I know it's really late, but I can't sleep! My whole life could be planned out tomorrow! I know humans don't understand this because they live a different life style and because they still don't believe we exist, probably because our appearance and "abilities" have been exaggerated. Maybe if I focus on that I could sleep?

Yes, werewolves and vampires exist, but not in the way you're probably thinking. There are all different kinds of werewolves and vampires, just like humans. Very rarely is there a werewolf allergic to silver or some freaky vampire with wavelength issues so their photos won't show or even their reflections. It's always interesting to read up on the latest myths humans have thought up. We don't really have super-fast speed; although, the average werewolf or vampire is faster than the average human. We do tend to live a few years longer than that of an average human. As well as being generally born stronger, and arguably wiser than humans. The whole human blood thing doesn't even happen until a few years after puberty.

Thinking of differences reminds me the differences among ourselves within this community. For example, I, Sakura Haruno, a werewolf that can't transform my body into a wolf; although, an old friend, Naruto, can. We used to call him Ninetails because he was born with nine tails, but that was sorted out. He also has this weird, almost swirly birthmark around his bellybutton. I haven't really heard much from him since a bit after middle school started. Everyone starts to separate around then, but we stayed in some contact through the internet and other things like that. Mostly now I see Ino, a vampire, who also has some weird differences. She comes from a family who can transform into little bats, but unfortunately she was born without wings. She had a lot of surgery done and she has a set of five year old wings. You see, a five year old vampire of a different family than Ino had died a few months after Ino's birth. The parents of the five year old agreed to donate the child's wings to Ino. It was unbelievable that the surgery would even work! Ino, if had been born with any, would have wings that grow from her arms like a bat and the wing would've deflated or folded into the bend that her arm and body make so she may appear human. She would've had three transformations: human-ish, human with wings attached to her sides and arms, and a little bat. Though this five year old boy had the wings that be like an angel, not feathery, but from the back, which fold into the body under "flaps" that appear as two long scars starting close to the shoulder blades. Thankfully her surgery worked, but the wings didn't grow so she is stuck with wings that look like those that humans buy for costumes on Halloween and they are too small to fly. She is still blessed the surgery worked and that she can move them enough to hide them into her "flaps", which had been created within the surgery.

I have my own differences as well… like I said earlier I don't transform into a wolf. I can grow longer nails, slightly more hairy, but not a wolf. If I don't eat any human blood for a long time I begin my "transformation". Everyone that has some "transformation" only mutates because of hunger or fear. I can get little furs around my body, like bunny furs all around, but very short hair so it looks like a fluffy snowflake had fallen on my body. I have learned how to control a bit of fur growth so that I could walk out naked, but appear clothed with fur clothing; not enough control to stop shaving. I can't control the little fuzz fur behind my ears; elders told us we were winter wolves and it was our natural protection against frostbite. I also got this stud for a tail! I'm small everything! Not small height, but compared to the average height I'm an inch or two too short. I got small breasts, small feet, small ears, and a small tail! It's also a bright red probably because of my pink hair. I was suppose to be a red head, but I was blonde enough to be pink. People make fun of my nub calling me foxy, small and red. That's really the only somewhat body part that I'm conscience about.

Now I'm wide awake again! Thinking about everyone's little quirks makes me wonder who'd my "pack" consist of. I turned eighteen this year which generally means this year I leave the community and spend my "young" years with a pack or the rest of my life depending if we come back or not. Of course, I might have to wait another year because the people I could be chosen to join are still too young. For example, Neji, one of the werewolves from the old royal families which I will mention more later, has a cousin Hinata who is three years younger and he has to wait because they have been assigned to join the same pack. Neji is nineteen this year and there is talk of whether or not Hinata, age sixteen, is old enough to leave the community. I wonder if I will be like Neji, waiting.

