AN/summary: SO this came to me as I like to listen to music when typing my stories. So I thought I challenge myself in hope to cure my writer block days/months to Nate and Jenny one shots with the songs my Ipod shuffles to no matter how hard it is... So I'll just listen to the song on repeat and type whatever the storyline the song creates for me in my mind. Hope you all enjoy.

For this chapter Jenny's thoughts and the songs are in italics


Chapter One

Song: Flat on the floor by Carrie Underwood

Jenny felt out of trance as she stared at the bathroom mirror after comforting Vanessa as she finished her story of Nate and her guessed breaking up. Jenny stared at her reflection as her thoughts went on a rollercoaster ride

She didn't think twice that hearing about their relationship or now broken up relationship was awkward. Okay just hearing Nate and Vanessa's name together was awkward or the fact that hearing Nate's name still caused butterflies in my stomach that she wished she could demolish. This is ridiculous Jenny Humphrey! You haven't spoke a word to Nate for four months except for the brief interaction at school play.

Jenny opened the tap and splashed the water on her face and rubbed her neck hoping to cool her frustration as she twisted it to stop the water flow "You don't need Nate he did kick you when you were down. He misjudged you so quickly so he's no good as a friend or anything more. Now you are going go out there suck it up and listen to Vanessa rant on about Nate"

*Cellphone beeped*

Jenny pulled out her Iphone out of her jean pocket to read a text message from Eric inviting her over to hang out "Or I could go over to Eric's and avoid it all together"

*Knock Knock*

"Jen! Pizza is here" Dan's voice was heard. Jenny quickly put her cellphone away and dried her face with the face towel nearby as she opened the door to find Dan there and Vanessa sitting on the stool with the pizza box open on the kitchen counter

"I would love to stay and pig out and do some Nate bashing but Eric just texted me some emergency with him and Johnathan but V you have my brother so you are good" Jenny said smiling fakely

"Oh don't let us keep you" Vanessa said waving her off as Jenny knowing it was only at the Van Der Woodsen/Bass so she grabbed her wallet and her earphone placing it into her ears and pulling her Iphone out and plugging her earphones in and pressed shuffle on it and slipping it back into her jean pocket. She checked her reflection as she pulled her elastic band to let her hair fall down perfectly then slipped on black flats as she checked her reflection it was definately simple but she was comfortable in her skinny leg dark blue denim jeans and light yellow tank top.

"Okay wallet and phone. You two will be at home?" Jenny questioned the two already eating pizzas as they both nodded. Jenny walked out of the loft as 'Flat on the Floor' began to play in her ears. Jenny bopped her head as she walked down towards the bus stop. Once out on the streets of Brooklyn she pulled out her Iphone to text Eric she was coming and the lie she told. In not paying attenion of a person stepping out of a limo she continually walked and typed her message then she bumped into the person a guy to be exact causing her to drop her wallet and her Iphone but catch it in time by the wire of her earphones as she rambled to the stranger

"I'm sorry I seriously need to learn that I can't text and walk at the same time. Trust me my friend Eric tells me all the time that I'm a klutz because of my long skinny legs but seriously I can't help it...Nate" Nate chuckled at Jenny missing her rambling as Jenny's eyes widened in shock as she grasped her Iphone tightly as Carrie Underwood sung in her ears and conscience

Baby, baby, baby, baby tell me how

You think you are going to live without my love now

I don't why you gotta keep coming around

Creeping up my street

Oh boy you can't bother me

Jenny chuckled at the paradox of the song to her thinking to this situation forgetting Nate was there until he asked handing back her wallet "You okay?"

Pulling her earphones out and holding her Ipone and accepting her wallet "Yeah I'm ok and you sure do know your girlfriend well"

"Huh?" Nate had a confused expression as Jenny rolled her eyes Wow not even a day broken up and he has forgotten about her

"Vanessa your girlfriend or ex as she's not sure if you broke up with her or not. Anyways she is up at the loft with my brother eating pizza. She's kind of upset so let her yell at you then you two can work it out and live happily ever after" Jenny said with a hint of sarcasm Wow Dan's right I really do get sarcastic when I'm angry

"Hey nice blazer" Jenny said after analyzing the blazer as she looked at the crest.

"This yeah blazer got the family crest on it"

"Oh the Van Der Bilts... is that right?" Nate nodded as Jenny wanted this conversation to end quickly because she knew how easy it was to fall back to the Jenny girl that was friends with Nate and pretend nothing in the past happened but she couldn't especially the kiss they shared was forever engraved in her mind. Oh crap I'm thinking of him again now I need to go pronto

"I have..."

