Title: Looking For Love in All the Wrong Places

Summary: After a tragic event Naruto becomes severely traumatized and it's up to Gaara and Haku to save the day. GaaNaru Naru/multiple eventual SasuNaru

Chapter Rating: M

Author: Merc with a Mouth

Characters: Sabaku no Gaara Haku Naruto Uzumaki

Word Count: 2,568

Genres: romance angst

Warnings: Graphic sex, self mutilation

Naruto sighs softly as Sai continued to shove in and out of him, the smallest of whimpers escaping his mouth when Sai bites down hard on his shoulder. Sai kept on going, and Naruto knew he was going to be so soar after all this was over. Sai hadn't used any preparation this time no fingers or lube or anything, he'd just shown up and proceeded to take what he wanted. Naruto didn't mind, he felt so alive when they did this. The feeling of someone over him, inside him, filling him up in the most intimate levels. He felt so whole and complete it was enough to just…with a loud moan of Sai's name, Naruto came hard.

Naruto can practically feel Sai smirking at this, at how much affect he's had on him, but Naruto doesn't care. He likes letting Sai know how much he's affected by him. It gives Sai something to hold over Naruto. It gives Sai leverage that way there's no way Naruto will ever be completely out from under him, and this is a good thing. Because as long as he's under someone Naruto feels complete, this is his place, where he's meant to be.

Sai finishes himself off inside Naruto and kisses the blond roughly on the lips. It's hard and demanding and reminds Naruto that Sai is always the one in control, and then he gets dressed. He takes one last look at Naruto dirty and used splayed out on the bed and looking right up at him, dull blue eyes hold an odd emotion in them, one that Sai only sees after they do this. "Thanks for the good time" he calls over his shoulder as he leaves, and Naruto continues to stare at the door with that same odd expression on his face long after Sai has left.

When Naruto does move he hisses softly with pain, but it's not too bad. Nothing he's not used to, nothing he can't handle. But this pain isn't anything compared to the ache he feels, because now Sai is gone and no one else is here to fill him up. To mark him, to claim him, to hurt him, to make him feel alive again. He whimpers aloud his fingers traveling to his abused bum, and entering into himself, but it's not the same. Because Naruto needs someone there to do it for him, Naruto needs someone to be above him.

He reaches for his phone and calls Gaara, his fingers are still moving when Gaara picks up. "H-Hey Gaara can y-you come ahh come over" Naruto gasps out slightly between moans, adding a third finger to the first two that were already inside of him. "I r-really need to se-see you righ-mm right now" he whimpered into the phone closing his eyes tightly as he focused on Gaara's voice and the motions of his fingers.

"Yes actually I can. Naruto are you okay, you sound weird" Naruto could practically feel Gaara's worry through the phone, and he had to smile at that. Gaara had been his best friend for as long as Naruto could remember, of course he would be worried about him.

"I'm fi-ahh mmhmm. I'm fine. I just ahh Gods this feels good" Naruto moans loudly into the phone, because now he's even added a four finger, and Gaara's worried voice is even sexier than his normal voice. He switches the phone to speaker, and drops the phone on his bed so that he can use his now free hand to take a hold of his erection.

"Naruto are you touching yourself while you're on the phone with me" Gaara asks slowly dreading the answer, although he already had a pretty good idea as to what it was. Unfortunately this was not the first time Naruto's done this and it probably wouldn't be the last.

"I-I'm thinking of you" Naruto whimpered softly in response, jerking his member harshly, and brushing his fingers against that part deep within himself. "Oh God" he moans loudly when he could feel himself getting ready to cum "Yes" he whimpered out pushing his fingers harder and yanking on his cock desperately "Gaara" he cries out loudly, when he does come all over himself, lost in the pleasure of his orgasm.

"Naruto, you okay?" Gaara asks tentatively after a few moments of silence.

"Hmm yeah" Naruto says reaching for the phone, switching it off of speaker and holding it to his ear "So are you going to come over" he asks airily his head still swimming slightly in post orgasmic bliss.

Gaara is silent for a long moment before asking "Naruto, was Sai just over at your place"

"Yeah, but he left and went back to Ino's"

Gaara doesn't say anything for a while again "Naruto how could you possibly want more" he asks sounding relatively surprised which if you knew Gaara is a very rare occurrence.

