CH 1 REGRETS
AN: Ok, so after a long hiatus I decided to re-write the first two chapters of this fic. Hope you don't mind. Please let me know what you think if you can.
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Elena paced up and down the boarding house. It had been two weeks since they had killed Klaus, lost Tyler and Alaric... Two weeks since she had almost lost Matt... Two weeks since she had died and started enjoying whiskey and bourbon almost as much as Damon did.
Damon... Well, that was a sore spot to the newbie vampire. Since waking up in the hospital Elena's world had drastically changed and her views along with it. She was no longer alive but she wasn't completely dead either… she was a vampire.
Elena had joined Caroline, Stefan, Damon and countless others on the undead side. She was now one of "them". Surprisingly enough, or not depending who you asked, Elena didn't mind all that much becoming a vampire in the end. A part of her mourned the things she couldn't and wouldn't ever be able to do or have. Another part of her wanted to scream at the ridiculous fact that she got killed in the exact same way as her parents. Almost as if the universe had decided that escaping the first time was unacceptable, a mistake that needed fixing, like a bad plot in a substandard soap opera to up viewer ratings.
On the whole however, Elena enjoyed her new strength, her new found abilities and her durability. What she detested was how overwhelming every emotion could become if you didn't watch out for it. Given free reign everything she felt was overpowering intense and it sucked when you stubbed your toe. All in all however, Elena was quite good at keeping herself in check...Well, except for when it came to Damon...
"Ugh!" - Elena let out an exasperated growl.
When she woke up in the hospital Damon was there for her. He held her hand, let her cry on his shoulder and ruin another one of his expensive shirts. He talked her through the good and the bad of becoming a vampire and his confidence on her ability to be a good vampire was what had convinced her to turn. As he held her hand Elena realized with absolute gut wrenching certainty that she had chosen he wrong brother. Whilst Damon lent his strength to her in her hour of need, Stefan had just sat around in morose silence, shoulders hunched and a miserable expression etched on his face... unable to offer comfort, support or even love. It made her feel unwanted, deceased…dead. Caroline had been the one to take her home, to help her feed for the first time.
In fact, for the first week all she saw was Caroline and, eventually Stefan, the latter always hovering in the background not saying much. Elena had been so overwhelmed by her emotions that she assumed Damon was simply busy instead of absent. Elena had chosen Damon's diet and Stefan tried his best to not say a word about it but couldn't really disguise the emotions on his face. It bothered Elena at first, but eventually she had enough of caring for what other thought and ignored what Stefan's silence screamed at her.
When Elena managed to establish control over herself and her hunger she was allowed to see Jeremy, Matt and Bonnie. Her witch friend bore a similar expression to Stefan and Elena realized they were both in mourning for her and it rubbed her raw with anger. She was about to snap at the brooding duo, to show how alive she was, when she felt Jeremy's arms wrap around her.
"Don't you ever scare me that way again Lena." – he whispered in a low voice –"I thought I lost you."- Jeremy's voice broke.
Elena returned the embrace gingerly, overcome with the acceptance she found in her brother's arms. He wasn't afraid of her. No sideways glances like Bonnie or Matt. No concerned looks like Stefan and Caroline. He was simply glad she was alive, that his sister was alive.
"Sorry Jer." – she gave him an apologetic smile and he beamed at her.
After everyone left, Elena finally managed to gather the courage to ask about Damon. To demand to know why he had clearly removed himself from the picture without having the courtesy of talking to her. Angry, she cornered Caroline and Stefan and got them to spill. Apparently, whilst Elena was completing the transformation, Damon had beaten Stefan to a pulp for letting her die – no argument from her there – and Stefan had let him. Once Damon had calmed a little he took off after Rebecca and killed the original bitch for killing Elena. Both situations were unfortunate in Elena's eyes, but she felt vindicated and loved by Damon's actions and it filled her with hope. However, it made Damon's disappearance even more peculiar and she decided to leave for the Boarding house immediately.
As she turned to leave Elena felt Caroline's hand on her arm.
"Elena… don't." – the blonde pleaded – "You chose to let him go remember?" – she said quietly.
Elena raised her eyes at Stefan and then looked back to where Caroline was restraining her and her eyes narrowed.
"Well… yeah, we all make mistakes Care." – she hissed and Caroline took the hint to let her go.
"I can drive you there if you want." – Stefan mumbled.
"No thanks." – Elena bit back hard –"I think you have done me enough favours for a lifetime Stefan."
Elena gave Stefan her best stony look. She knew what she said was unfair but she was still angry at him for all the lies he told her whilst she was human.
Elena decided to forgo the car and use her super speed instead to reach her destination. Leaving a miserable Stefan and an embarrassed Caroline to console him behind.
AN: Hope you guys enjoyed that! R & R please!
