This is based on the characters from David Levithan's story Everyday. This will be solely from Rihannon's POV. So it won't make much sense unless you've read the book-I'm not sure if you'll love it or you'll hate it, as for me I immediately fell in love with the story- it actually affected me deeply sending me into some minor depression. I guess that's why it stuck with me all this time. I had to get those words down immediately after I read it. This has been saved on my laptop for quite a while from the time before I thought I was any good at this writing thing but I feel-that this story deserves to see the light of day.
I wake up the next day in Alexander's arms-he's just himself no one else and that it exactly what hurts me deep inside, that even though it's been months since I've heard from you, seen you...I still miss you A.
I'm actually living a good life nowadays and Alexander is exactly the guy I need; he's the great guy you wanted for me, the kind who would treat me just right, engage me in all the right conversations. We share the same interests and he makes me smile and so in many ways he's perfect...but there's just one thing, he's not you, A.
Alexander is the last face I place whenever I think of you. I haven't heard from you and yet I still find myself searching people's eyes looking around for you-for some confirmation that you really did exist, that it wasn't all in my head. I know how hard it must've been for you-I always thought it sucked much more for me cos you were constantly leaving me but I realize now how much you had to give up for me-you gave me the truth. And I actually both loved you and hated you so much for that-for giving me the happiest memories ever, for showing me that I deserved to be loved so much more than I could ever thought to be. You'd think that with how my life has turned out, with all the good things I have going for me... I would-should be happy-but the thing is I'm not 'cos you stay with me A-in my thoughts in my dreams...I just can't let go like you seem to have to.
I constantly browse my email address checking if you gave in and emailed me, even though you promised me peace-exactly what i wanted but i realize now that i can't go back to the Rhiannon i was before-i need to know more to find why of all people you came to me-why you loved me and how someone good like you can't have anything permanent couldn't be deserving enough of happiness. I wanted that with you, to give it to you- i still do.
I feel sorry for Alexander, i mean i do love him, i do-but i love the traces of you i see in him-the kind smile-his passionate speeches little things i have learnt over time about him-but weirdly enough i attribute to you even though you only had his body for that one day-i think i really could've loved him-but the thing is ever since that day that Justin day and every day we shared in between with the many people you'd been i realize just exactly what you meant-i thought that it was the outside part that contributed to me loving you-you told me once to not look at the package but what's inside-i realized how much it did mean to me how much physical appearance influence people's perception of others and after you left me i came to see things a lot differently-Now, I'm just wishing- rather selfishly i might add, that you could take over anyone's body and stay for me-stay as whoever a boy, a girl, anyone just as long as we can be together-just as long as it's you i see staring back at me.
Please A, i need you in my life-I'm hoping wherever you are whatever it is your doing promise me that you find your way back to me-and i promise that when you do i won't let you go.