Naruto smiles and laughs softly "it's nothing like that I just really don't want to be alone right now. I was hoping you could spend the night; we don't have to have sex. I just really need someone to be near me right now" and Naruto sounds so broken and sad that it's impossible for Gaara not to do whatever he asks.

"Sure Naruto, I'll be there in less then twenty minutes"

"Thanks Gaara" Naruto says as the line goes dead

When Gaara does show up he walks into Naruto's rundown apartment, he is not at all happy about what he finds. There is Naruto sitting on his bed shirtless, with a box cutter carving into his own skin. There was blood dripping down his forearm, and he was smiling happily. This is what made him happy, hurting himself. The longer Gaara stood there and watched the angrier he got.

"Dammit Naruto" he cursed vehemently "You said you stopped, you swore you stopped doing this: Gaara rushes forward and snatching the box cutter away from him glaring angrily at Naruto.

"Are you mad" Naruto asks softly

"Hell yes I'm mad" Gaara hisses as he pulls Naruto into his bathroom, and begins to tend to his still bleeding wound. "You swore to me and Haku that you'd- Kuso" Gaara pulled Naruto's arm under a steady stream of cool water.

"You said you'd be hear in twenty minutes that was only ten" Naruto says hissing slightly in pain "I wouldn't have if I'd known you were coming over" Naruto looks away from Gaara when the other turns to look at him.

"You shouldn't have been doing something like this at all" Gaara admonishes softly, taking Naruto's hand out of the water and beginning to wrap it. "Why did you do this Naruto?" Gaara asks softly

Naruto looks at him for a long moment not knowing what to say "I was all alone and I-there was no one here I needed-. I'm sorry" Naruto looks at the floor; he doesn't want to see Gaara looking at him with hurt teal eyes. "I'm sorry" he whispers again

"I said I was on my way" Gaara speaks in a voice as soft as Naruto's "I wasn't going to let you be alone" Gaara finishes wrapping Naruto's arm in bandages. Naruto looks up at him and can see guilt in Gaara's eyes, guilt that shouldn't be there because it's not Gaara's fault.

Slowly moving from the chair he was sitting in and slides into Gaara's lap, softly kissing his neck. "Gaara" he whispers softly, before choosing a fixed point on Gaara's neck, right where his pulse was, and sucking on the tender flesh.

"Naruto" Gaara says his voice clearly warning him to stop, but Naruto ignores this and continues kissing down Gaara's neck, unbuttoning the red head's shirt as he continued traveling down Gaara's chest. "You said that we weren't going to have sex" but Gaara already knows that he's lost because Naruto is doing that thing with his tongue.

"I know" Naruto says softly against Gaara's chest, slowly making his way back up "But your so, and I'm so, please Gaara" he whispers parting his lips slightly and looking up at Gaara through long lashes, with the tiniest pink tinges on his cheek. Gaara bends forward and devours Naruto's lips in a heated kiss and the blond lets out a moan that Gaara eagerly swallows up. The kiss is hot and heave and their tongues are intertwined together in a highly erotic dance of dominance that Gaara wins.

"Naruto" Gaara whispers softly when they break apart "we really shouldn't" but Naruto only smiles and slides off of Gaara's lap. He takes a hold of Gaara's hand and leads Gaara back into his room and onto his bed. He lays down and pulls Gaara over him removing the boy's clothes as he did so. Now Gaara is only in pants and is kissing Naruto senseless, and Naruto moans heatedly into the kiss.

Gaara's hands are on him now too, taking off his pants, and he removes Gaara's pants, and smirks when he discovers Gaara hadn't been wearing any boxers. Gaara says nothing and lifts Naruto's legs up, instinctively Naruto wraps them around Gaara's neck, and the red head proceeds to push two fingers inside of Naruto. Gaara smirks when Naruto lets out a loud cry, adding another finger stretching Naruto, who whimpers and moans and begs the whole time.

Gaara knows what Naruto wants, but he doesn't give it to him not yes, instead he wants to enjoy what he has in front of him. He takes Naruto's cock into his mouth relishing in the blonds cries of ecstasy and the bittersweet taste that is all Naruto.

"Gaara please" he whimpers, and Gaara smirks pulling Naruto's cock from his mouth, and taking his fingers out of Naruto's quivering whole. He unwraps Naruto's legs from his neck, and they wrap around Gaara's waist instead. Gaara positions himself but doesn't take Naruto just yet, he wants permission first.