I feel terrible for Hinata, mostly because of her family's beliefs. Like I said they come from the old royals of werewolves. Back in the medieval days, obviously there were more royal families and they can keep their titles in this twenty first century world, but not the same authority they once had. Unlike the royal families of the humans it was better a princess than a prince, because the princess was considered to never truly understand war or struggle. They wanted the queen to have a king who knew personally of the troubles and issues of the people and war. The king could then inform the queen on wise decisions and the unbiased and loving queen would make the final decision. So to the bravest knight, he will be honored the princess' hand in marriage. I could never understand Hinata's life, being she as she is, being forced to understand rules of royalty and not learn things of her own interests and being treated as a pretty face and not as a normal being. I also have sympathy for Neji being seen as a curse and grown up to live by the rules of being Hinata's personal guard and nothing more. Neji is not a muscular man, but he is quicker than just about everyone, and he is quite wise too. He studies pressure points which makes him a quick and deadly ninja. Although it's kept a secret we all know that due to his family's rank in society they feel compelled to punish harshly and once I saw Neji shirtless and could see the scars, bruises, and blood on his chest.

This reminds me of other royals who I could also be joining the rest of my life with; Gaara and Sasuke. Gaara is another werewolf family and yet Naruto, comes to the family elsewhere in history, is not considered royal for their connection is too far apart. Something about their great great great great great great GREAT grandparents being married once, and divorced so that the generation that creates Naruto was removed from royalty. Gaara's family has a history of almost going extinct, which is where it is at again! Naruto lost his parents at a young age and if Gaara and his siblings choose to have no children of their own Naruto is their next best choice. Gaara and his siblings also lost their parents at a young age so it's just up to the three of them or Naruto. The elders worry because Naruto is loud and obnoxious and may never recover, while Temari, Gaara's sister, is rumored to be lesbian, and Gaara and his brother are into emo and dark stuff so they mostly stay out of society.

Then there is Sasuke, the big hunk of the community. He is from a royal family of vampires. They call them the "dragon vampires" because they have scales and can generally stand heat better than most. The scales generally only show when one is really hungry and their body begins to transform. Sasuke's family also has the signature of red eyes. They have wings that come from the back and it is possibly true that Uchiha's, Sasuke's last name, still hold the record for sharpest fangs. Rumor also has it that Sasuke has some scales he can't get rid of in… a "interesting place," if you get my drift. You know wink wink nudge nudge? Sasuke's family also has the same ideas for punishment as Neji's and his body reveals the same. Neji and Sasuke's families used to have a feud that lasted centuries. Like all differences among a community it starts as blood and hate but pulls out to understanding and acceptance. Although the feud is over, Neji and Sasuke are always competing for everything. Sasuke is more muscular and stronger than Neji, but still an argument if wiser.

I wonder if I'll be in a group with Sasuke. Naruto and Sasuke are close friends, whether Sasuke would admit that or not. I have never really known Sasuke, my friendship with Naruto and his to Sasuke is probably a consideration among the elders. I wonder if the elders will put Sasuke and Neji in the same pack to settle their differences once and for all. A better question being if Sasuke is even allowed in another group because he was offered to join Orochimaru, an elder who was removed for reasons not revealed to the public. Orochimaru was really into snakes and all his "younglings" had gotten snake tattoos. Sasuke used to hang with them and because of his scales Orochimaru favored him, but was extremely disappointed when Sasuke denied the acceptance into his pack when they had officially formed and left the community. Generally, if you deny you are either to live the rest of your life stuck in the community or banished to live eternity alone, but since the elders already saw Orochimaru as a suspicious character they didn't blame Sasuke for his decision. One of Sasuke's fangirls, Karin, had tried to destroy Sasuke's image and make the society discriminate Sasuke so that his only option would be to join. That was big news for a long time not too long ago.

So maybe… maybe… I'm so tired I can't think!... maybe I'll…be in… with…Naruto, Hinata…or…who will lead?...will there be more than one leader like…maybe I will lead?... nah, I don't want to…but who?... him?... OH! Goodnight, me!...