Harmonized Love by Lexie M.

Summary: Theresa is tired of making mistakes that always cost her chances with Ethan. She vows never to make her self look the fool again. ET.

Disclaimer: I don't own the series I don't own the characters. MOST importantly I am a TOTAL Alistair, GWEN, and IVY AND REBECCA HATER. So don't send me hate mail about my stories because their involvement is nonexistent.

Author's Note: I love the soap opera Passions. I don't get to watch it nearly enough as I like to but when I do it entrances me. I don't know who Jared is because I haven't watched passions in months but I'm guessing he's Theresa's new love interest from all the fan fic I've been reading. You guys are going to hate me for this but the two will never have met in my story. Every other romantic story line involving Theresa has happened. Oh and Alistair is permanently dead.

This is an ET story.


Theresa Lopez-Fitzgerald Crane was tired of it. Tired of it all, she was tired of trying to fight for someone who would never return her advances. She was tired of Gwen Hotchkiss Winthrop always winning. She was tired of Ethan Winthrop of never having the courage to stand up to his wife. She was just simply tired of it.

All her dreams and fantasies came true just not exactly as she envisioned them. She wanted to grow up to marry Ethan when he was a Crane. She wanted to be the mother of his children. Well she certainly made herself look the fool by claiming it was all destined to be. First she almost married him only to be attacked by Gwen through her jealousy, and then she married his "father", and gave birth to his "brother" only to realize that his "brother" was really his son. Then once her marriage to his "father" was resolved, the tabloid scandal happened. Try as she might her claimed innocence was denied and she was proven guilty by the man she loves wife.

Then everything from being charged with murder and being sentenced to death just to be revived and to offering to be a surrogate mother to Ethan and Gwen's baby. Sleeping with Ethan again and becoming pregnant with his daughter. Losing one of the babies she was carrying and Jane being ripped from her arms into Gwen's. Those were just a few of her life's disasters. She needed to move on. She was just tired of trying to prove she had been wronged by everyone. She was tired of being made the villainess.

She vowed she would never grovel at his feet again. She finally had Little Ethan back where he belonged. She made the decision to move herself and her son away from Harmony. She wasn't going to fight for the man she loved anymore. It just landed her with more heartache than before. She was finally free of the Crane family's clutches on her. She actually controlled their empire. Alistair was dead never to return. Julian was finally back with the woman he truly loved, Eve Russell. Neither would try to manipulate her again or use Little Ethan as their pawn to control her ever again.

She would give Julian a settlement that would keep him living his comfortable lifestyle. She would evict Rebecca Hotchkiss Crane out of her home and she would keep Gwen out of her life forever. Her decision was a win-win situation for everyone.

"Mama," Little Ethan said as he walked toward her from his bedroom rubbing his eyes. She had been looking out the foyer window finalizing her decision.

She turned to look at her young son. He reminded her so much of his father. He was the spitting image of his father and it nearly broke her heart just to look at him sometimes. "What is it darling?" She asked as he approached her.

"I had a dream that Mommy Gwen was hurting me and you," the little boy said as he wrapped his arms around his mother's waist, burying his face into her stomach.

Theresa gently stroked her son's hair with both her hands as she looked down at him. She hated to hear him call Gwen, Mommy Gwen, it made her relive the nightmares of losing him to her and almost never seeing him again with their were about to put her to death by lethal injection. "She's not going to hurt us anymore my sweet little boy. We're going to move tomorrow. Just you and I."

"What about Daddy? You love him don't you? Janie too?" Little Ethan looked up at his mother. Tears threatening to fall from his eyes.

Theresa gave a sad smile to her little boy, "It's time for Mama to move on. Daddy and Janie live with Gwen. That's where they need to be." She tried to explain to the six year old boy. "I love them both very much. I can't have us living here anymore and face Gwen getting chances to hurt us. Do you understand honey?"

The little boy shook his head, "I want to see Daddy and Janie everyday. I don't want to leave them with Mommy Gwen."

Theresa sighed and tears threatened to fall from her eyes as well. Little Ethan was deeply attached to his sister and his Daddy. It hurt her more than anything that he would be hurt in this process. Ethan generally picked Little Ethan up from school everyday and takes Jane and Little Ethan to the park so they could play together. Then he would drop Little Ethan off with Theresa.

"I know this is hard baby. Mommy doesn't want to do it either but it has to be done. Daddy and Gwen are staying together and Jane belongs with them."

"It's not fair. You promised we would all live together, you, me, Daddy and Jane. We would all be a family again." The little boy's tears finally broke from his their dams and he sobbed not being able to control them any longer.

Theresa's tears did the same. She didn't want to deprive him of their family but she also wanted a fresh start. "Ethan, do you like it when Mommy and Daddy fight?"

Ethan looked at his Mama. He called her Mama or Mommy depending on his mood. She always addressed herself as Mommy to him sometimes Mama. He shook his head at her question. His parents meant the world to him. He didn't like them fighting. He didn't like Mama crying because of the things Daddy do or say to her.

She smiled at her son's silent answer. "You and me are going to start over together. We'll make new friends and travel the world. Just you and me. We'll come back and visit Papa and Abuela; Grandma and Grandpa sometimes but right now, it's you and me kid."

