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When My Soul's No Longer Mine to Keep
by samuraiheart
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This is pure sap – no ifs, ands or buts. This is also
extremely short. I apologize for that, but I was
really going more for an image than an actual plot
line. This is my first Yami no Matsuei fic, but not my
first fic. Considering that most of the time, my
introductory fics in a series are extremely angsty and
sad, perhaps you should be relieved. On the other
hands, if you like that kind of thing, just wait a
while, I'm sure it will come eventually – maybe in the
next fic. I am an "anybody but Muraki X Tsuzuki" fan
so please don't judge this too harshly if you are not
a fan of Watari X Tsuzuki. I just find that couple
particularly interesting. Ummmm… please be warned that
there is kissing, etc between two guys, but I'm a bit
too squeamish to write out explicit sex scenes so you
won't find that here. Please turn back now if you
object to any of that.
Words in brackets [~~~] are song lyrics
Disclaimer: Yami no Matsuei is the property of
Matsushita Yoko and the song is "Sleep" by Melissa
Etheridge
And now on to the fic…
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[After your laughter like thunder
After your skin like coffee and cream
After it takes our bodies into the night
After we've come to the extreme]
I whisper your name desperately as you run your
fingers across my collarbone and start to undo the
buttons on my silk shirt. "Tsuzuki…" I close my eyes
and twist my fingers through your hair. This is
amazing. I never thought this could happen. I never
imagined anything so wonderful. You look up at me with
your piercing violet eyes full of hesitation. Do you
really think you have to ask? I lean forward and press
my lips against your mouth and run my tongue over your
warm lips. You moan softly into the kiss and wrap one
arm around my waist. We have both waited so long for
this moment and now time seems to move in slow motion
as your dark eyelashes flutter against your cheek and
your warm breath brushes across my neck. Your delicate
fingers work on the buttons of my shirt as I guide us
onto the bed.
[I want to lay down on your shoulder
Just inside your arm
I want to listen to your heart beat
And your breathing on and on
I want to lay down on your shoulder
Surrender to your peace
And go to sleep]
We pull back sheets and toss pillows away hurriedly.
You slip my shirt off and reach up through my blond
hair to pull the ribbon from my head. The fabric
rustles quietly as my long golden locks spill across
my shoulders and the surrounding mattress. You pause
for a moment to marvel at the site. I see such love
and gentleness in your eyes in that moment that I want
to capture this forever in my memory. I want to hold
you in my arms and whisper how much I love you. I
never want you to forget how much you mean to me and
how much I need you. The words get caught in my throat
as you get over your initial hesitation and bend over
me to caress my cheek with your fingers and look into
my sparkling eyes. I blink back at you breathing
heavily. There is so much to say and so many emotions
are running through my head. "I love you, Watari." My
eyes widen at the statement. I never expected you to
say it first. For a moment, your gaze carries
something akin to hurt before my lips curve slightly
in a smile and I reach up to cup your cheek in my
hand. "I love you too, Tsuzuki. I love you more than
anything." You blink several times in disbelief and
then break out into a wide grin that is probably the
most beautiful expression I have ever seen on your
face. For once, there is none of the sadness or guilt
that usually lingers at the edges of your smiles or
dances at the back of your gaze.
[And when we've gone a million miles
Made true our dreams with sweat and bone
After we've built it up with our bare hands
Made strong a place we can call home]
You are here with me now and you are safe and you love
me. I could not ask for anything more. The world could
end now and everything could fall apart around us and
I would hardly notice as long as I could hold my love
in my arms until that last moment. I lose my train of
thought as you move your mouth against mine once again
unlocking all of the passion and desire within both of
our hearts. There is a desperateness to the kisses
that I return fully. We have both waited for so long
and now it seems like there is nothing we can do to
make up for all of the lost time. The room seems to
fade from existence as we focus on each other and
pleasure sings in our veins as I throw my head back in
release and you cry out my name in bliss.
[I want to lay down on your shoulder
Just inside your arm
I want to listen to your heart beat
And your breathing on and on
I want to lay down on your shoulder
Surrender to your peace
And go to sleep]
We hold each other when it is over and I press gentle
kisses on your cheek and down your neck as you tangle
your hands in my hair and whisper words of love and
understanding. I pull the sheet over us as you lean
your head against my bare chest and I wrap my arms
around you protectively. There is a stillness in the
air that speaks only of resolution. I pull you closer
to me as your eyelids droop and finally close. After a
few moments, your breathing becomes slow and measured
and I know that you have fallen asleep in my arms. It
is one of the most precious gifts you have ever given
me – that you trust me enough to let down your guard
and drift off to sleep beside me brings me more
happiness than anything else I can imagine right now.
[And when the light in my eye is fading
When running water becomes too deep
Finally angels turn my fire to dust
And when my soul's no longer mine to keep]
My own eyelids feel heavy now and I close them slowly
and lean my head against the soft comfort of the
pillows. Sleep comes quickly and my dreams pale in
comparison to the reality I will wake up to.
[I want to lay down on your shoulder
Just inside your arm
I want to listen to your heartbeat
And your breathing on and on
I want to lay down on your shoulder
Surrender to the peace
And just go to sleep]
~Owari~ Thanks for reading!
