A/N: Title taken from a Wintersleep song. It's terribly great and reminds me of Cassidy every time I hear it. Check it out.
ORCA
He was a monster. He knew he was a monster, but Mac, Mac made him feel normal...
She made him feel right with the world, like everything he had done or had done to him was erased.
He loved her.
He did and that's why he had to do it. He put his head against the bathroom door, listened to the rush of water and the soft sound of her singing.
He narrowed his eyes at the sound and tried to pull the tune from his memory, it was Mac so it was probably something classy, some sonata or something.
She hit a particular bar and he couldn't help but smile wide.
It was the A-team theme.
His heart swelled for her but the gun was heavy in the waist of his jeans. He opened the door quietly and he could almost see her, fuzzy by the near transparent curtain as she sang to herself and washed her hair.
This was the last he'd ever see of her because no matter what happened on that roof he wasn't coming back.
He grabbed the housecoat and towels and on the fogged glass of the mirror he traced out a heart but knew she'd never notice.
He left the bathroom and stripped the bed and grabbed all of Mac's clothes, her whole overnight bag and wrapped the sheets around it.
With a deep breath he left the room knowing that this was the worst thing he had ever done.
Raping Veronica.
Killing that bus load of kids.
Having Curly beaten and then finishing the job himself...
Somehow all pale in his mind to leaving Mac.
He must be a monster if he can rationalise everything but leaving the girl he loves stranded in a stripped down room.
He dumps everything in the ice machine on his way to the elevator and it seems to take forever to get to the roof.
If he manages to kill Veronica as well as Woody perhaps he'll be able to go back to her. He'll buy her whatever technical gadget she wants, he'll take her to Paris for the summer and make love to her everyday...
...Yeah right.
He's not coming back from this, it's been a long time coming.
The cool night air hits his face and he notices immediately that he's beaten Veronica up there. He can see the edge of the building calling to him.
He wasn't going to see the light of day and the last memories of her that he wanted was the soft look on her face while in bed with him and the A team theme.
He was taking those memories to hell with him.
