Chapter 1

I'm laying here in my bed thinking about my life. Thinking about everything, and possibly re-evaluating it. Now don't get me wrong, I'm very happy with my life and the way it has been going these last few years. Two years ago I got married to the woman of my dreams; we bought a house in the suburbs of L.A., nothing spectacular but nothing shabby either. A year and a half ago I received a job as a first grade teacher which is my dream job and what I spent 4 years at UCLA for, and Ashley my wife recently got promoted to First Lieutenant of Fort Irwin. things are great. I feel like there is only one thing missing in my life, one BIG thing.

I look over at my wife; she is lying beside me reading over some paper work, probably for work I'm assuming. I roll over and kiss her bare shoulder a few times; I let my lips linger on her shoulder as I whisper her name.

"Ash" I say as I kiss her shoulder again

"Hmmm" she mumbled, but didn't acknowledge me

"Ash baby" I push my body into her side to get her attention

She puts her papers on the desk beside the bed and rolls over to face me

"Yeah?" She wraps her arm around my waist and pulls me closer

"You know, I have been thinking a lot lately"

"Oh no!" She jokes as she expertly rolls over and in between my legs and nuzzles her face in my neck and sighs. She starts to kiss and nip at my neck

"What have you been thinking about babe?" She asks as she continues kissing down my neck

"Well I have just been thinking that maybe, I don't know, I just think it's time that we start trying to have… a baby" I finally got out

I feel her stop kissing my neck, as she stiffens up. She pulls her head back and looks at me for a couple of seconds. Quickly she pulls back and sits at the edge of the bed; she throws her feet over the side and goes to get up. I grab her hand and pull her back to me before she can get away. She yanks her wrist out of my hand, and she looks angry.

"That's what your good at huh Spencer?, you think you can make all the choices in our relationship and decide to just fill me in when you think it's a good time"

"Ashley that's not even what its li…" I can't even finish before Ashley is cutting me off

"Oh of course it isn't, do you think it's okay for you to just throw this at me all at once, without any warning… when are you gonna stop being so fucking selfish all the time?"

"Baby please, just listen to me" I pleaded desperately

"No Spencer, we are just now getting settled down, and getting used to things, I just got promoted. and you just got your job not that long ago, do you really think that the best thing for us would be to have a baby right now?"

I just looked at her; I had no words at this moment. Ashley never acted like this, she never yelled at me, or got angry with me. We had already talked about having kids before, and I know Ashley wanted them just as badly as I did.

"I thought this was what we both wanted, Ash, we talked about it before, you said you wanted to have a baby" I just wanted her to see my side

"Well there you go, just assuming things again Spencer… and you know what else, in order for us to have a baby, we would actually have to fuck- and god knows you haven't been putting out lately"

"Are you seriously gonna go there right now Ashley? You know how busy I have been with work, and how stressed I have been lately" I say defeated as I start to cry

"Well shit Spencer! If your so damn stressed and tired, why the fuck would you think it would be a good idea to have a baby?"

"Just shut up Ashley, your unbelievable, all I wanted was to talk to you about having a baby, and you blow up on me about everything! And right now I'm starting to wonder why I ever even thought about having a baby with you!" I yell, I'm sobbing now I can't hold my tears back

She looks a little shocked and hurt at the last statement. I walk over to the closet and grab a blanket and a pillow; I turn around walk over to where Ashley is standing and shove them into her chest

"Get the fuck out!" I scream, I am so mad at her I don't even want to see her

"Where am I supposed to go?"

"I don't care where you go, just get away from me… I don't even want to see you" Another sob wracks through my body

She grabs the blanket and pillow and slams the door on her way out. I cried myself to sleep

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Chapter 2

I'm on my way home now. Work today was horrible, and all I could think of was the fight Ashley and I had. When I left this morning Ashley was already gone, she always leaves early in the morning. I can't help but wonder what it will be like tonight at home. Will we not be on speaking terms, will we get into another fight, and will we talk like a "civil" married couple… There are just so many thoughts running through my head. Ashley always gets home about forty-five minutes after I do. I just want to be able to work through this and be able to see eye to eye.

Ashley's POV

I can't believe I treated Spencer like that last night, it's completely out of character for me. I never want to hurt her, but I'm just really worried about everything right now. My thoughts are cut off as someone walks in my office I look up to see Aiden standing in the doorway. He is my right hand man and best friend on the base, and he is also my brother in-law.

"So have you told Spencer yet?" he asks

I look up at him with a defeated look "No, I just can't bring myself to tell her, I know we leave in a week, but I just don't want to break her heart… you know this is exactly what she has always been worried about." He nods his understanding

"I know exactly what you mean, I still haven't told Kyla yet" Kyla is my sister, her and Aiden just got married a month ago, I introduced them 2 years ago and the rest is history

"Last night I really let it get to me though, and I ended up sleeping on the couch because of it" I begin. "Spencer started talking about trying to have a baby, and I totally freaked. I mean I knew that it would come up sooner or later, but it just seems to be bad timing, I can't be having her pregnant back here while I'm overseas, plus worst case, what if something would happen to me while we are over there, then where would she be? Raising a child as a war widow, it just doesn't seem fair to her" I sat and contemplated everything for a few seconds. "I'm gonna tell her tonight… I have too it's only fair, and we leave in a week" Tonight I'm going to tell Spencer that I will be deploying for Iraq in a week, and that I will be over there for six months.

