RunAway Love
Chapter 1
This is bad. That's all I can say right now. This is bad. Last night...and now this... My father and mother...well...they yelled at eachother. Oh, I'm so sorry! I didn't properly intorduce myself! I am ChiChi, princess of my wonderful people, those who follow the ways of the Oxen. My father is the great Ox-King, and my mother is the great Ox-Queen. (I never really knew her real name. Same for my father.) We had all always gotten along together very good. Mom would teach me some things, and Daddy (I gave him a nickname 'cause Mom told me he was special) taught me how to defend myself from 'bad boys'. I have no idea what 'bad boys' are...just that Daddy will never like them. It takes alot to make him never like you! That makes them really bad!
Anyway! Last night, Mom and Daddy were yelling at eachother. They never did that before. Sure, Daddy yelled at me when I talked to a boy out on the streets some times, and Mom yelled at me if I did something awfully wrong, but they never yelled at eachother. And they slammed things. I'm only four, I had no idea what was going on, but I was old enough to understand that something was wrong. Mom's voice was so loud, I jumped! I don't think Daddy did though, he's not scared of anything! That's what I thought...until last night.
It was time for me to brush my beautiful white teeth, but they were still arguing. I was scared. Mom sounded really mad and Daddy didn't sound any better. But I had a job to do when I grow up, everyone would look up to me one day, and I'm sure they wanted to see me with pretty teeth to go with my pretty looks and hair. So, even though I was scared, I opened my door slowly, to make sure it made a noise, and then walked out. Mom and Daddy got my secret message, they stopped yelling at eachother. I smiled at Daddy, but Mom gave off this weird feeling, it made me too scared to wanna look at her. I did see her in the corner of my eyes though. Her eyes looked kinda red, and her hair was a mess. Poor Daddy, his eyes were really red, and he didn't have his special hat on either. That meant he was far from being happy. 'After I brush my teeth, I'll go make him happy!' That's what I was thinking at the time. That's my job right now, keep Daddy happy, since lately I don't think Mom has.
I finished brushing my teeth a little faster. I figured, I'd just brush them better tomorrow, before Mom's lessons. When I came out the bathroom, Mom angrily reminded me to use the toilet. I was still getting used to not wetting the bed...I only did it once since they started to teach me. (I thought I was doing good, but by the way Mom yelled at me, I think she wasn't happy.) While I was taking care of what Mom had asked, I started thinking. Mom hadn't been happy lately, alot. I'm glad my job is to keep Daddy happy, it's so much easier. When I came out the bathroom again, Mom was there. Her eyes were beatiful and black again, and her long silky hair I was jealous of, was flowing from the top of her pretty head to her butt. I heard Daddy say he loves her butt before. But when I asked him why, he gave me a whipping over his knee and said I shouldn't be talking like that. So now what ever Daddy says about Mom, I keep to myself. Mom smiled at me, no matter how mad she may be, or the fact that I had nothing to do with her now, I loved her smile. Just as much as I loved our family. She gave me a nice, even bigger hug than the night before. I smiled and sniffed her hair. It smealt really good. But there was a reason I sniffed her hair. I could feel tears. I have no idea why, but they were there, and I didn't want anyone to know that the princess was about to cry for no reason. She gave me a kiss on the cheek and pulled away from the hug.
"Don't cry Baby Girl, everything will be ok. Mom was just a little upset." Upset? Like sad? Was she sad...that I wasn't doing that good in anything? Maybe that my job was to take care of Daddy now? Or...she wants a nickname too? She gave me another kiss and told me it was bed time. I said goodnight like usual, and went to my room.
This is where another weird thing happened. I went in my room and Daddy was there. His eyes were still red. I thought they would be, I knew some how it would be up to me to make him better and happy again. He turned around, I still don't know why he did though. I smiled at him, even though his back was to me. I mainly smiled because I saw his special hat there. I knew he was ready for me to take care of him, and make him be himself again. I sat on my bed behind him and hugged him. Well...not really. Daddy is so wide, I can barely hug his back! He chuckled, and turned around so he was hugging me. That didn't stop me, I tried my best to give him a big hug. I'm sure his heart was hurting, and when ever mine did because everyone was too scared to be my friend, Daddy would hug me and all the pain would go away. I had to make sure I did the same for him. We sat there for ever. The only reason the hug stopped, was because I felt something wet hit my cheek, and it caused Daddy to pull away. Poor Daddy! He was crying! I don't know what Mom did, but she brought the all-mighty king to tears! I started crying too. That didn't take long, I always do what Daddy does.
