Hello, welcome. This is Insanity-L, I was attacked by a soccerball and my ocd bestfriend Dai. She's cleaning my disasterous room and its so distracting! So I wrote this because of the only reviewer, CatatonicVanity. You need to read her stuff, its amazing! GAHH I will finish Mello's POV and you will read it! I promise. Lalala... I am procrastinating. If thats how you spell it haha! Ohhkayy! Lets get this done!

I never thought you'd be killed... I'm sorry. Dammit, I'm so sorry, Matty. I promised we would both get out alive. I at least thought Matt would get out. Dammit. I'm sorry Matt. My bestfriend, shot up and dead... I felt a tear fall but ignored it. I stopped the truck at a church- I had to kill Kiyomi Takada. The plan had to be finished. I had to get revenge.

I never got to tell Matt how I felt before he died... I should have told him how much he meant to me. I should have took him in my arms and kissed him before he got in the red metal death trap. I had only told him it was a nice car but he jumped the gun and bought the car because of one comment I made.

That's just how Matt is- was. If I said his shirt looked goofy, he run off really quick and change it. If I said I liked the color blue, he insantly wore the color blue for a week straight. That is- was- Matty... my Matty. He was so loyal and always quick to take something so personal. But I loved that about him. He was my best- predictable- friend.

But I couldn't just swallow my pride tell him how much I depended on his predictableness. I depended on his very existance. Even after I left that damned orphanage, I still kept tabs on him. He was my world. My everything. But I was just too dumb to let Matt know. I was too dumb to let Matt see how much he meant to me.

My heart jumped in my chest... stopping momentarily... Kira... I was too late to kill Takada. That son of a bitch had got me. And oddly, I was okay with that. I was okay with the idea of dying. My everything is gone. So, what do you have when your everything is gone... is DEAD... You have nothing. I have NOTHING! I have no reason to live.

Sure I could fake the confidence, like everyday but I was fucking broken. I was broken and there was no fixing me... Without Matt here- not even chocolate could fix me. Chocolate. I gave my last chocolate bar to Matty, insurance that I'd come back for him... No Matty, No chocolate... that means no Mello. That means I'm nothing. And I'm okay with being nothing because I'm going to be gone in a moment. Maybe I'll see Matt when I die... maybe he'll be there.

No I'm going to hell, after all, I killed so many people, no repentance. Matty was good. He'd go to heaven, gay or not. He'll make it to heaven. I know it.

My vision was getting fuzzy but I couldn't close my eyes. I leaned my head forward, resting it on the steering-wheel. Matty, I'm so sorry, I failed you. Sweet Matt... I'm so sorry... I wish I'd told you how much you mean to me. Oh, Matty... I'm sorry. I'm so god-damned sorry.

"Matty, I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry M-"... Matt...

This is Insanity-L... good bye for now.

-Insanity-L