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His eyes fluttered and he opened his eyes finding himself buried in his knees on the floor in a bathroom. He could hear the music blasting from outside the walls. A beautiful girl was zipping up her black dress and fixing her hair in the mirror. She smiled at him in a seductive way as she walked out. As the door closed he found himself straining his neck to reach the toilet seat, letting out all the alcohol he had conceded within the last two hours. His knees and body went weak as he pushed himself up heading towards the sink. Feeling the bitter cold water hitting his face, surprisingly was the most refreshing feeling he had had in awhile.

He watched the water run down the tip of his nose and finally running down the drain. Ryan looked at his dripping face in the mirror and wiped it off with the towel. Nothing felt right anymore. Being in college now, it was supposed to set him free from everything. But it just brought back the memories, the memories of, her. Most of the time he would try and take his mind off her by going to parties and getting drunk, having wild and crazy sex. Even while it was happening, he felt sick. His thoughts were drawn off by an emptiness feeling in his stomach, he ran to the toilet again and let out all the pain and sorrow.

He heard a faint knock at the door.

A familiar face popped his head in the bathroom, as Ryan was getting sick.

"Hey man..owch..you okay?" Seth managed to say as he took another sip of his drink.

Ryan looked up wiping his lip; he could barely even see Seth. Everything looked blurry. The music was giving him more of a headache.

"Yeah, I'm fine.." He got up off his knees and went to rinse out his mouth.

Seth looked back out the door into the other room, and then back at Ryan.

He whispered. "How was the blondie..I knew right when we got here..She was definetly checking you out." He smiled as a girl came up and kissed his neck and put a beeded necklace around him, and walked away.

Ryan didn't say anything; he dried off his hands and walked out of the bathroom. The music was unbearable. People were everywhere, dancing, smoking, drinking, and in a corners making out. Ryan wanted to go back to his dorm and go to sleep.

Seth followed him and sipped more of his drink. "Hey man..where you going?"

Ryan was almost out of the house. "Back to the dorm..I can't handle this tonight..I'll walk so you can keep the Rover."

A girl walked up. "Hey Sexy..where exactly do you think your going?"

Ryan didn't turn around. He kept walking, he could feel his ears get hot, they began to burn. Sweat rolled down his forehead and he wipped it as he kept walking. He heard Seth mumble back to the girl.

"Uh, who knows? But, uh, I'm not going anywhere.."

Ryan could already invision Seth's smirk. He began to think of the finals that he had coming up in his classes next week. But once again as he reached the stairs to their cold dorm, his thoughts were moved to something else. The only thing he had been thinking about since graduation..her.

Right now it might seem like there will bea lot of R/M, but trust me there is tons of S/S also. Please leave reviews and I hoped you enjoyed it so far!