Hey all! I am Nikki and have another penname on here for some Harry Potter stories I did a while back. I haven't been on here in forever and really wanted to try writing again. I have been a huge fan of some of the Jacob/Bella stories (and now that I have a new account will totally go and review each and everyone of them!) and wanted to try writing one of my own! This is just the first chapter and it is a bit shaky, but will get better when I feel more comfortable with the story. I love feed back and would love to hear what the readers have to say. Love it? Hate it? Don't know yet and want me to keep going so you can form your opinion? Plus I love talking to people so just hit me up for a discussion any time!
I took in a deep breath, taking in the woodsy smell that I had grown to love. I gazed into the setting sun, watching how it slowly turned everything that it's warm rays came in contact with the same burnt orange color.
I took in another deep breath, this time in with contentment, as I wrapped my arms around my knees and closed my eyes, taking in the warmth.
I could remember days that I was cold, all the time. I loved it just as much and the thoughts of it still makes me shiver. The single thought of that name could drag me down into the abyss that was my life. Cold. Lonely. Bad.
I basked in the warmth so happy to have it.
I was tired so closing my eyes may have not been the best idea. I started to drift off, my mind slipping into dreams of russet fur, a pair of dark eyes, and a smile that seemed to be the sun itself.
At first I thought the barking was in my dreams, until I was woken, very rudely, by a big, pink, slobbery tounge swiping up my face.
"Ugh!! Jacob! Gross…." I started to wipe off my face when I notice that the wolf who had attacked me wasn't Jacob at all, but Quil, who was laughing at me, as were all the other wolves who were standing in the yard watching.
I shook my head and found the black eyes of the largest wolf in the bunch. He gave me a big wolfy grin and a few loud laughs as I got up and went into the house.
As soon as the door closed behind me I heard the wolf laughter turn to grown men laughter as they all phased back.
Quil was in his shorts and to the door first.
"Bella! Oh, Bella! We have missed you all day! Let me tell you, we have certainly been thinking about you. Especially after la- shit! Dame Jake!"
"Then shut your trap, mongral"
I laughed a bit to myself and poked my head out of Jacob's room and mock glared at him. He smiled widely at me and playfully growled, bounding down the hall faster than I could react. Before I could speak I was in his arms and his lips were barely an inch from mine.
"I missed you."
I closed the gap between us for a second and pulled back, "Missed you, too."
He straightened up and leaned into the door way, pulling me with him, his arms around me, hugging me loosely.
"Ignore any of them if they start to tease you about what happened last night. It was absolutely amazing and I just couldn't get it out of my head and they had to watch it over and over again. I feel sorry for you. I mean they were all jealous, so I had not problem with it." He had a smug smirk on his face as he remembered what he heard as he had recalled it earlier that day.
I put my forehead on his chest and thought about the abuse I was sure to get anytime Jake walked out of the room. But then my mood changed completely and I looked up and smiled back, a bit smug myself.
"I don't care. It was amazing. I don't think we have ever done it that good."
"Definatley not. Do think it could get better?"
I ran my hands slowly from his pants up to his neck slowly, pulled him in and kissed him slowly. I gently bite on his bottom lip so that he will let me in and when he did he attacked my tounge wildly, pulling me in so that I was flush against him.
I'm not really sure how long we stood there, but at some point seven throats started to clear at the same time and I pulled back. Jake growled at his 'friends' and tried to pull me back but I just ducked under his arms and started back down the hallway towards the kitchen to start dinner.
Billy, Charlie, Sue and a few other adults were eating at Sue's house so all the boys decided to hang out at Jacob's house. I had spent the last two hours cooking as much food as I could, knowing that the young wolves would be very hungry when then returned from their hard day.
I chuckled at how well trained Sue and Emily had all these boys. They were all sniffing the air and licking their lips, anticipating the delicious food, but they all just squeezed into the tiny living room, waiting patiently for me to open the flood gates.
Jake walked down the hallway and into the living room, smacking my butt on the way, making me smile. He pushed Embry out of his chair and settled in watching the stupid cartoon that Seth had found to watch.
I pulled the last of the food out of the oven and set off of it on the table. I pulled out a stack of plates, napkins, some forks and knives and set them on the counter. I checked my buffet that I had set up and looked at the guys in the living room. When I was sure that none of them were paying attention to me I got my plate and filled it up and started towards the living room.
I stood behind Jacob's chair and cleared my throat. I immediately had all eight boys attention.
"Go for it guys. It's ready."
The room cleared out and I took the chair that Jake had been occupying. I grabbed the remote and turned it to something that I wanted to watch, knowing that the guys would probably not care. They would be too happy to be eating. Sure enough, ten minutes later I was surrounded by eight loud and very hungry boys, who ignored my 'girly' tv and talked the entire time.
"Bella!"
I jumped as I was brought back to earth from the sound sleep I was enjoying. I shook my head and remembered the vibrant and very lifelike dream. That was the first time I dreamt of Jacob Black.
And the worst part was that I had no idea what it meant.
Tears welled up in my eyes and threatened to spill when there was a knock on my door.
"Bella! It's time to get up. We have to be in La Push in about an hour for the barbeque. I told Billy I would help him set up the surround sound I got him for Christmas."
I stretched and looked at the clock on the table next to me. It read 10:32. I couldn't believe that I slept so late on a Sunday.
