Why does life torment me so much? Does fate really take this much pleasure in tempting me with what I can't have? Every day I am forced to stand next to her, knowing that the only things that she could ever feel for me are disgust, repulsion and loathing. Everyday I keep a smile on my face because, as her friend, it's my job to ensure her happiness, right? Well, we've been through so much together, good times and bad times and everything in between. It seems so long ago that we were put together on that faithful day and now it pains my heart to see her all grown up and ready to marry him. What hurts me the most is that she should know that he doesn't love her! He could have chosen any other girl; he could have picked out any other girl in the entire village. But he chose her, just to torment me, to make sure that it plagues my thoughts at night. Everyone thought that our relationship had grown into a reluctant respect, if not a friendship. What they didn't know was that while he was away, something huge had happened to him, which had changed him. If he had come back unchanged, this wouldn't be happening, but it did. We had a growing relationship mostly because we could relate to each other on our lives' past events. Thinking back to the day this all started, I guess the one person to blame would be the one who started this all, the snake-bastard. It was supposed to one of the best days of my life, the day on which I proposed to my lovely girlfriend of two years. She had looked radiant in her halter top red dress and solid gold necklace that was inlaid with jade of the most gorgeous color of green. The entire outfit matched her so well, bringing out her hair and her eyes. The necklace was a gift I had gotten her for our two-year anniversary just the night before. The trouble started when we were walking to the restaurant and saw a bunch of our friends gathering up near the gates. When we asked what was up they simply told us something that we had given up on hearing. He was finally coming back! We forgot our date and waited for him to arrive. When he arrived he was greeted firmly by Hokage-sama giving him this huge lecture. To me, it appeared as if he wasn't listening at all and just staring at us with a sadistic smirk on his face but no one else noticed. Obaa-san put him under constant watch by one of the ANBU and put him on probation. That hadn't stopped him; he had went to my girlfriend's house at night and had filled her head with evil lies until she had decided to break up with me and start dating him. Then, just two weeks ago, he had proposed to her and she accepted. I tried to tell her all about him but she just thought that I was jealous of him. Though he gave me the spot of best man, all I can do is stand here beside them and ponder. I had gotten what I wanted, for her to be happy, but one thing kept floating around in my mind. It was something that I had heard my sensei say one time. Making your dreams come true and being happy… why are they two separate things? Well, hell if I know.