I walk into the house with the pizza I stopped and got for supper "Spence baby, are you here?" I yelled out into the house as I sat the pizza down and started off in search of her, I stopped suddenly as I saw her sitting on the couch curled up with a glass of wine, I could tell she had been crying. I tentatively walked in the room

"Hey" I said as I sat down slowly on the other end of the couch, she just looked at me and gave me a small nod

I slid a little closer to her on the couch "Spence look, I know things got out of hand last night and I was completely out of line" I began explaining to her desperately " I know you never deserve to be treated like that, and especially not from me" she just continues looking at me, urging me to continue my explanation "Baby" I gently put my hand on her thigh "You know you mean everything to me, and I want to have the best life with you, and I want to give you anything you want… even a baby because you know that I want one to"

"Then why would you act like that Ashley? Do you realize how bad that hurt me?" She gives me a sad look; I put my head down ashamed at the fact that I knew I hurt her

"I know Spence, I know baby, it's just that I really don't think… well you see, I just don't think we should have a baby right now, you know, why not try in a year?… we will be fully settled in and everything, and it would just make more sense" I tried to explain

She took my hands in hers and gave me a pleading look "Ashley, please I know we are ready now, and I just really want a baby so badly, and I know you do t" I cut her off before she could continue

"I'm deploying in a week Spencer!" There I finally got it out

She just looked at me, her mouth opened and closed several times, tears were welling up in her eyes as she looked at me. She quickly stood up, she chucked her wine glass against the wall. It shattered into tiny pieces and the wine splattered all over.

"Spence!" I said quickly grabbing her arm, she spun around and threw her arms around my neck, hugging me tightly as she put her head in my neck and began sobbing, I just hugged her and rubbed comforting circles on her back.

She finally pulled back after a long silence "Please don't go" she got out in between shaky breaths as she heaved trying to catch her breath her face was red and splotchy from crying, and it broke my heart. I brought my hands up and cupped her cheeks and wiped her tears with my thumbs.

"Baby, don't make it harder on me than it already is, you know I never want to leave you… but I have to go, it's my job." She knows I don't have a choice, but it doesn't make matters easier on either of us. She doesn't say anything but just goes back to hugging me. We stood there simply hugging for a long time.

Later that night we were in bed talking and cuddling with one another. I suppose this is how our last week together would be. Try and spend as much quality time together as possible. I hate leaving her, but at least I know that her family will be there for her, as well as my sister. She and Kyla will have to keep each other company because both Aiden and I will be gone.

"You know I'm gonna miss you so much" Spencer says to me bringing me out of thought as she nuzzles into my neck

"I know, I'm gonna miss you like crazy" I rolled on top of her "butt, I'm really going to miss your sexy body more than anything" I said joking around, as I started playfully kissing down her body

"I'm sure that's exactly what you're going to miss" Spencer said while laughing, she pushed Ashley's head away from her as she continued her playful manner.

When we were done joking around I got face to face with Spencer again with a more serious tone this time. "Spencer, I'm serious when I say that you're the best thing that ever happened to me, and I love you so much" I leaned in and kissed her with all the passion I could, for I knew there weren't many days left with her.

Spencer returned the kiss pulling me closer, putting her hands on the back of my neck as we continued to kiss. Before long Spencer was tugging on my shirt and pulled it up over my head briefly breaking our kiss. We kissed and removed clothes until finally…

"Oh god baby… don't stop" I'm currently licking my wife's pussy and she is moaning like crazy. Her legs are up over my shoulders, I have her hands pinned down to the bed . Spencer is bucking up into my face like wild. She usually has her hands all over me when I'm eating her out, but sometimes I like to pin her hands down just to torture her and get her squirming. Spencer loves pulling my hair and directing me where she wants me to be, but right now I'm in control… I lick and kiss her pussy all over, and she moans her approval "mmmm baby, your soooo goooddd! uhh uhh uhh" she pants as I suck her hard clit into my mouth. She wraps her thighs around my head as I continue to keep her hands pinned down. I give her one last lick the whole way up her slit and tug on her clit with my teeth before I go back up and kiss her and slide right in between her open legs, my pussy on hers.

"Mmmm I love fucking you" I mumble against her lips as I start to grind my pussy with hers. We are both sweating, I love the way our sweat mingles as we slide together, it turns me on like nothing else.

"Harder Ashh!" Spencer moans out. I push myself up on my hands as I start to slide faster and harder against her. I put my one hand around her neck as I fuck her harder than I have all night. Spencer loves getting kinky and she loves it when I choke her.

" Fuck me mmmm yeahhhh.. Spencer tells me through gritted teeth as she really starts pushing into me, which lets me know that she is gonna cum soon

"Mmmm Spence your pussy feels so good! Uhhh" Sweat is starting to form on my fore head as I once again start to fuck her even harder. Spencer runs her hand her hand over my sweaty forehead before running her hand through my hair and pulling it hard. With my free hand, I reach up and grab her hand from my hair. I take my hand from her throat and grab her other hand and pin them both to the bed once again as we continue to pound and slide against each other.

"Uhhhh Ash, I'm gonnaaa, babyyy im gonnaaa… ohhh Asshhhhhh!" Spencer lets out as she cums.. I cum right after her "mmmm spenceeee ahhhhh!" I cum all over her pussy , But before I relax I kiss my way down her body and put my head back between her legs and lick and suck her pussy clean until she reaches down and pushes my head away from her crotch, she closes her legs "Asshhh, im to sensitive!" she moans out

I crawl back up beside her and cuddle into her. We both just lay there for a minute not saying anything, but just relishing in the moment.

"That was sooo good Ash" Spencer finally tells me as she places a kiss on my neck and then puts her head on my chest, I can feel her smiling against my bare skin

"I know baby, definitely the best sex we have had in a while" I tell her as I stroke her blonde hair that is laid out all over me

Both tired from a night of awesome sex, we cuddle up together and fall asleep.