When Edward left I didn't know what to do anymore. I was always acting for Charlie, telling him that I was fine, and that that there were no problems, even though there were two very large problems when it came back to the realization that Edward had left me. I was heartbroken and pregnant. I always wondered what it would be like to have a child with ….him. I thought that I couldn't get pregnant but the three days after he left me, by telling me the awful truth that I always knew he was better than me and sticking it straight in my face hurt. Now I know that I have to leave everything behind now, my stomach is growing at a rapid pace; I am starting to think that there is more than one child in me. I know that it is a half vampire child because of the age a week old, and I am already over months pregnant. It is times like this that I wish I could talk to my best friend before the …..Cullens, Renee.

My mother Renee passed away in a car crash two months ago, I went to go there for a week while she was in a coma but Phil had died right away from impact so there wasn't even one person that I could talk to. Edward couldn't come with me because of the sun, and I didn't have any close friends in Phoenix so I was alone. I decided the next day when Renee died I was going back to Forks, I needed Edward. When I got back home he was there telling me how much he loved me, now I know that it was just a lie.

Three days after we made love he told me he didn't love and that I wasn't good enough for him, it hurt, it hurt my heart, and now it's hurting my stomach badly. I am about a week pregnant and it looks like three months practically. I know that I have to leave and fast before I hurt Charlie anymore, he does not like my zombie state. So now here I am eighteen and pregnant and all alone. I am going to cash in Renee's fund for me I am glad that I just turned eighteen so I am able to cash out on it. She left me all of Phil's and her money from their bank account, and he was getting kind of rich so I was left with just over two million dollars. Now I have to go online and buy a house. About two hours later I found a beautiful three story house in Snoqualmie, Washington. It's a few hours' drive from Forks to Snoqualmie so I figure I should get started driving now. I call a cab so someone can drive me to my new house. Paying full price means that they give it to you as soon as possible, so now I am driving to my new home.

I decided not to bring much with me; I am grabbing two filled with things. I am carrying my bag full of clothing, some of which Alice bought me while taking me out shopping. I will always love my sister, I know now that she used me for her personal Barbie Doll but I will always love her personality, and charm. So I pack up the small bag of clothes and head over to my dresser…..trip. "Ouch", I complain loudly to myself, and unconsciously bring my hand in a protective manor over my 'getting larger by the second stomach'. I not only tripped but I brought up a loose floorboard. I get up and get a closer look and quietly gasp at the sight in front of me. There located under my bedroom floor are the pictures of Edward and I, my Lullaby, and the plane tickets to visit my mother's grave with Edward. I am so ecstatic I think that I could scream. "Honk, Honk". I am alerted to a loud noise out the window and notice that the taxi cab outside has arrived, so I hurried to finish grabbing the remains of my life with Edward, and a few books to keep me busy, and close the door to my room. I hurry and scamper downstairs as I hear more car horns, and go to the kitchen and glance around one more time. I will always miss the yellow cupboards that are my mother; I will always remember the large television that sits in the living room, where pictures of ….him, were taken. I have to get out of here, I quickly leave the house, and into the taxi cab.

The ride to Snoqualmie was a long one; I had to change cabs because the driver said he could only go so far. But with the second half of my ride I noticed the woman had a CD player in the car, so to keep my mind off of the physical pain I decided I would rather go for emotional pain. "Excuse me miss"? "Can I help you dear"? The elderly woman asked me. "Do you mind if I ask you to play this CD for me"? She glanced at my face and must have seen the pain because she quickly grabbed it out of my hands and put it in the small CD player. The soothing sounds of my lullaby came flowing out of the stereo system and a put my head down so I could just imagine that when I get to this very secluded house that I can just scream out my frustration and wish again that Edward would come back to me and our child. But that was just a silly day dream and I have to focus back to reality.

We finally pulled up to a very large house; I would almost call it a mansion. I was defiantly bigger than the Cullen household. I was so busy gawking I didn't even realize that the elderly driver called me. "Miss here is your CD; by the way it was beautiful". She smiled sadly at me as if she knew my entire situation. It took everything I had to smile back, and hold back the pathetic tears that I knew were about to explode any second. SO I grabbed my two small bags and headed over to my new front door. I quickly grabbed the key that I was told under the mat and let myself in. I almost fainted from the sheer beauty of my new home.

