Okay, hello everyone! this is my new sizzy fanfic, set after City of Heavenly Fire so it will have spoilers! please enoy and review and ill update as much as possible :)
Isabelle chucked her alarm clock across the room with a frustrated scream. She'd slept in. Again. Ever since the Dark War against Sebastian, Isabelle had taken to not falling asleep until 4 or 5am if at all.
Isabelle dragged herself out of bed and her thoughts quickly drifted to what she was always thinking about nowadays. Simon. Thinking about him hurt her heart – after Magnus had gotten permission for him to Ascend, she'd hardly seen him at all. Well, more to the point, she'd been avoiding him. Izzy was angry and heartbroken – he didn't remember her! He said he did, but all Simon did now was hang out with Clary and Isabelle knew she shouldn't be jealous but she was. Obviously she wasn't going to hook up with Clary – Jace would kill him – but Isabelle couldn't help thinking, why isn't he hanging out with me? What am I doing wrong?
Shaking her head as if to clear out the thoughts of Simon, Isabelle trudged out of her gothic bedroom and down the stairs, not even caring about her messy hair, mascara smudges or skimpy pyjamas.
Alec sighed and pushed a mug of steaming coffee towards Jace. "What's up?" Jace asked, furrowing his brow at his parabatai. "It's Isabelle," Alec chewed on his lip worriedly. "She's hardly even eating! And us and mom are always away on Clave business so I think, though she'll never admit it, I think she's lonely."
Simon looked up from his conversation with Clary. His feelings were all jumbled when it came to the Lightwoods… he remembered Jace – how can you not? And he recalls Alec and his flamboyantly glittery boyfriend Magnus. But Isabelle, dark and dangerous Isabelle. He remembers snippets with her: leather trousers; someone called Lord Montgomery; blood, lots of blood under a red sky; a fever-like heat and passionate kisses in a cave. He couldn't make sense of the images, but oh how he wanted to. He could see the pain in her eyes and somehow subconsciously knew that he was causing it.
As if Simon had conjured her with his mind, Isabelle swept into the kitchen. Her raven hair was in the tangled remains of a top knot and her mascara was smudged around her eyes making her look increasingly hostile yet gorgeous. Her black silk nightie swished around her thighs and she ignored everyone and walked straight over to Alec, saying something quietly. "Are you sure you don't want to eat down here?" Alec asked, eyeing his sisters face with caution. "I'm not hungry, actually," she announced, rubbing her eyes and regretting not taking her makeup off. Jace raised his eyebrows at Alec and they shared a look. "Oh shut up!" Isabelle said, sounding irritated but Simon could see the hint of a half-smile on her face.
"Oh Iz," Jace said softly, surprising Simon – he knew Clary loved Jace but he didn't know Jace shared that caring compassion for anyone else. But then again, Jace is Isabelle's sibling, even though they aren't blood related. Isabelle hugged Jace, practically crushing him. She talked to Alec and her mother most days, and sometimes Magnus and Jace too but she did miss the comfort. She now understood how it was for Jace to be around Clary when they thought they were related – it felt like her heart was ripping in two when she saw Simon, which is why she avoided his intent gaze and buried her head onto Jace's shoulder. Isabelle felt like crying, but she bit her lip hard and squeezed her eyes shut. She was Isabelle Sophia Lightwood, and she would not cry. She didn't want anyone's sympathy. She just hoped Simon was happy, even if it wasn't with her.
