DISCLAIMER: I don't own any anime. just this ficlet. (A/n: I wrote this when I was in a very bad mood.020404. Don't worry, I'm not suicidal. I just get really depressed at times. Hope you r&r.)

Introduction: This was how Miaka felt one "bad" day--before the Curious Play-yes, back home--when all the "things" have not yet happened to her and to the worldS...

"SUICIDE NOTE"

MIAKA'S POV
Sometimes I just want to run away
Run away from this place
To a place where there is no one else-
but me.
I want to be in a place where I am free
Free to laugh, free to smile, free to cry
To push those unending sorrows away
And bid them all goodbye.

I want to die
To see if anyone would care
To see how many friends I've got
To see if they'd feel bare

I want to prove to the world
That someone loves me
There is at least one who does
And death will make me see

It's getting dark
I'm all alone
But I feel so locked inside
Even though no one is with me
I still feel eyes watching

Do those eyes see me everyday-
Do they watch my every move?
Coz I sure feel like I'm in hell
I still feel pressured even though I'm not

~*~*~

I know it doesn't make sense to you
But it sure makes sense to me
If you don't learn to give respect
Then what do you expect from me?

You must learn to understand me
So that I'll understand you too
Coz if you don't then no one would
And I'll forever be-
Locked up inside my own world
That no one cares about-
An outsider or perhaps a hermit
To everyone else around

Seriously I really want to die
To take these troubles away
Oh God someone please kill me
I just can't take no more

Everyone hates me
And the things I do
What is my purpose here?
I'm only here to make things worse
So why don't you just take me?

I'm a coward, I'm really not brave
For me to want to go away
But you can't blame me
If you only see
That I'm just another kid

~*~*~

You can call me all you want
Insult me if you may
You don't get hurt anyway

It's all for your pride
And your carnal pleasures
It doesn't matter how I feel

Why do you always do this to me?
You treat me like a ROCK
But please I'm a person too-like you
And I have feelings like you do

But you don't really care-
You don't give a damn
To hell with me, right?

And so I guess you won't be mad
If I commit say. suicide??

I'm a crazy girl
I'm a bitch and whore
I'm a freak of nature, alright.

So, "One more life, but so what?!!
No effects on me!!"

I just hope I'll die very soon-
But remember: You're coming after me.

(A/n: I know it sound really corny. It doesn't even have rhyme. but THANKS for reading. By writing this I got a lot of anger and sadness out. It really helps when you have paper and pen when you're having a bad day. oh thank God for their inventors..!)