Midnight.The
end and the begining.A day comes to an end,a new one begins.At that
time if you close your eyes and leave everything out of your mind you
will hear it. Its a sweet song,a sad melody,a small secret.Its a
creation of my soul,a gift of my broken heart.
Midnight.As always
i am alone in an empty room looking away wondering if life is
worthing so much.Midnight.I know.Its the time i feel so alone.Its the
time i need someone more than anytime before.A certain
someone.Darkness.I am afraid of this cause it has something to do
with loneliness.And its then when my tears are finally free to run to
my cheeks and hide on my neck.Everyday the same.All the day i have to
smile but te smile is fake.I know this well and my real close friends
too.
But at the small hours of the night when darkness is all
around and i seem so small and helpless,i know that at least i am
free.I am free to show my pain,to feel human again.They called me
fallen angel once.I am not an angel.I dont have wings,i can not
escape my fate.They told me i was gift to give love and take
love.They were wrong as always.
Tears,tears again.I am drowing.A
melody...a secret melody lost in the darkness.Where does it come
from?my heart?i see...its the song of my heart.My heart is crying
too.I am weak,i know this but i am not allowed to show this/Only when
i am alone.Now i am also running away so no one see that.
I am
cursed to love with all my heart until i dont care about me anymore.I
am cursed to live every sweet moment i shared with someone knowing it
was the last.I am cursed to be alone for ever.I am cursed to a death
worse that the physical one.So dont ask me why i chose my own world
and not the real one.
Now you know that this song is a goodbye of
my heart.Cause i dont have more tears.I am broken and no one canfix
me.I am all alone.Will you ever forgive me?My whisper will never
reach you.I am too weak.Its midnight and as always i am here thinking
how nice it would be if i had you by my side as a good friend.That is
what i need.Your friendship.Its midnight and its hot.But i feel so
cold inside.Its midnight and as always i am lost.Lost in my
thoughts,lost in my world.
