Disclaimer- I own Nothing!!! … First story please be gentile with your reviews, heard this song and made me think of how Meredith probably felt when she was dating Finn during season 2.
She wasn't drunk but Christina had just dared her to do Karaoke in front of everyone in the bar, and usually she only did Karaoke when she was drunk, but she was dared and she never backs down from a dare. So she went and picked out a song and then went to freshen up her make up before she would be on stage singing her heart out. She was glad that she was wearing her hottest outfit; so that she could give Finn something to look at and she could give Derek something that said eat your heart out McDreamy. She was standing next to the stage preparing to go on when she heard the emcee announce her "And up next we have Meredith Grey Singing The Way I Loved You… Give it up for Meredith"
She heard the music start with the guitar and she took a deep breath and then began belting out the lyrics like she was the one who had written the song, she gave them meaning, and let's face it she might as well have, because she meant every word that came out of her lips.
He is sensible and so incredible
And all my single friends are jealous.
He says everything I need to hear
And it's like I couldn't ask for anything better.
He opens up my door and
I get into his car and he says
you look beautiful tonight.
And I feel perfectly fine.
Finn was a great guy he had plans and she really liked him. Her friends were glad to see her happy again. Well at least they thought that she was happy, and up until she heard this song for the first time she had, believed that Finn made her happy but when she heard this song she realized that it was just a front that she had been putting on for so long that she had started to believe it herself.
But I miss screamin' and fightin' and kissin' in the rain
and its 2am and I'm cursin' your name.
You're so in love that you act insane
and that's the way I loved you.
Breakin' down and comin' undone
it's a roller coaster kinda rush.
And I never knew I could feel that much.
And that's the way I loved you.
And she did miss Derek; she missed the way his eyes would sparkle when he smiled. She missed the way his arms felt when they were cuddling together after a long night of work, or after they had just made love. She missed how they had kissed in the Seattle rain on their way to the car after a long night at the Hospital. She missed the way they had screamed and fought with each other just to end up making up hours later. But she missed the way he made her feel she missed how much she had loved him, still loved him.
He respects my space
And never makes me wait
And he calls exactly when he says he will.
He's close to my mother
Talks business with my father.
He's charming and endearing
And I'm comfortable.
She loved how Finn didn't pressure to do anything that she wasn't ready for yet, he was letting her take control of their relationship and she appreciated how patient he had been with her and her hesitance to move to fast, since everything had happened with Derek and along with her abandonment issues she was hesitant to trust anybody with her emotions let alone her heart but Finn was great. He got along great with her "family" she only had her friends but they had become her family and they loved how he was there for her and hadn't broken her heart like Derek then there was the way she had waited for Derek at the bar and he never showed up, that hurt like hell because she had a feeling that he wasn't going to choose her he was going to do the "right" thing and stay with his Wife.
But I miss screamin' and fightin' and kissin' in the rain
And it's 2am and I'm cursin' your name.
You're so in love that you act insane
And that's the way I loved you.
Breakin' down and comin' undone
It's a roller coaster kinda rush.
And I never knew I could feel that much.
And that's the way I loved you.
She missed everything that she and Derek had before she found out the he was married and didn't tell her before they started dating. She hated him for not telling her and yet she couldn't hate him because she still loved him and she knew that she probably always would but he was married and he chose Addison so she had to move in, and who better to move on with than Finn
He can't see the smile I'm fakin'.
And my hearts not breakin'
Cause I'm not feelin' anything at all.
And you were wild and crazy.
Just so frustrating, intoxicating, complicated,
got away like some mistake.
She realized that she had been going through the motions with Finn and that the feelings she had for him weren't as real as the feelings that she still had for Derek. She was fed up with the looks Derek had been giving her because they only made her want him even more and she couldn't have him because he was married and it would just make everything even more complicated than it should be.
And now I,
I miss screamin', and fightin', and kissin' in the rain
it's 2am and I'm cursin' your name.
I'm so in love that I acted insane.
And that's the way I loved you.
Breakin' down and comin' undone
it's a roller coaster kinda rush.
And I never knew I could feel that much.
And that's the way I loved you.
She missed everything about him, and everything they had together before Addison showed up. She almost wanted lay the blame of her unhappiness all on Addison, and even though Addison wasn't innocent in the whole thing it was Derek's responsibility to tell Meredith that he was still married and he hadn't, he had blown his chance with her.
And that's the way I loved you.
Never knew I could feel that much.
And that's the way I loved you.
But she still Loved him and she was sure that she would always love him.
The song finished and Meredith put the microphone down did a half curtsy for the standing ovation she had received and wiped her eyes of the tears that she hadn't even realized had fallen from her face as she walked off the stage and over towards her friends and Finn who was ready to embrace her in a hug and tell her how amazing she was.
"Mer, I had no idea you could sing like that!!! Damn if you weren't dating Finn I would probably have a go at you myself" Alex said as he took another shot of Tequila. "Whoa since when do you belt it out like Celine frickin Deon" Christina, her person chuckled. She hugged Finn and made contact with Derek who was looking at her like he wanted to take advantage of her, and just show her how hot she looked and how hot and bothered she made him feel when she sang like that. He had no clue that she was such a great singer, it made him ache for her even more, for the months before Addison had showed up and ruined everything he had with Meredith. He wished that he had told her and filed for the divorce himself and signed the papers so that they could be together. He realized at that moment just how much he loved and wanted to be with Meredith and it left him feeling ready to divorce his wife and fight like hell to win back the women he truly loved with all of his heart.
Song- That's the Way I Loved You by Taylor Swift
