(Conrad) Hoarsely, he said, "I need you to know that no matter what happens, it was worth it to me. Being with you, loving you. It was all worth it." Then he said, "I wish you both the best. Take good care of each other."

(Jeremiah)"I wouldn't be the reason you don't go to him. I won't be your excuse. You've got to see yourself or you'll never be able to let him go."

"I still love you."

School tired me out so much that I fell asleep. Sleeping is where I allow myself to remember what they had once said to me. Not that I can help remembering while sleeping, but because it's where I feel less of the pain. But I still look back and think to myself, why am I the cause of this, and shake my head in shame telling myself to save it for my dreams, to wait until I'm unconscious. I can never see what Conrad and Jeremiah Fisher saw or possibly still see about myself. A girl would dream of having two boys fight for her, but in all honesty, it isn't as great when these two boys are brothers and are practically family to you. It puts relationships at stake and all it ends up doing is creating unneeded tension between two people. Thinking about the tears that I shed and the pain I felt hurts a little too much than it should at this point. I stopped walking down Memory Lane and returned to reality, a breath taking house shared with the family I'm staying with during my stay in Spain.

I sit up from my bed and look over at Taylor and say, "Let's go out tonight."

"Hmm. I was hoping you would ask that. School has been killing my social life. I have hardly had time to see Felipe."

Felipe is her new boyfriend. After her and Davis broke up freshman year, she completely changed and didn't start dating until we came here.

Before we go, Benito, the son of the family Taylor and I are staying with, comes into my room while I check my appearance once more and hands me something while saying in an adorable Spanish accent, "For you Isabelle."

At first, all I saw was an envelope, but as I saw that hand writing I've grown to know, I couldn't believe my eyes. It was like one of my dreams turned into reality. It caught me by surprise and I was struggling to catch my breath. The butterflies in my stomach began to flutter, something that only he could do, and I thought to myself, I miss you. Thank God Taylor wasn't in the room. She would kill me if she knew Conrad wrote me a letter.