A/N: So I'm back. Thank you for all the feedback, I'm going to try a song oneshot today.
You and I, we're like fireworks and symphonies exploding in the sky
With you, I'm alive
Like all the missing pieces of my heart, they finally collide
So stop time right here in the moonlight
'Cause I don't ever wanna close my eyes
Maya didn't mean to let him go. She just found a way to push him away like it wasn't supposed to happen. She let herself drown. And for a while, she lifted her head to breath for air before delving right back into their time. The long game was over. Her and Josh were exploding into the night like fireworks. They were able to be everything she had ever dreamt of. So she let it happen again.
Without you, I feel broke
Like I'm half of a whole
Without you, I've got no hand to hold
Without you, I feel torn
Like a sail in a storm
Without you, I'm just a sad song
I'm just a sad song
The second time was worse. She shoved all of the hurt in her dungeon and refused to acknowledge it still lingered. He still lingered.
"Maya, you know I didn't mean it." He took her hand, but she pulled away.
"How can you prove that? I've had people tell me that my whole life and I hate it. I don't know that, Josh." She lashed out. It was easier than facing the consequences yet to come.
With you, I fall
It's like I'm leaving all my past and silhouettes up on the wall
With you, I'm a beautiful mess
It's like we're standing hand and hand with all our fears up on the edge
So stop time right here in the moonlight
'Cause I don't ever wanna close my eyes
Surprisingly, she gave away a third chance. She knew she'd only do it for him. That she'd never really let anyone who didn't mean something back into her life. She didn't have a crush, she knew what it was, but she still needed him to know. She took his hand and rested her head on his shoulder. Pretended everything was okay, but she knew this couldn't last forever.
Without you, I feel broke
Like I'm half of a whole
Without you, I've got no hand to hold
Without you, I feel torn
Like a sail in a storm
Without you, I'm just a sad song
She sat beside him once more. Occasionally let him kiss her forehead. She would kiss his cheek. They were the cutest. But the storm came again. A whirlwind of emotions ran through Maya's blood as she heard the information. She couldn't decide how to approach this. Not when she had never been in this position.
You're the perfect melody
The only harmony I wanna hear
You're my favourite part of me
With you standing next to me
I've got nothing to fear
She sat by him in his final time with her. She gave him hope. She told him that he could do anything he wanted, but she was wrong! She wished and prayed and trusted in hope to give her what she wanted. But it's a cruel world and she couldn't comprehend her emotions. And then it happened.
Without you, I feel broke
Like I'm half of a whole
Without you, I've got no hand to hold
Without you, I feel torn
Like a sail in a storm
Without you, I'm just a sad song
"Why did it happen to me and my boyfriend? Why not some other couple? I want him back, Mom." She sighs.
"I know Baby Girl. The Matthews do too, but we can't have him back. He's gone."
"He's...dead." She cries.
"He is..." her mother says before bursting into tears.
"I wish to be left alone now. Can I go to the roof?" The older blonde nods.
"Yes. Don't be long though,okay?" She shrugs. She has nothing to lose now.
She takes out her sketch pad and begins to draw him. Her feelings are still as strong as they were when he was alive and she knows she'll never get over him, so she doesn't even bother to try.
Without you, I feel broke
Like I'm half of a whole
Without you, I've got no hand to hold
Without you, I feel torn
Like a sail in a storm
She sits admiring the portrait of him she drew.
"I miss you, Josh." She looks up to the sky. She begins to cry. Then sob. Then scream.
She sits in a corner, hugging her knees, rocking back and forth.
"Please don't leave me. I can't live without you. I'm broken. And you were the only one to fix me." She sobs.
"I miss you." She cries. She looks at the portrait one more time.
Without you, I'm just a sad song, I'm just a sad song.
A/N: Hope that was okay x