Doing a further inspection of the house I noticed that I now resided in a home that had eight large bedrooms, much bigger than the one that was in Forks. My new Master bedroom was extremely large and had a king sized bed with a light blue/green theme along it all. I also noticed that there was a very large living room maybe the size of a football field, this would be great for when the children are born, I thought happily. I also noticed that the backyard was very large maybe three or four football fields large with the large surrounding forest. There was also six fully equip bathrooms and one extra large bathroom that belonged to the master bedroom. I again had to hold back my tears as noticed there was matching sinks for lovers. It was that thought that had silent tears running down my face.

I was truly happy that I would be bearing children, I am now two weeks into my pregnancy and it looks like I am over seven months pregnant so I am thinking that there is now at least two children in my stomach. The thought that I am going to raise children alone hurts. But knowing whose children they are brightens my day to no end. I feel as if my heart has been inflated for not only Edward but now my babies. I never thought of myself as a mother but now that pregnant it seems as though my maternal side has completely kicked itself in me and hard because I would do anything, and I mean anything for my children. I fear that I might have to fight in the end for them, and I don't want to think about that right now because I am happy and I don't want Edward or even the Volturi to ruin such a special time in my life. I know that the child will not be human so On this rainy Saturday I find myself board, so I start to think of all of the possibilities of a half vampire child. Will he/she be immortal? Will it me a normal birth? Will they drink blood? Will they be healthy? These questions sent my mind to panic, and I had not even realized that I had begun to pace until the pain. "Ahh" I screeched and grabbed my stomach and lye myself down on the couch. Alright I thought to myself bitterly no more pacing. Well now I know there is a limit to my physical activity.

Now that I know that I can't be that active during this pregnancy, I have to keep myself on the down low, by doing very minimal things around the house. I called a cleaning company to get the place straightened up I was lucky that the entire house came furnished. Now, I thought happily, I need something to eat the children are obviously hungry from the sounds coming from my large belly. Over further inspection I noticed the one thing that did not get stocked was the cupboards and refrigerator. So with that thought I took off towards the store.

On the ride to the local grocery store I took note that still don't have a vehicle to get around in, so I quickly took inventory of how much money I still have left and told the new taxi man to drive me to the local grocery store. Once I picked out the basic necessities of what I need I made a quick trip down the baby isle and found some small containers of child food, and thought that these could be useful. I also found some small baby things like bibs, and placemats. I also bought three cameras; I would love to get everything on camera with the children and took note that I would have to buy more efficient camera equipment. I would need to go shopping, but again I was hit in the heart that Alice would have loved to go shopping, but again I thought she would love to go shopping, but not with me.

Once I have gathered everything from the grocer I made good work and put the bags in the cab. "Excuse me Sir"? "Where would you like to head to now miss"? I thought for a moment before answering "Can you take me to the nearest car sales, which sells new cars"? He just simply smiled at me "Of course, I see you don't like riding in some used car". He tried to joke. I lightly laughed and told him, I have been riding in taxis for a while, and it's now time to buy my own car. So now we were headed off toward the car dealership. I told the nice man that he didn't need to stick around for me and swiftly handed him forty dollars for his troubles with me today.

One inside the dealership, I found someone that could help me right away. "Hello, can I help with what you are looking for today"? The young woman offered. I smiled and replied. "Maybe, I was wondering if you could help me find a new car, which has four doors, and is a family car"? Her smile seemed to brighten at this. It was obvious he was getting commission here. After about an hour of walking round and her showing me all these very nice safe cars, I found one that I loved. It was a black Rolls-Royce.

After driving out of the parking lot I noted to myself that the pain in my stomach was getting increasingly stronger. So I speed off toward home, and found another sad thought with that, Charlie would not be happy with me speeding. I thought to myself that I should write him a letter to tell him that I am alright, the pregnancy thing came on so fast I was out of the house within two hours of finding out. So I made a quick stop down at the local post office, and grabbed a stamp and some writing paper.

