an: all credit goes to ms. J.K. Rowling. this is just a little something I cooked up after watching the last movie. please enjoy it! n.n


Lily… oh, Lily… so sweet you were, but after what I've done I know I don't deserve you. I never did. We were friends, bound together by being outsiders in our own world… you were muggle-born… I was only a half-blood… we were practically inseparable, you and I… until that person, that Potter saw you for the beauty you were. he drove us apart… I drove us apart… we drifted away from each other , and it hurt… more than death, did it hurt to see you with him… snogging in the halls and before a big Quidditch match. I hated him so… especially when he'd defile your beautiful lips with his, knowing that I'd seen it… always was he ready to torment me should Gryffindor lose or not.

The look on your face when I called you a mudblood… it's forever burned into my memory. I'm so sorry… every waking moment reminds me of how foolish I was to let that vile word past my lips, as did every day I watched you with him… you probably hated me as much as he did… for that, I don't… I can't blame you. To this day I hate myself for not telling you how I felt… for surrendering you to that damn Potter… for slinking in the darkness as long as I have… for… for following the man who killed you.

My Lily… as I sit here with you in my arms, my heart shatters to pieces I've no intention of putting back together. His son… your son cries with me, though I doubt he truly knows… that he truly understands that you shall never rise again. Never hold him… never smile… I swear to you, Lily… I swear I'll watch over him… I'll do all in my power to protect him… to keep him alive for you… but… I can't stay any longer… I must go before they find me here… oh Lily… may you have sweet dreams… forever and always…

Severus Snape