There's times when I want something more
Someone more like me
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He had a swagger. Reminded Carter of someone like John Wayne. Tall, with a presence that took your breath away, made you tremble.

Carter had waited for a moving G.I Joe doll. Someone who screamed, "solider", dark and angry. Someone who scowled.

He was smiling. He wore faded jeans, a plain grey tee-shirt, and worn boots. It was the only hint to who he was, except for the dog tags around his neck.

"Abs?"

"Eric!" she ran to him, dropping the charts she had in her arms to the floor, almost squealing.

Carter found himself grinning shyly as the man lifted her in his arms, swinging her around like a little girl.

"Wow..wow!" she laughed,"You're here!"

He laughed, resting his head ontop of hers.

Carter stepped back, watching him whisper to her, Abby nodding solemnly with each word.

"I'm sorry I couldn't help with Mom" he whispered.

"It's alright. It worked out" she said quietly.

Eric cupped the side of her face,"I will take care of her"

"She's in a home" Abby answered plainly.

He looked so small then, Carter watched. Little boy like, his eyes squinted closed,the glow disappearing from his cheeks.

**************
And behind your dark glasses
You're something else
**************

"Abby?" Luka poked his head out of an exam room,"I need a hand"

He walked towards the back,trying to shrug off the feeling someone was watching him. Someone with piercing blue eyes.

*************
You're really lovely

....*that night*
***************

He shrugged the jacket on, walking out of the hospital.

.."Then Weaver said something about all my other screw ups" Jing Mei groaned,"I swear John"

They stopped walking, a shadow ahead of them, looking aimless, the tall figured crouched down, shoulders curved in, hands in his jean pockets.

"I'll see you, Deb" Carter said quickly, brushing past the speechless woman.

She stepped back, watching the two men talk before walking alone towards the El.

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But lately you've been trying real hard
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"Hi" Carter said quietly.

"Hey" Eric squinted his eyes, trying to focus on the face in front of him, hazed from his cigarette smoke."Carter, right?"

"John" he answered,voice squeaking like a love sick teenager. Carter winced, already hearing the ring of Eric's laughter in his ears.

He smirked, stepping his boot on the ashes of his cigarette. Carter closed his eyes, trying hard to remeber the smirk, the flash of his eyes, the way he brought his hand to his hair, the smirk that made his heart leap.

The side of his lip curled, almost smiling. There was a glint in the blue eyes that formed a lump in his throat.

"I was just going to get something to eat" Eric bit down on his bottom lip,"Abby ditched me.You busy?"

Carter shook his head, his usual witty comebacks and bitter words trapped somewhere deep in his chest.

"Is that place good?" Eric pointed over at Doc's.