Once I got home I rushed to the stairs and climbed up slowly thanking whatever gods there are that I did not trip yet and made my way slowly up to my bedroom and went to the full-length mirror and took my shirt off. I gasped when I turned to face the mirror. My stomach held large purple and blue bruises, and stretch marks that make you wonder what on earth is keeping my stomach together. I undid my jeans and walked over to my closet and pulled out my old robe, and walked down stairs. I quickly grabbed my camera and made my way back upstairs and snapped a few pictures of myself in the mirror. This pregnancy was going so fast I wanted something to remember it. After I took the pictures I slipped the robe back on over my nude form, and went to get something to eat I don't remember eating this much food before I thought with a smile. The little ones are hungry. O further inspection I noted that I must at least be halfway through this pregnancy, not much time left I thought with a sad smile, they would be here soon.

With the thought of children along the way I thought with a smile that I must come up with baby names. I kept thinking that maybe I should honor some family with naming one of them Edward or Anthony. I wanted something to have to do with them, it's not like he loved me but the children would maybe be angry with them once they heard the story of what happened and I don't want them to disrespect their names. So I figured I would start fresh with my new family and new names except mine, it will always be Bella. Two hours later and still staring at the paper that said the new names I had picked out that they are beautiful, and strong that I know the children would love them but I would have to make sure that they match the names, I don't want anything that doesn't sit right with me.

Everyday I would have the same routine wake up in my large comfy bed, and eat like a horse. Then take more pictures of me in the mirror. I was quite stunned that it grows inches every day, but then I just remind myself vampire child, and lightly chuckle for forgetting that I had any sort of a normal life. I knew that I was an outcast but this just proved it to be even truer. I realized that if I could go back in time and redo anything from my life to the mythical world I wouldn't. I f I could redo the pregnancy I wouldn't. I know that Edward doesn't love me but when I look down at my stomach and realize that I still love him, I will love him until they day my body gives out and dies. My body is getting older but my love seems to be following my body and growing along with it. These children are going to look like him, but I know that they would want a father, but what do I tell a child that wants their father? What do I say to my son that wants to know everything about the man that supposedly made love to me but then tells me he doesn't want me and he never loved me. The truth, it will be painful and hard to hear for them but I know that I will not lie, I will give them all of the information that they wish to know.

Thinking about fathers makes me think of how Charlie is doing. So I quickly scribble down a letter so he doesn't worry too much.

Dear Charlie,

I am writing you now so you can know that I am sorry, that I had to do this. I am out in the world "finding myself". This past two weeks have been wonderful, I have been all over the world, I have been flying all over the US and now I am headed out to a new country, I haven't decided which yet, it is completely random. But, I just wanted to let you know that I love you so much, more than you probably realize. I know that we don't really show our feelings, but it doesn't mean that I don't care. I also wanted to let you know that I am safe, and happy. I will write you again, when I get my hands on some paper and a pen. Please don't be disappointed with me. I want you to move on; I want you to find someone that you can love. My love for Edward will always be strong, but sadly it was only one-sided. I have not moved on, and I know that you are going to call me a hypocrite but I love you enough to tell you to move on. You have the rest of your life, and I want you to be happy with another woman. You are my father I will trust your decision on all things. But please listen to me when I tell you to be happy for the rest of your life. I love you dad.

~Bella

Once the letter was fully written I drove off to the small postal service in town and shipped it off. Then I was back into my routine again. My stomach is telling me it's time to eat again. By the looks of the pictures that I took this morning of my nude frame I noticed that my body seems to be shrinking but my stomach is getting larger by the second.

It has been three weeks of pregnancy, three weeks of pain to my body. It is at a point where I can barely walk to the kitchen anymore, I mostly sleep and eat. I this pregnancy to be over but yet I want it to last longer. Yesterday when I went to the store to buy a nice digital camera, and picture frames, and develop the pictures. My body almost didn't make it to the inside of the house before I passed out on the couch. I was happy with the pictures though, and the nice frames I bought. I decided that some of the pictures of my body are a little too personal but the ones that are covering my intimates should defiantly go around the house. Above the fire place I placed one of me covering my breasts with my arm looking down at my stomach and holding it with the other hand with just a pair of underwear on. I think that this is one of the better pictures that I took so I can show the children what I looked like when I was pregnant.