Little Ethan sniffled and nodded his head. It always had been him and Mommy against the world. Why would his life change any differently? Maybe Daddy really didn't love him and Mommy as much as he always says he does. More than anything Little Ethan wanted his Mommy happy. "Ok Mama. You and me against the world."

Theresa smiled that's my little man. She thought. "That's my little man," she verbalized to her son. "Let's get you back into bed. We have a big day tomorrow."

With a nod from her son, they both walked away from the window and headed toward Little Ethan's bedroom. Once inside she tucked her son back into bed. Turned his bedside lamp on and walked out the door, leaving it open a jar. "That will scare the bad dreams away my sweet."

"Thank you Mama," Little Ethan said with a yawn and settled into a quick slumber.

Theresa walked across the hall to her bedroom with a heavy heart and busy mind. She hardly noticed that someone was sitting on her bed until she turned on her light. She gasped startled to see the man she loved looking at her intently. "Ethan, you scared me. Why are you here?"

"I heard everything you said Theresa," the man answered. He was tired and it showed in his face. He had drove over to the Crane Mansion where Theresa and their son lived. He had just finished up from a long day of business meetings and financial research for a project for Crane Industries. He wanted to say goodnight to Little Ethan since he didn't get a chance to pick him up from school.

Theresa raked her hands through her hair and sat down on the stool in front of her vanity table looking at Ethan. The blonde man was everything she ever wanted. He was intelligent, attractive, attentive, resourceful and loyal. Too bad for her he only reversed a couple of those traits for her, he's always loyal to his children. He was always attentive and resourceful for her at work. He lost all his compassion for her though years ago. It hurt to look at him and not being able to admit her feelings to him so freely like she used to.

"What did you expect Ethan? That I'd wait around forever for you," Theresa sighed. She walked over to the door and closed it. Then returned to her previous position, "I've wasted seven years of my life waiting for you to release the idea I'm not some crazy woman with this delusion to live happily ever after with you. Julian, Alistair and even you made it clear that I'm not good enough for you. Then Rebecca and Gwen join you on the bandwagon but only to benefit themselves to gain custody of Little Ethan and then Jane. I have Little Ethan back and I can't go through that fight again over Jane. I need to leave Harmony and I will take Little Ethan with me. I have to be a strong woman more than ever right now. That means packing up my life and Little Ethan's as well. So if you want to try to talk me out of leaving Harmony then you'll be wasting your breath and time."

Ethan looked at the determined woman in front of him. True she had been through the ringer throughout the years they started to form their bond whether it be as lovers, friends, enemies or parents. There was no doubt in his mind that he was in love with her, has always been in love with her and always would be in love with her. Growing up he saw how infidelity damaged his parents' marriage or rather his mother's marriage to Julian. He couldn't do the same thing being married to Gwen and having Jane to think about but he would be damned if he lost his son too. "I'm not letting you take my son and move to some uncharted destination."

She gave him a pointed look, "Oh so now I have to get your input on what is good for our son. Ethan you're a hypocrite. Did you attempt to talk Gwen out of her packing you and Jane off when she felt threatened by me?" She paused and didn't get answer. "I'll take that as a no. Last time I checked Ethan, I had full custody of Little Ethan. I get to make the decisions about his life and I say we're leaving Harmony tomorrow. I value your input and I override it."

"Why are you doing this Theresa? Why?" Ethan growled. He was madder then ever. He liked their arrangement, sure she had full custody of their son and he and Gwen had full custody of Jane, but he could see their son anytime he liked. Now he sat here watching Theresa revoking his visitation rights.

"I'm tired of being the other woman. I'm worth far better than that. I'm not punishing you Ethan. I'm just moving on. Something I should have done a long time ago. It'll make everyone involved a lot happier, like I said I'm not waiting around for you to realize you want to spend the rest of your life with me. I've been making a fool of myself since the day we bumped into each other at that carnival. I will not continue to do that. Please leave Ethan. Little Ethan is already asleep. I need some rest. I have a lot to do tomorrow."

"Where will you go and what will you do?" Ethan pleaded.

Theresa sighed. "I don't know Ethan." She murmured. "Frankly I don't care either. Somewhere where no one knows the crane name or all the scandal I've been put through by myself and by others. I might even change Little Ethan's and my names. It doesn't matter all that matters is the fresh start."

She pointed to the door and looked at him expectantly, "You know you're way out. Good bye Ethan."

He stood up from the bed, looked Theresa in the eye and shook his head as he walked out of her bedroom and closed the door behind him. He walked across the hall to his son's room and watched his little boy sleep peacefully for what may be the last time in his life. "Daddy loves you Little Man. What ever your Mama says just remember I love you," he whispered into the room and turned walking down the hallway to the stairs.

Theresa cried as Ethan closed the door to her bedroom. She had never seen so much anger or hate in his eyes before. She wished she had been good enough for him. She wished she hadn't made the disasterous choices that led up to losing him forever. She still believed in destiny, fate and karma. She knew she had to do this despite her second thoughts.

"Good-bye Ethan," she finally said with a shaky breath as the tears streamed down completely.