Sic Itur ad Astra (Thus Does One Go To the Stars)

By spheeris1

Pairing: Anthy/Utena, Anthy/Akio

Warnings/Notes: Anthy POV, ramble-thought poetry, low angst

Inspired by 'Drive On the Milkyway' by Megumi Ogata

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se non e vero, e ben trovato….

Even if it isn't true, it's a wonderful invention….

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I want to fly again.

To have these ropes slip

From around my body,

To have the pins fall

Out of my hair,

To have life's sweet breath

Once again fill my lungs.

Is that too much to ask?

Is it?

Too late?

Or can you give me wings?

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Falling into your arms,

I never knew bliss

After you.

Or before you.

I never knew happiness

Within you, around you, because of you.

Yet I felt complete.

A puzzle piece that fits

So tightly, a thousand and one

Pictures of our tragedy.

Murals of our dissatisfaction

Spread out upon gilded walls….

Walls that I built.

That you build.

But who resides in that tower now?

I let my hair down

And you always fall on your climb…

But still the thorns prick my skin

And you feast upon my blood.

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Words said that I never meant to say.

Lies that become realities.

Letting my eyes shut against her fall,

Letting my body rise

Into the stratosphere….

Allowing years of apathy to

Claim my bones.

And I want to hurt.

I want to feel this burden

Of pain.

Not for me.

Not for him.

But for her.

And I no longer ask

Why I began to feel the heat

Of wasted tears

Slide down my face.

Useless tears

For my prince.

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How many little

Points of light

Rest in the night sky?

Some say a million,

Some say more than that….

Or perhaps much, much more.

And do they blink and wink

At you tonight?

Assuring you that

You are not alone, not

Now….not ever.

Can you feel me watching you?

As you watch the stars

Above, your face finally

At peace with the dreams

And the nightmares….

Can you feel me?

For I feel you all around me.

Let the others

Fight for forgotten causes.

Let them struggle

For a power that is already gone.

I fight for the stars now.

And I

Let them lead

Me to you…

Again…..

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