I decided the next day that I was just too hungry for words and walked down the stairs and to the kitchen. When I got there was a very sharp pain to my abdomen. I screamed out in pure pain, and gripped the counter as I lay myself down on my back and held onto one of the bar stools in the kitchen. Pain, just wholesome pain, my only thought was that I hope the baby is okay. That's when I felt it. Burning, I felt as though my entire body just burst into flames. I thought to myself if I was dying but then I realized I had to stay alive for the babies. I tried to make myself think of happy thoughts like what it would be like to hold my child. What it would be like if I could show Charlie my children? What would Edward say when he saw the children? Would he accept them or deny them, like he had denied me in the past? With that last thought I blacked, out. I was just happy the pain was gone.

I woke up felling very odd. My whole body felt good, like it was relieved of a huge stress. I was afraid to open my eyes, I was wondering what happened. I feel like I should be in the hospital, that's what usually happens in these situations, but I didn't hear a heart monitor. I sighed in relief. My ears picked up something else though; it was a quiet suckling noise. I opened my eyes and gasped, it was absolutely beautiful. I could see everything; it was like nothing I have ever experienced before. But then I remembered my stomach and grabbed for it, but there was nothing there. Now I was panicking, where is my baby? Then I stood up and gasped. There sitting on the floor in front of me were two small children, a boy and a girl. They were the two most amazing people I have ever met, they were rivaling Edwards's beauty, and I didn't think that was possible. They must have caught my movement because they both looked up at me and smiled a beautiful star shinning smile. I couldn't help but smile back, they were adorable.

I didn't know what to do we just stood there and stared at each other for about five minutes, when I decided to act. I knew what had happened now, I had become a vampire, and I looked down at my now flat stomach and grimaced there was blood all over my ripped tee-shirt, that was now lying on the floor next to my body, and I noticed a bite mark over my abdomen and smiled a sad smile. They had to get out somehow; I just wished I could have brought them out in a more healthy way. But with another glance up at the two small children I didn't car I was just happy they were with me now, and that I can take care of them. I smiled and walked over to them.

I bent down eye level and looked at both of them, and smiled a wide smile. "Hi sweetheart, I am your mommy". They smiled and looked at each other than looked at me and said in unison "Mommy". I was so stunned; I couldn't believe they could talk. I smiled even bigger and picked both of them up. I could smell the blood running through their veins and their small hearts beating. I could feel the venom pooling in my mouth, but I ignored it, this was not an everyday occurrence. I placed them both on my bed and went to go and quickly get changed. I threw on a pair of pants and new shirt. I walked back over to the small children and said "why don't we go get you to something to eat". I knew that my maternal side was string but I should have really picked up a baby book so I knew what I was doing. But they just smiled and said "mommy". I felt like my heart was going to explode. I felt tears pricking at my eyes but I knew they would never fall. My children needed me and that's the only thing that mattered to me in this world, I was truly happy, I just wished that I could share this moment with someone.

Two weeks later my children Tulip Ann Swan, and Andrew Mason Swan and I were almost the perfect family. They were incredibly smart, they haven't been out in public yet but I know they have bloodlust. Today I promised to take them hunting with me because they didn't like the baby food I had bought them at all. They did whatever they could to get out of eating; they were stubborn, just like me. They both looked to be about a year old but there knowledge just keeps growing they both like to watch the educational channel on television, but I only allow them one hour of television per day. They both read too, they have read every one of my books, and today after hunting is finished I promised that if they could control themselves we could go to the mall for new clothes, books, and food.

Tulip and Andrew were both doing excellent I decided I didn't want them to go hunting yet so I went and brought back one deer and they both shared it perfectly. This seemed to fill them up. I hunted down three deer for myself. Once we were all full from this we made our way back home with Tulip on my hop and Andrew was on my back holding onto my back. I know understood why Edward was always so excited to take me running with him. I know now that we wouldn't hit any trees like he said. I didn't want to go too fast as to frighten the children but they both seemed genuinely pleased with the speed. I took a glance to my hip and saw Tulip was holding on with one hand while the other went to go and curl her small fingers around my hair. I was worried that she might slip but I knew that with my one hand on her back and the other holding onto Andrew that they were both safe. I wouldn't let anything happen to them.

