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My dearest Connor,

As I'm writing this, I am watching you sleep just like I used to do on those long, dark nights stranded in the past. I could sit for hours just looking at your face; at peace in a crazy, scary world. It was a comfort when it felt like we were in a completely impossible situation. You used to joke that I was like your guardian angel and that you always slept well when you knew I was looking out for you. I would give anything to see that look of peace right now and know you're OK; even with your eyes closed I can see that your mind is not at rest. You're blaming yourself for what happened and it breaks my heart to see you fighting so many demons.

It used to be so simple when we first met. Do you remember that first day? The excitement, the exhilaration, the anticipation of what might be around the corner? If we'd known then just how things would turn out; how much pain we'd experience and what we'd end up losing, would we have done things differently? Probably not, except for that thing we talked about – how we should've acknowledged the way we felt about each other so much sooner than we did. We had a whole lifetime ahead of us to make up for wasted time though – until the cruel twist of fate that separated us.

We swore that we would always be together; that we could get through anything and that we would never be alone if we had each other.

That's why I'm writing this now. Death may have physically parted us, but our love will always remain and bind us together forever. You have to find strength in that and believe that I am still here with you. You'll never be alone as long as you remember that. It's just like being in the Cretaceous, except my shift on guard is never ending.

It's time to move on, Connor. Live your life; live it for both of us because I can't any more. I want to see my Connor again; giving Becker grief, annoying Lester and finally completing Cutter's work so that what happened to him, Stephen and me doesn't happen to anyone else.

I'll be right here waiting for you when the time comes for us to be together again. I love you.

Yours, forever

Abby xx