I stretched and made my way out of my room into the bathroom to start my daily routine. I was in the middle of cleaning my face when I heard a knock on the door downstairs. I heard Charlie open it and then the conversation between him and the other person before heavy footfalls sounded on the stairs. I knew instantly who it was.
No one else would be coming upstairs besides my father. I shut the door the bathroom all the way and stared at myself in the mirror. I wasn't really sure that I could face him without him knowing something was up. I knew that I wouldn't be able to hold my blush back.
I listened intently at the door to see if I could hear him outside. When I figured that he had gone back downstairs to wait I snuck into my room quietly, shutting the door quickly. I let out the breath I didn't even realize I was holding the turned around to get changed, when I about had a heart attack.
Laying on my bed, looking incredibly good I must say, was the man in question. He had on more clothes then I had seen him wear since he had become his furry counterpart. He was dressed in nice jeans and a deep blue and white striped polo shirt. His feet were covered, for once, by what looked like brand new white tennis shoes. He looked very handsome.
On his face was a huge smile and he seemed to light up when I noticed his presence.
"Jake." It was almost a whisper as I started remembering parts of the dream from last night.
"Hey Bells. Just thought I would come get you so you can go with me and the guys down to the beach for just a little bit before the game starts. You know that all the old guys are going to want to see the pre game stuff, so we just figured we could go have some fun before the food is ready."
I smiled and nodded, "That sounds great. As much as I love the super bowl, I was not looking forward to 10 straight hours of Sports Center."
Jake laughed and jumped up off the bed. He walked right up to me and pulled me into a big hug. I wrapped my arms around his waist and took a deep breath, breathing in his musky scent. I loved the way Jacob smelled. It always made me feel at home and safe.
When he pulled back, he didn't let me go but just held me at arms legnth, looking into my eyes. His face crumpled with concern when he saw the sad look that I couldn't hide from him.
"What's wrong?"
I looked down, choosing my words carefully.
"Last night was the first time, in a long time, that I…"I broke off not knowing what to say. I didn't want to tell him that I dreamed of him and life with him. I knew that if I did then he would automatically jump to the wrong conclusion. Even though, I wasn't sure how wrong the conclusion he would jump to would be.
Jake shook me a little, breaking me away from my thoughts. "What Bella? What happened?"
He looked really concerned so I hugged him close to comfort him.
"I'm fine Jake. It's just that I didn't dream of Ed-him last night. I can't remember the last time he wasn't in my dreams."
Jakes eyes lit up, but he held himself together everywhere else, as to not upset me. I smiled up at him and shook my head, pulling out of his embrace and walking to my desk to sit.
"It's just weird, you know? I knew he was never coming back , but now its very official. Like he's completely gone forever."
I heard Jake jump on my bed and I turned to look at him. His eyes seemed guarded, like he was really holding back. I couldn't stand it.
"What are you thinking?"
Jake looked back at me, very intently, before answering.
"I just hate that you still care for someone so much, who just left you. I don't know if you remember how you were three months ago, but I do. I want nothing more than to kill that leech, so I'm sorry if I'm not empathetic for you. I'm glad you didn't dream about him. He doesn't deserve any of your time, including the time when your unconscious."
I blinked at Jake's bluntness before I smiled lightly.
"You're right Jake. I guess I should save my dreams for someone a bit more deserving."
Jake smiled, but it didn't reach his eyes, "Yeah Bells. You'll find someone who deserves to be in your dreams. Someone who will make you happy."
I sat there, absorbed in my thoughts. Perhaps I have already found that person, and I just didn't realize it until now. As I sat there staring at Jake's beautiful form I thought of the happiness and content feelings I had felt when dreaming about being with Jake.
My silence must have bothered Jake because all of a sudden he shot up and to the door, muttering about meeting me downstairs when I was ready. His passive attitude scared me a little, but before I attempted to comfort him I needed to really know how I felt about him.
I walked to my closet and pulled out a pair of blue jeans, a simple blue t-shirt and a hoodie that I had stolen from Jacob. It was one of the clothing items he had worn a whole of two times before his freaky growth spurt. It still swallowed me, but made me feel warm and comforted.
I pulled my hair back into a pony tail and put on a little make up. I was happy with how I looked. I looked alive for the first time in a long time. I figured that it was because of Jacob. I smiled at the thought of Jake making me happy.
I still had a lot to think about, but I knew at that moment that I was happy with Jake, and maybe he could fix me completely and give me a good life.
When I walked down the stairs the first thing Jake noticed was the hoodie. He seemed to brighten up when he saw that I had it on.
I smiled brightly at him and gestured that we leave. He was behind me in a second, a hand gently placed on the small of my back to guide me to his car. I loved the feeling of security.
This seemed so right.
I smiled as he folded himself into the small car and started down the road to La Push. As we were driving down the road I noticed that he seemed nervous about something. His leg was bouncing and his fingers were drumming on the gear shift.
I looked up at his face and smiled at him as I reached out and grasped his hand. I wrapped my fingers around his and basked in the warmth that flooded through me.
Yep, definitely seemed right.
So there it is. The first words that have come out of my imagination in a long time. How was it? Let me know! And if you have or know of any really good stories (any pairing or based of any good book, movie, whatever). I love to read good stories!
Peace and Love to all!!
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