A/N: Hi! :) This is my first fic. I hope that my English isn't terrible, because I'm from Germany and I'm still learning English. ^^

Chapter 1: Truth

Kendall's POV:

"My name is Kendall Knight, I'm 17 years old and a member of the boy band Big Time Rush. I'm a big Lady GaGa fan, but the only ones who knows that are my mom, Katie and the other guys.

"What is that for a life? I'm lying to my friends, to my family and to myself. I must tell them..."

I went to the living room, where James and Carlos were watching TV.

"Hey Kendall!", said Carlos happily.

"How are you, monster?"

"Very funny, James.", I said sarcastically.

James laughed his ass off and Carlos smiled so much, that I was afraid that he will explode.

"Guess which pop star will be in LA this weekend?", said James.

"Cher?"

"Nope. It's the woman with the Poker Face, Kendall!"

"And guess who bought you, one of her biggest fans, a ticket for her concert here!" said Carlos.

"I go to a Lady GaGa concert? A concert by Mother Monster?", I said ecxited.

"To be honest, I'm lying. Again. I'm happy about the ticket, but in real, I'm depressed. When I told my friends that I'm a Lady GaGa fan, they laughed and said (jokingly) that I'm gay. But that's the tru-...

"Where's Logan?", I asked James and Carlos.

"I don't know, he's gone for the whole day!", said Carlos.

"Before he's gone, he said something about meeting someone.", said James.

"Maybe he's out with Camille", I said.

"Could be.", said James.

"Fuck! I hate it when Logan's out with Camille. Or when he's talking to Camille... I hate it so much. Everytime I see it my heart breaks. Because... Because the truth is... I'm gay. I'm gay and I love Logan Mitchell. That's the truth. But i hate the truth, or how the french call it 'La vérité' . That's why I'm lying. I never told it someone. Not even my mom! I'm lying... everytime..."

So, that was the first chapter of my first fanfiction. I know that is short, but this is only a introduction. :)
If the grammar isn't perfect, I'm sorry so much! I would be happy if you review my fic :)