A/N: So this is the sequel to "Losing Everything Never Hurt so Good." It starts before the epilogue of LENHSG. Hope you all like it.

Without Pain, Happy Endings Can't Exist

Chapter 1: College, Marriage, and Kids Too?

You look down at your pocket, and you wonder if you're making the right decision. If this is what you want. What she wants. You wonder what'll happen. What the outcome will be. Will she smile, or frown. You love her smile. It's what gets you up in the morning. It's what helps you through all of the long days away from each other.

As she sits back at the table, you straighten your back, and your face immediately softens. You're no longer nervous. You love her, and she loves you. That's all that matters to you.

"Spencer?"

"Yeah babe?" she asks, moving her gaze away from the wine.

"We've been together for four years now, and—"

"Hold that thought Ashy," she said, taking out her phone.

I rolled my eyes, and waited for her to finish.

"Yeah Taylor I finished the report…."

"Well, no. I mean—"

"But I can't tonight."

"No. I don't care if it's due tomorrow."

"Taylor!"

This is the part where I put my self aside, and be a good girlfriend.

I start to drag her out of the restaurant before she even has the time to object. I hear her slam her phone shut, and stop moving. She stares at me, and I suddenly feel scared.

"Why'd you do that?" she asked, her face turning red. She was mad.

"Because. Let's go home so you can finish that thing."

"No, I wanted to have a nice dinner with you. You've been planning this date for two weeks now. We never see each other Ash."

I stepped closer to her, and rested my hands on her hips.

"We do Spence. We do."

"No, not like we should. We live together Ash, and I rarely see you. It's always 'hi' and 'bye.' That's it."

"I know."

"I hate it," she whispered, looking at the ground.

I lifted her chin so we were face to face. I wanted to see her.

"I do too."

She sighed.

"I miss us."

"Me too."

There was a silence, and I stopped thinking. My mind immediately jumped somewhere else.

"Marry me."

"What?" she asked, her eyes bulging out of her head.

"Marry me?"

She froze. I was panicking.

Shit….shit. I shouldn't have done that.

"I'm sorry. I don't want to rush…I mean I understand if you say no…and…shit. I'm just going to shut up now."

"Ash…"

"No, it's uhm ok. I get it."

"Yes."

"What?"

"Yes," she replied, a little louder this time.

"Really?" I asked, smiling.

She nodded her head. She leaned closer, her hands moving to the back of my neck.

"You Ashley are so fucking amazing, and I love you."

"I love you too Spencer."

I leaned in and kissed her, gently.

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I was lying on our bed, writing while she sat at the desk. If this Taylor was as bad as to ruin our date, I already hated the chick. Now she's probably going to be up all night, and it'll tire her out. I hate it when she does this. Gets so engrossed in her work that she forgets to sleep, and sometimes even eat.

I pull my head out of my notebooks, and look over at her. She's got her pencil in her mouth, while flipping through papers. Her foot is tapping constantly against the ground. I sigh, because I know that means she's freaking out. Now I really hate Taylor.

I walked over and sat beside her, placing my hand on her knee, causing her foot to halt, and her gaze to meet mine.

"I'm sorry," she whispered in embarrassment.

I smiled.

"Don't be sorry. It's not your fault. But…for future reference, don't ever point out who Taylor is."

She laughed.

"How come?"

"Because, then I'll have no choice but to kick her ass."

She laughed once more. It was such a great sound.

"Don't you have some writing to do?" she asked, glancing over to the bed.

"Promise you'll calm down?"

"Yes."

"And be in bed by midnight?"

She looked over at the time: eleven. She turned back to face me, and there was a frown on her face.

"I can't make any promises."

I groaned in frustration.

"No Spence. If you're not in bed in an hour, I'm dragging you there myself. We have to get up early tomorrow."

"Why, what's so special about tomorrow morning."

I just stared her. How could she forget?

"Oh god," she covered her mouth, "I totally forgot."

"Yeah, I figured that much."

"I'm sorry Ash. You know that I've been busy lately."

"Yeah I know. You don't want this, do you?" I asked.

She reached out and cupped both sides of my face.

"Of course I do. I would love nothing more than to have kids with you, and you know that. Besides, this is just an appointment to see if I can even have kids."

"I know. But still, even if we wait another five years, I want—I need you to be ready."

She smiled.

"I am more than ready."

A/N: So tell me what you all think. Sorry if it's kind of short. The next chapter should be up soon, but I'd like to have some feedback before I post it. Thanks!