When My Soul's No Longer Mine to Keep
by samuraiheart
********************
This is pure sap – no ifs, ands or buts. This is also
extremely short. I apologize for that, but I was
really going more for an image than an actual plot
line. This is my first Yami no Matsuei fic, but not my
first fic. Considering that most of the time, my
introductory fics in a series are extremely angsty and
sad, perhaps you should be relieved. On the other
hands, if you like that kind of thing, just wait a
while, I'm sure it will come eventually – maybe in the
next fic. I am an "anybody but Muraki X Tsuzuki" fan
so please don't judge this too harshly if you are not
a fan of Watari X Tsuzuki. I just find that couple
particularly interesting. Ummmm… please be warned that
there is kissing, etc between two guys, but I'm a bit
too squeamish to write out explicit sex scenes so you
won't find that here. Please turn back now if you
object to any of that.
Words in brackets [~~~] are song lyrics
Disclaimer: Yami no Matsuei is the property of
Matsushita Yoko and the song is "Sleep" by Melissa
Etheridge
And now on to the fic…
********************
[After your laughter like thunder
After your skin like coffee and cream
After it takes our bodies into the night
After we've come to the extreme]
I whisper your name desperately as you run your
fingers across my collarbone and start to undo the
buttons on my silk shirt. "Tsuzuki…" I close my eyes
and twist my fingers through your hair. This is
amazing. I never thought this could happen. I never
imagined anything so wonderful. You look up at me with
your piercing violet eyes full of hesitation. Do you
really think you have to ask? I lean forward and press
my lips against your mouth and run my tongue over your
warm lips. You moan softly into the kiss and wrap one
arm around my waist. We have both waited so long for
this moment and now time seems to move in slow motion
as your dark eyelashes flutter against your cheek and
your warm breath brushes across my neck. Your delicate
fingers work on the buttons of my shirt as I guide us
onto the bed.
[I want to lay down on your shoulder
Just inside your arm
I want to listen to your heart beat
And your breathing on and on
I want to lay down on your shoulder
Surrender to your peace
And go to sleep]
We pull back sheets and toss pillows away hurriedly.
You slip my shirt off and reach up through my blond
hair to pull the ribbon from my head. The fabric
rustles quietly as my long golden locks spill across
my shoulders and the surrounding mattress. You pause
for a moment to marvel at the site. I see such love
and gentleness in your eyes in that moment that I want
to capture this forever in my memory. I want to hold
you in my arms and whisper how much I love you. I
never want you to forget how much you mean to me and
how much I need you. The words get caught in my throat
as you get over your initial hesitation and bend over
me to caress my cheek with your fingers and look into
my sparkling eyes. I blink back at you breathing
heavily. There is so much to say and so many emotions
are running through my head. "I love you, Watari." My
eyes widen at the statement. I never expected you to
say it first. For a moment, your gaze carries
something akin to hurt before my lips curve slightly
in a smile and I reach up to cup your cheek in my
hand. "I love you too, Tsuzuki. I love you more than
anything." You blink several times in disbelief and
then break out into a wide grin that is probably the
most beautiful expression I have ever seen on your
face. For once, there is none of the sadness or guilt
that usually lingers at the edges of your smiles or
dances at the back of your gaze.
[And when we've gone a million miles
Made true our dreams with sweat and bone
After we've built it up with our bare hands
Made strong a place we can call home]
You are here with me now and you are safe and you love
me. I could not ask for anything more. The world could
end now and everything could fall apart around us and
I would hardly notice as long as I could hold my love
in my arms until that last moment. I lose my train of
thought as you move your mouth against mine once again
unlocking all of the passion and desire within both of
our hearts. There is a desperateness to the kisses
that I return fully. We have both waited for so long
and now it seems like there is nothing we can do to
make up for all of the lost time. The room seems to
fade from existence as we focus on each other and
pleasure sings in our veins as I throw my head back in
release and you cry out my name in bliss.
[I want to lay down on your shoulder
Just inside your arm
I want to listen to your heart beat
And your breathing on and on
I want to lay down on your shoulder
Surrender to your peace
And go to sleep]
We hold each other when it is over and I press gentle
kisses on your cheek and down your neck as you tangle
your hands in my hair and whisper words of love and
understanding. I pull the sheet over us as you lean
your head against my bare chest and I wrap my arms
around you protectively. There is a stillness in the
air that speaks only of resolution. I pull you closer
to me as your eyelids droop and finally close. After a
few moments, your breathing becomes slow and measured
and I know that you have fallen asleep in my arms. It
is one of the most precious gifts you have ever given
me – that you trust me enough to let down your guard
and drift off to sleep beside me brings me more
happiness than anything else I can imagine right now.
[And when the light in my eye is fading
When running water becomes too deep
Finally angels turn my fire to dust
And when my soul's no longer mine to keep]
My own eyelids feel heavy now and I close them slowly
and lean my head against the soft comfort of the
pillows. Sleep comes quickly and my dreams pale in
comparison to the reality I will wake up to.
[I want to lay down on your shoulder
Just inside your arm
I want to listen to your heartbeat
And your breathing on and on
I want to lay down on your shoulder
Surrender to the peace
And just go to sleep]
~Owari~ Thanks for reading!