Once we got back I quickly changed out of my sweats and into a pair of jeans and a dark blue V-neck t-shirt. I went into Tulip and Andrews's room and realized that I really did have to go shopping for them; they only had the bare essentials. When they had both fallen asleep two days ago, I went to the local shop, I found some small clothes, but with the age rate that they are growing they out grew it already. I was going to have to do a lot of shopping; I just hoped that they could control themselves around the humans. They only look a year old but they talk like middle aged people. They shouldn't have uttered one word yet, but I like it when they talk it is so melodic, and strong, it makes my heart swell with pride when I look at them both. They are my little angels, and I know that I would just die without them.

I was pleasantly supposed when it comes to their sleeping habits, they both sleep only a few hours each day like maybe seven or eight. I know that this is normal for a regular human but babies are supposed to sleep for more hours than that. It just means that I can watch them sleep but then that means that I get to feel as though I am closer to them in a way, just like Edward always wished he could read my mind, I know that when they are sleeping they mind is not filtered and when they mumble words I get the warm feeling in my heart, knowing that these are my children and the emotion I have for them is pure and heavenly love, and it makes me feel as though I am sleeping on a cloud.

So that brings me back to the present time as I help my children get dressed for the mall. "Are you two ready to go"? I questioned them with a worried smile. Tulip rolled her eyes and said "why dearest mother are saying that you don't trust us, because if there is no trust then we don't have to go". She winked she knows that I trust her it's just she knows how paranoid I am when it comes to my children. She put up enough of a fight when it came to hunting today they both wanted to go find their own food but they finally let me go get it for them. Andrew just sat on the edge of his bed looking amused at mine and Tulip's quarrel. Tulip looked at me and smiled with her green eyes twinkling.

Once I got both Andrew and Tulip buckled up in the backseat buckled, I hopped into the front driver's seat. I decided to go over the rules so the humans don't get suspicious. "Alright you two, I want you to both know that I trust you both very much but we all need to act human, alright"? Andrew looked confused and asked "Is that why you put those contacts in so they can cover your red eyes"? "Yes, they will turn gold in a couple of months", I answered simply. "Okay, so back to appearances-". I was cut off by Tulip playfully scowling at me in the rear view window. "Are you telling me there is something wrong with my clothing"? We all laughed with her, she would always make a wise crack like that. "Okay so back to appearances"-I winked at Tulip, and she giggled- "I need you both to not sound as smart as you are, like use small words when you have to like mommy, and small words". They both looked at each other and started laughing. Andrew finally choked out a "are you telling us to dumb it down", he barely managed to get out. I laughed lightly my children are just too smart for their own good.

Once at the mall we all decided that we should do clothes shopping last because they might grow another couple inches in the next hour, then we all laughed. This of course was one of my main worries; I mean are they ever going to stop growing so crazily. I just hope that they start to slow their growth soon.

We leisurely walked into the mall and found the closest Barnes and Noble books and Andrew decided that this should be a first stop because, he want much more to read. I told him that he needs to stick together with us. He replied by scowling at me and murmuring in an inaudible human voice "well you better keep up". I told him to watch his attitude or he will be in trouble, and he quickly apologized. I grabbed a push cart and made my way over to the autobiographies where they were both waiting for me. They both enjoyed reading about people's lives and picked out at least fifteen different books of each. I then decided that the den is going to be expanded. Then we strolled down the rest of the isles and we all picked up books in different isles, and we completely skipped out of the children's isles. They both laughed at me when I asked them about it. Andrew replied with a curt "how old do you think we are?" all the while trying to keep a straight face, but when I smiled at him and Tulip, he couldn't hold it anymore and we all burst out laughing.

We ended up with two completely full carts of books, and when we went up to pay the twins were each sitting atop of the baskets and had wicked smiles plastered on their faces. When we approached the elderly cashier she smiled, at us but gave the baskets a quizzical look. "Are all of these books for you Miss?" she asked looking at me. "No, my children like to do a lot of reading", she then looked at the twins. "Why, of course who does not like to read, we are only aloud one hour of educational television so we must make the best out of books, I even find them more interesting than C-Span". He responded like it was the most natural thing in the world for him to know all of those things. She looked at him stunned by his words and I just asked "How much will that be"? She nodded her head and told me $976.87. I quickly swiped my new credit card, and wished her a good day as she was still stunned. Once we exited the store we all shared a good laugh and headed off to a new store for clothes.