"Don't cry Baby Girl." I looked into his eyes, they were handsome compared to Mom's beautiful ones. I liked the way they shinned in the light. Was it because of his tears? "I'm sorry. Mom and Daddy (I was sure to make sure he knew his name for me) just...got in a dissagreement." I cocked my head to the side at his huge ginormical word. He laughed, that awesome laugh that I love to hear. According to all the important people he talked to, he only did that laugh for me. I smiled, but the tears continued to fall. He reached at my cheeck and wipped away all the sad water there. "I think Mom wants her space. Can I sleep with my baby girl?" His tears had stopped by now, and I could kinda hear his happy voice again. I smiled and nodded, while speaking my first sentences since I got home;
"Sure you can Daddy. Tomorrow, everything will be great." I tried to use the big words Mom was teaching me, but my mind was blank, all the big words must have left me when they heard Mom and Daddy fight. He smiled and pulled me into another hug. I closed my eyes and listened to his heart beat. When my eyes were open again, I noticed he had already set my alarm and turned off the light. It had to be his smell, it always lulls me to a sleepy time. Er...state of mind I think Mom would say. I hope she can forgive Daddy. I don't know what either of them did...but I knew they needed to fix it so our lives could be happy and nearly complete again. I let Daddy wrap his hands around me and pull me into his chest. Silly Daddy, he thought I was scared. I wasn't, I figured maybe he was. So, I hugged him back, even tighter than before.
"ChiChi..." His voice scared me. It was quiet in my room, and I never heard him say my name before. It had always been 'Baby Girl', or just 'Princess', but never my actual name. Now I was really scared. First he yells with/at Mom, and now he says my name. "I don't want to pull you into this, but if Mom aske you to leave with her...please say no. Tell her you want us all to be here together. That's my only fear...I can't loose you guys." I was silent. That was alot to take in, and thanks to all of Mom's teachings, after a minute, I understood. I thought Mom got in that yelling match with Daddy because she wanted to leave with me. I only nodded, I couldn't bring myself to say anything. I think after I said my little sentence, my voice left to join my big words. I hopped they would come back tomorrow, I would need them then. The next thing I remember was me waking up with Daddy gone. Mom told me that he had a meeting with those important people. So, I started to get ready for Mom's lesons.
Mom taught me more about telling the time. It was about a hour after we started when Daddy came home. He looked so tired. I gave him a hug, and he hugged back, but he still seemed tired. Mom gave him a angry look, and he gave it back. I wanted to ask them not to, that it would be bad if they yelled at eachother again, but I couldn't. Daddy left the door open, my voice was gone again, gone with the wind. I needed to go outside, so I could find it and try to help them.
"ChiChi." Mom turned her back on me and Daddy. She pulled out some money from her purse thingy and gave it to me. "Run to the market place and get us some milk. You did want hot chocolate tonight, right?" I smiled nice and wide and nodded. Hot chocolate always made me and Daddy happy, and I guess it relaxed Mom. She always seemed so mad while making it, but once she had a taste, she was happy too. I was so excited about the thought of putting this yelling behind me, I rushed to the place to get the milk.
Well...that's what happened last night. I'm at the door now, and I've been here for a while. The milk is on the floor right now, it got too heavy and I don't wanna carry it, or touch it, ever again. I heard a noise. Yeah, a noise. One that I didn't recognize, but one I knew was bad. When I first got back here, I was scared again. I had found my voice, that took a while. It took long enough, me finding my voice I mean, for Mom and Daddy to start yelling again. They yelled for a while...and then there was that noise. My heart gave off this...evil, awful feeling that I never wanna feel again. Ever since that sound, I've been standing here, telling you about all of this. If I hadn't gotten the milk, I bet I could have stopped what ever that noise was. Well...now I guess I shoud go inside. With a gulp, I grab the milk in its carton, and I open the door. Mom's in the kitchen, and she's crying. She's on the floor, her hands covering her eyes, and she's shaking with her cries. What happened? I drop the milk and run to her.
"Mom?" I can't believe it. One of the times I need my voice, and it didn't leave me. She shook her head slowly no and continued to cry. I look at the direction she's facing and gasp. There's Daddy. He's on the floor, arms and legs out, eyes open with shock and...his huge body isn't moving. I slowly stand to my feet and see a hole where his heart was...where it was beating for me and only me. Out of that hole comes blood, and alot of it. I get even more scared...what's that word... terrified at that sight. But I didn't cry. Something wouldn't allow me to, maybe because Daddy wasn't. Or did my ability to cry leave the house, like my voice did before? I looked back at Mom and saw a thing by her hand. Oh Kami! It's-it's! It's a gun! I've seen one of those and only one, and it was in a movie! Daddy told me those things were bad! Why on Earth did Mom have one? Did she use it? I don't know, I never saw a gun get used...just saw one.