"Are you ready" he asks gently and Naruto almost rolls his eyes. Gaara always asked for permission no matter how many times Naruto has told him he doesn't need it. Naruto shakes his head yes and smiles up at Gaara, as he enters into Naruto's body.

Naruto cries out loudly at the feel of someone else inside of him loving how utterly complete he feels whenever he does this. "Kami yes" Naruto moans loudly gripping at the sheets and throwing his head back. He can feel one of Gaara's hands on his hip keeping him steady as he moves inside of him. Gaara's other hand moves to brush a stray hair out of Naruto's eye, and the blond slowly sits up wrapping his arms around Gaara's neck.

Naruto groans loudly at this as the movements make Gaara shift deeper inside of him. Gaara takes advantage of their new position and kisses Naruto deeply, swallowing down all of the noises that Naruto makes. Naruto pulls away from Gaara and throws his head back groaning loudly and cumming all over them both. Gaara follows soon after.

They lay together for a long while after, Naruto resting on top of Gaara's chest. Gaara runs his hands through Naruto's hair a small smile adorned his features, as he observed Naruto's sleeping form. 'He really is cute when he sleep' Gaara thinks to himself. Then he catches sight of Naruto's bandaged hand resting against his chest and his features immediately darken. "Naruto, what are we going to do with you" Gaara asks aloud to the empty room.

Gaara reached for Naruto's phone on the bedside table and dialed Haku's number quickly, the dark haired boy answers on the second ring. "Hey Naruto" Haku greets, and Gaara can practically feel the smile in the boy's voice it makes him feel guilty that he has to be the one to ruin it.

"This isn't Naruto it's me Gaara" Gaara says speaking softly into the phone so as not to wake up Naruto.

"Oh hey Gaara what's going on" Haku asks almost sounding a bit suspicious and Gaara has to smirk at this.

"Nothing good" he says solemnly

"What's wrong" now Haku sounds so worried

"It's Naruto" Gaara stops' finding that finishing this sentence is a lot harder than he originally thought. Haku was so worried already he didn't; want to make the other anymore scared than he is already. But damn it Naruto needed there help!

"He's started cutting again hasn't he" Haku cuts into Gaara's inner turmoil rather smoothly. It comes out sounding like more of a statement that a question, but still there is a small amount of hope that maybe this isn't true. That maybe this nightmare hasn't started all over again. Gaara would have loved nothing more than to tell Haku that there was nothing to worry about but that would have been a lie, and it was so much easier to tell the truth and be up front about it than to guide behind foolish hopes and wishes. Haku takes Gaara's prolonged silence as a confirmation to his assumption. "Can I speak to him" he asks softly.

"No actually, he's asleep. I thought maybe you should come over and be there for him when he wakes up. Things might be easier for him tomorrow if we're both there with him." Gaara tells Haku wishing that things had been different. But nothing good came from wishing for things that probably would never come through, at least not for right now.

"I'll be right over" Haku promises hanging up the phone.

A little while later Haku walks into Naruto's apartment to find he and Gaara spooning a blanket hanging loosely off Naruto's hips. Gaara was awake and offered Haku a small smile, so small in fact that if you hadn't known him the way Haku did you probably wouldn't have ever known. Haku returns the smile then shifts his eyes to take in Naruto's small form. The blond was sleeping soundly, mouth open drooling slightly onto Gaara's chest.

Then Haku saw it, Naruto's arm all bandaged up, and it hurt to see. Hearing about it from Gaara was one thing but to actually have to see with his own two eyes was a whole different story. Slowly making his way over to the bed Haku strips down to his skivvies and joins the two men in bed, pressing a soft kiss to Naruto's forehead, and giving Gaara a quick peck on the lips.

"How's he doing" Haku whispers softly.

"Fine I guess, considering" Gaara answers whispering just as softly.

"How did you find out" Haku asks

"He called me asked me to come over, and I well found him cutting away" Gaara doesn't look Haku in the eyes when he says this; he doesn't need to see the others hurt pain and worry.

"So what's the game plan for tomorrow" Haku asks his eyes glued to Naruto's sleeping form.

"I think we should take the day off, stay home from school and just be with him" Gaara answers his eyes are also locked to Naruto's sleeping form.

Haku nodded resolutely, intertwining he and Gaara's fingers, as they both slowly fell asleep.