"I wanted..." they both said at the same time as Jenny chuckled and motioned for him to go first

"You go since I've spoken most of the time" Nate smiled at her as he shyly place his hands in his suit pants pockets

"I wanted to see you"

"Me?" Jenny questioned him as his words caused up a storm with the butterflies fluttering in her stomach

"Yeah to talk"

"About?"

"You were the next person I thought of to talk to since Chuck and Serena are busy with Blair" Nate half lied he did want to talk to her but something that hit him while standing up there with his grandfather and watching Vanessa walk away... he didn't see her instead he pictured Jenny walking away and that tore his heart apart he felt the air sucked out him after all the cheering his grandfather had to ask if he was ok. He knew then he made a big mistake letting Jenny slip away he just hoped he wasn't too late.

"Oh" Jenny said as her phone beeped signalling a new text message. She mouthed a sorry to Nate as she pulled her cellphone while she prayed in her mind that it was Eric, saying he was around the corner ready to pick her up but with the universe against her it read 'Rain check on us hanging out mum wants to have a family dinner with us two... will give you details later'

She texted back 'N wants to talk to me right now.. freaking out inside will give details tomorrow when we go out for lunch'

Was I some bad karmic monster in the past that it won't answer my plead. Okay Jen stay strong you were going have to face him one day or none

Jenny smiled at him weakly "Must be your lucky day because Eric cancelled on me"

Nate smiled widely that made Jenny's heart flutter 'Do you want to go for a walk?" he asked as Jenny looked to the loft then at Nate and shook her head

"Nate we kind of ended on bad terms. Maybe in your world everything is happy dandy between us but in mine it isn't. You hurt me Nate but I'm not going to do the same thing that Vanessa did to me and be seen walking around with you"

"But..." Jenny cut him off by shaking her head

"No Nate I'm sorry I can't. It hurts too much being near you... I still like you a lot but no one knew how much but you. I hide my emotions Nate and I want to continue that because it all hurts in the end"

"No it doesn't, not when we face it together" he said grabbing her free hand pulling her closer to him surprising her how easy and comfortable to be this close to him like it was meant to be.

His hands went to her waist slowly pulling her into him. Her breathing quickened as she looked into his blue eyes as his other hands carressed her cheek missing the feel of her smooth skin under his touch. She closed her eyes leaning into his touch as she whispered "Nate please"

"I'm sorry for what I did to you at the Snowflake Ball but I was scared of what I felt for you. It wasn't forced, it didn't feel safe. It was unpredicatable, out of the ordinary yet it completed me like there was nothing missing... it was you"

Jenny stared at him in silence scared of his words...was it true or was it lies?

"It's you Jenny" Jenny couldn't help but crack a smile at him causing him to smile back as he dipped his head down to land his lips onto her. Jenny wrapped her arms around his neck kissing him back the familiar lips. Then it happened so quickly as he mind flashed to how she felt when she saw Nate walk away with Vanessa and kiss her at the taxi.

She quickly pulled away from him both panting from the explosion of their kiss. Jenny bit her bottom lip as Nate leaned his forehead against hers slowly moving his lips towards Jenny's wanting to feel her lips again

"No we can't"

"Why?" he asked still breathing heavily as he tried to control his racing heart beat

"Because you are not with Vanessa as of a couple of hours ago. I can't do that to a friend and I don't know if I can go back to you...ever" Jenny gulped as her free hand ran through his hair

His heard those words not technically in those exact words it was Serena who said those words but it didn't hurt as much when Jenny Humphrey said it. When she said it felt like the end of him.

"Please don't do this. We'll find a way to work it out with Vanessa and everyone" he pleaded

"No you'll move on quickly and I'll be hurt in the end" Nate looked at her and said

"No I won't it's you. You're it in my life"

"I can't risk my heart again" Nate gulped back the hurt as Jenny finished in a monotone "Like I said it all hurts in the end doesn't it?"

Jenny Humphrey turned around and walked back to the loft leaving Nate Archibald heartbroken

No I'm flat on the floor with my head down low

Where the sky can't rain on me anymore

Don't knock on my door 'cause I won't come

I'm hidin' from the storm 'til the damage is done

Ohhhhhhh

Don't.

Knock

On my door

I'm hidin from the storm 'til the damge is done....