Midnight.The end and the begining.A day comes to an end,a new one begins.At that time if you close your eyes and leave everything out of your mind you will hear it. Its a sweet song,a sad melody,a small secret.Its a creation of my soul,a gift of my broken heart.
Midnight.As always i am alone in an empty room looking away wondering if life is worthing so much.Midnight.I know.Its the time i feel so alone.Its the time i need someone more than anytime before.A certain someone.Darkness.I am afraid of this cause it has something to do with loneliness.And its then when my tears are finally free to run to my cheeks and hide on my neck.Everyday the same.All the day i have to smile but te smile is fake.I know this well and my real close friends too.
But at the small hours of the night when darkness is all around and i seem so small and helpless,i know that at least i am free.I am free to show my pain,to feel human again.They called me fallen angel once.I am not an angel.I dont have wings,i can not escape my fate.They told me i was gift to give love and take love.They were wrong as always.
Tears,tears again.I am drowing.A melody...a secret melody lost in the darkness.Where does it come from?my heart?i see...its the song of my heart.My heart is crying too.I am weak,i know this but i am not allowed to show this/Only when i am alone.Now i am also running away so no one see that.
I am cursed to love with all my heart until i dont care about me anymore.I am cursed to live every sweet moment i shared with someone knowing it was the last.I am cursed to be alone for ever.I am cursed to a death worse that the physical one.So dont ask me why i chose my own world and not the real one.
Now you know that this song is a goodbye of my heart.Cause i dont have more tears.I am broken and no one canfix me.I am all alone.Will you ever forgive me?My whisper will never reach you.I am too weak.Its midnight and as always i am here thinking how nice it would be if i had you by my side as a good friend.That is what i need.Your friendship.Its midnight and its hot.But i feel so cold inside.Its midnight and as always i am lost.Lost in my thoughts,lost in my world.