room and sat down on my bed with a worried look on her face.

"Gabriella, is everything ok?" She asked her voice full of concern.

"I broke up with Troy, mom," I said as I felt the tears coming again. I quickly brushed them away. I didn't want to think about it right now.

My mom looked at me with sympathy in her eyes, "Are you alright?" she asked in the same motherly concern.

I answered quietly, "I'll be fine Mom. I should finish packing though, since I'm leaving for school tomorrow."

"Ok, Ella. Do you need any help?" My mom asked.

"No mom, I want to finish alone," I said.

"You know Gabi, you don't have to do all of this alone," my mom said. I knew she was implying helping me with Troy but I just wanted to be alone.

"I know mom, I just want to be alone right now," I said, with a pleading tone to my voice.

"Sure honey," my mom said knowing that once my mind was set there was no way to change it.