Have you ever wondered why life changes constantly
What are God's intentions in our life?
Why do people had to have new jobs, new friends, new house, new interests, new hobbies?
Why people move on?
Why people forget?
Why do people have to love each other so much only to be separated and acted like strangers.
But more importantly why do I stuck here? why can't just time stops here with me?


June 2007

It was the last day of school before summer break, the kids scrambled around school as the final bell rang. I gathered my things after the awfully boring English class, excited and giddy because I have made some plans with Edward today. We're going to sneak out tonight to the La push beach. Edward said he wanted to capture the milky way with his brand new camera that Esme has given to him for his 18th Birthday last week. It was his new favorite obsession. He took pictures everywhere, and everything, including me. I know he's sneaky but I caught him snapped some pictures of me when he thought I didn't notice.

"Bella!" I heard his voice and right after I turned my head, a flash went off. There he go again, took pictures of me without my consent. I secretly loved it though, it means he noticed me and that makes my heartbeat flutters, just like when he kissed me the first time.
I pouted when I saw his tall form loomed over me and snapped some more pictures, this time no flashlight but too close for my comfort.

"Oh stop pouting baby" He hung his camera over his neck and extended his long fingers to my lips easing my pout

"You could've warned me you know?"

"Now where's the fun in that, besides you look beautiful in every angle.. even when you pout.. um wait let me take a picture of you pouting one more time?"

He raised his camera to me again this time I covered the lens with my hand. I wasn't a fan of being photographed, I mean I'm just plain old Bella Swan, nothing interested people can found in me. I have long brown hair, brown eyes with a thick rimmed glasses, and average body, my boobs are small and I dressed like a hobo (that's what Angela, my partner in Spanish class have told me). Really sometimes I wondered what has this beautiful boy seen in me

"No more pictures. I bet you have dozens picture of me in your laptop already"

"That I do baby" He laughed mischievously. This is one of the things that I love about him, he's never been shy to acknowledge his fondness of me even in public, He had this twinkle in his eyes every time he jokes around me. It makes his emerald green eyes shines brighter. It was like I could see through his soul and everything in him is beautiful. I sighed

"Edward, are we still on for tonight?" I asked softly not wanting to get my hopes up but a secret night out alone with him is what I've been waiting for a long time.

We didn't have much time alone because school and his dozens of extracurricular activities. Luckily being a good boyfriend he was. He always had time for me, even for just a few hours after school or over the weekends. We've been sneaking around because his parents hated me. I couldn't come over after school like any other girlfriends because for whatever reasons his parents loathed me ever since he introduced me to them last year.

It's been a cat and mouse game

He took my hand and we walked to the parking lot together. Once I got to my beat up orange truck, he stroked my cheek and then he kissed me sweetly on the lips

"10 pm love, don't forget to wear a jacket okay and don't fall asleep on me!"

"I won't, it's a good thing Charlie's on the night shift"

"You mean I don't have to throw pebbles at your window?! I can go walk to your front door?" He joked

"I'd rather have you text me and I'll be right down so we don't draw a lot of attentions. My neighbor is kinda nosy"

I played with his shirt, I didn't know why but it seems like I always turned into a nervous girl every time he nears me, even after 2 years knowing him it didn't change his effect on me. He mesmerized me (and the half female population at school) and he knew it. I still didn't know why he chose me but I'm in love with him and I was going to tell him tonight

"I'll see you then baby, drive safely okay?" He kissed me again one more time and turned to go to his shiny new Volvo his Dad has given him. Just when I turned the key into the ignition he called over from across the parking lot

"BELLA!" I looked around then he snapped a picture of me again. At this point it was borderline annoying but then he shouted "I see you tonight baby!" which I'm sure people in parking lot have heard it. It makes me blush and I ducked my head in embarrassment and get out of the parking lot, anxious about tonight.

God I love him


Hello this is my first time writing a fanfiction, I can't seems to get it out of my head so I decided to write it down. I'm not an English speaking person so I'm sorry if there were any grammatical error, I don't have a beta. This fic will be have a little flashback in the beginning before we continue to the present time. Please be patient with me.. :3

Thanks for reading.

- Sasha