Phil Lester is the perfect man. He has pure blue eyes, deep black hair, the demeanor of a rainbow, and I want him for my own at any cost.

People tell me that I'm crazy. That it's creepy how much I "obsess" over Phil. They don't understand that he's my precious lion. He's my light and only I can have him.

It started a few months ago, when I first discovered his YouTube channel. I watched every video that was out at the time until I had memorized all the words. To me it was the same as memorizing song lyrics. Just an innocent little thing. I had no idea why everyone was so worried about me. That's ok. There gone now.

After that I started making edits of me and him together. I was slightly taller than him, with my brown hair and eyes. Boring boring boring boring boring. Unlike Phil who had blue, green, and a small bit of yellow in his eyes. Like a galaxy. In the pictures we would be hanging out, kissing, or maybe...a bit more.

After that, I started to really take notice to his hair. The way it swooped over to one side, the cut of it longer in the front. I cut my hair like that too. Mostly for him.

I met him one time. I was in London for a trip and apparently so was he. I told him about my pictures and asked if I could have a piece of his hair. He said no. That made me sad. He looked scared but I didn't understand why. I would never hurt my lion.

I started making shrines and doing rituals, praying for him to come back to me. As time went on, nothing happened. I guess it's time to take thing into my own hands.