"ChiChi...I...I can't believe...I didn't mean to...I was forced to..." She looked up at me. I couldn't see her eyes, my body didn't want me to. I looked at her face, and where her eyes should have been, was just skin to me. "He tried to stop me...ChiChi...we need to leave..." I can feel my heart gasp. Leave!? Why!? Daddy said to me last night to not leave! And he said it was his fear that we would leave; as in, scare him! I didn't want to scare Daddy! "Listen to me, ChiChi...this is a bad place. We need to leave," There was that awful sentence again, "to find a better place for you. Daddy knew this as well, but he wouldn't let us leave. Don't you see? I had to..." I sat on my knees, still not able to look Mom in the eyes.
"Why?" I asked. That had been bugging me for a while. "Why do we have to leave? What did you have to do?"
"Oh ChiChi...bad things will happen to you here. I...I had to put Daddy in an endless sleep. He will never wake up. Now if we stay, everyone will think we are bad. Please, understand, now if we stay, they will take you away from me. Do you want that?" I was silent. Daddy said that he always wanted us together, but now he was asleep. It was up to me to keep his fear away, and to stay with Mom. I looked her in the eyes now, she was just helping Daddy keep his fear away. She smiled at me, she knew I understood. "That's right, we have to stay together. Go get all the things you really want, ok?" I nodded and rushed to my room.
As I pack all the improtant things, I think about all this. Daddy will never wake up, huh? I don't know if that's bad or good. Mom gave me the money for milk, so the family could calm down and be better. But no, Daddy was asleep now. In a way, Mom lied about that. How do I know leaving here is for the best? How does she know? I keep on packing, there is one thing I do know; Daddy wants us to stay together, so that's exactly what we're gonna do. I have three bags full of stuff I need; one for my grooming, one full, and I mean full of clothes, and the last one full of extras, maily toys Daddy ever got me. I glance around one more time...will I ever see this stuff again? Something catches my eye, it's a note! I run to it and read it. I don't understand..what does-
"-ChiChi! Come on Baby Girl, let's go!" That's some kind of relief, Mom's calling me Baby Girl again. I fold up the paper, put it in one of my pockets, and rush out to her. She's outside. One more thing...I quickly run to Daddy, and give him a big hug without touching his blood.
"I love you Daddy. One day, I'll make you proud..." I wince at those words and run outside. Mom throws a stick with fire on it, and the house catches on fire quick. A medium-sized group of my loving, caring poeple come out to see what happened. Too bad...they came too late for me to tell them what happened for real. I'm in the back seat of Mom's car. I have no idea where we're going. All I know is the same, I'm keeping Daddy's fear away, I'm staying with Mom.
"Don't worry." I had been watching the clock. Mom had been driving for hours, and she finally pulled on the side of the road. It was dark outside anyway. "Tomorrow will be better. For now, we'll sleep in the car." I stayed awake most of the night, pretending to sleep. When I knew Mom was asleep, I pulled out the letter and read it again. Still, it made no sense to me. I thought I was already doing what he had asked, so why did he write it? I went to sleep thinking about the letter.
ChiChi (that is how you spell your name), Baby Girl, I love you with all my heart. I'm so sorry you got caught up in the argument. I just want you to know, I want you to live a life you love. Listen to your heart...and make me proud...
you guys are prob like 'OMG SHE HAS ANOTHER FIC!!!???' well yes i do. but i have a REAL good reason. you see...my mom needed to go some where (i hate bringing attention to myself, remember?) but its a bad place. and now, me and my brother are living with my te-te (aunt) Cindy and uncle Jay. (in other words, my cousin Alexa.) all of my inspiration is to make a fic about what im feeling right now. when i got this idea, wondering what hell ChiChi would be put through if she lived with her mom like i did, thats all i wanted to write. so now all of my other fics are on hold, until i get used to my 'new life' and get happy again. i hope you guys like this fic. just this one time, ill ask you... PLZ REVIEW! there! i said it! (BLECH! XP!) lol. BEFORE YOU REVIEW! i wanted to remind you my other fics are ON HOLD! they are not what i call DEAD FICS!!! ok? and incase you guys were wondering, ChiChi is actually 'talking' to you. i thought it would be a nice twist if she saw you guys as imaginary friends. so, if you have any advice for her or w.e, go ahead and 'tell' her! now im done lol.
Tas36
