Because my only on-going fanfic went of hiatus, I thought i might as well write something else, so this account won't be collecting dust. Not that this story will be very long.

Wasn't too sure on uploading this. I don't know if this story will work... but I guess we'll have to see? I'm not exactly confident with my writing, as you guys know.

NOTE: Tavros isn't completely paralyzed in this. He can still walk, but it hurts a lot, so he prefers to use a wheelchair (I just needed an excuse for him to get physically hurt- Tav has low self-esteem, but I don't he would actually self-harm, intentionally.)
This fanfic is partly inspired by the song 'Rolling Girl' by Hastune Miku.

WARNING: Humanstuck, so technically an AU. Alternative ages. Possible OOC-ness. Possible BoyxBoy (although, I'd say it's more of a bromance...) and swearing, but it's Homestuck guys. Do you really expect it not to have swearing?

Pairings: None, but I guess there is implied GamTav, VrisTav, JohnVris and maybe some others? I'll let you decide.

Disclaimer: I do not own Homestuck, it belongs to Satan- I mean Hussie.
Rolling Girl belongs to Wowaka.

(Jesus, that was a lot...)

Are you OK now?- Chapter One

There were times where Tavros Nitram had to wonder; just what was his purpose in life?

Nothing amazing had ever happened to him. He was an average achiever in school, and his future was no brighter anyone elses. Except, unlike the other average people, he had even less chance to getting anywhere in life due to his disabilities.

The accident happened years ago, Tavros decided to leave such events behind him, it left him in hospital for long periods of time and he couldn't move legs at all. Eventually, he was well enough to get out, but unfortunately, the wounds never healed right. Tavros found himself in a sheer lot of pain and agony when he walked, so he confided in a wheelchair. It was the Doctors' idea mostly, too much walking or leaving strain on them might cause Tavros to go paralyzed completely.

Anyway, Tavros had thinking about his purpose a lot recently. In fact, he didn't even go on Pesterchum or answer any of his texts yesterday. Even though he was only gone a day, he should probably go check them.

Tavros logged into his Pesterchum account, almost instantly, he was pestered by a friend.

termiallyCapricious [TC] began pestering adiosToreador [AT]

TC: HeEeEeEy, BrO.
TC: yOu AlRiGhT?
TC: yOu WeReN't OnLiNe YeStErDaY.
TC: hAd Me MoThErFuCkInG wOrRiEd.
AT: hEY, gAMZEE,
AT: sORRY FOR, uHH,, gETTING YOU WORRIED,,,,
AT: i WAS NOT REALLY DOING ANYTHING, uH, iMPORTANT,
AT: i GUESS i GOT CAUGHT UP IN MY THOUGHTS, aND NOT REALLY PAID ATTENTION TO THE, uHH, tIME,
TC: It'S oK, tAv :o).
TC: CaUgHt Up In YoUr ThOuGhTs? WhAt Do YoU mEaN?
TC: yOu DoN't HaVe To TeLl Me.

Tavros hesitated, fingers hovering above the keyboard. Should he tell? Gamzee had been worried. And he was one of the few people who still spoke to him on a daily basis. Now they were older, most of his friends were busy with their own lives. Even Vriska didn't bother him as much nowadays, although Tavros still wondered about the complicated relationship they had had.

AT: iT IS NOTHING, lIKE i SAID,
AT: bUT i'M JUST WONDERING ABOUT MY, uH, fUTURE,
TC: YoUr FuTuRe?
AT: yES, i WAS THINKING ABOUT IT,
AT: aND HOW i AM IN A WHEELCHAIR,
AT: i AM NOT SURE IF i WILL, uHH, bE ABLE TO GET A JOB,,,
TC: YoU wIlL.
TC: jUsT wAiT fOr A mIrAcLe To HaPpEn :o).
AT: mAYBE, bUT i HAVE BEEN WAITING,, fOR A LONG TIME,,,
AT: }:(
TC: It WiLl HaPpEn, A mIrAcLe.
TC: WiTh RaInBoWs AnD sMiLeS aNd ShIt, YoU'lL sEe.
TC: HoNk.
AT: hOPEFULLY, }:)
AT: bUT, iN THE MEANTIME, i THINK i'M, uHH,,,,
TC: WhAt?
AT: i'M NOT REALLY SURE,,,
AT: i FEEL SORT OF,,, uSELESS,
AT: nOT HAVING A JOB OR ANYTHING,
AT: aND i CAN'T RELY ON MY PARENTS FOREVER,

Tavros sighed. He really shouldn't vent his problems to his friend all the time. Not that Gamzee was really bothered by it or anything. He was good support at least.

TC: I'm SuRe YoUr PaReNtS wOn'T mOtHeRfUcKiNg MiNd.
TC: YoU'rE nOt EvEn TwEnTy YeT.
TC: mOtHeRfUcKiNg ChIlL :o).
AT: i GUESS, iT'S JUST A LITTLE EMBARRASSING,
AT: bEING THE ONLY ONE, wITHOUT A JOB,
TC: i ThOuGhT vRiSkA hAd No JoB?

That was true, but Vriska was never really the type to have a job. Then again, neither was Gamzee, but he didn't have a full time job. He worked part-time at multiple jobs, although he never earned much. It was just enough to keep him going- a motherfucking miracle, as he would say.
Anyway, both Vriska and Gamzee no longer lived with their parents. In fact, Gamzee had been mostly on his own from the start. Tavros felt slightly guilty for mentioning his own parents, but he decided to keep it to himself.

AT: bUT SHE RECENTLY MOVED IN, wITH THAT jOHN GUY,
AT: sO SHE WILL BE, oK, i THINK,
AT: i ALSO THINK, i WILL BE GOING NOW,
TC: sEe YoU lAtEr, TaVbRo :o).
TC: YoU'lL bE oNlInE tOmOrRoW, rIgHt?
TC: HoNk HoNk.
AT: i WOULD THINK SO,
AT: uH, bYE gAMZEE,

adiosToreador [AT] ceased pestering termiallyCapricious [TC]

Tavros wheeled himself away from his computer and flopped onto his bed, half-heartedly. He hated to admit it, but he doubted that Gamzee's advice on waiting for some sort of miracle was going to work. What were the chances, anyway? Tavros had dreams, but he didn't know exactly what they were. Were they even going to be achievable? Plus, laying on his bed doing nothing was certainly not going to let a miracle happen. Perhaps if he could achieve something, something amazing will happen.

He decided he would find out tomorrow.

How badly did I fail at keeping them IC? XD
Y'know, after re-reading what I wrote, I've realised how crappy this plotline is... Oh well.