Disclaimer: I don't own Vampire Academy or the song 'Before the song' by Miley Cyrus and the Jonas brothers.
Rpov
Funny, I used to wake up because of Lissa and Christian's late night adventures, but now my own nightmares wake me up. I was dreaming of the whole situation again, when Dimitri was still here, and a dhampir. We never found Robert Doru in time, so in the end, I ended up killing Dimitri when he came for me.
But that was four years ago. Since then, I've been married to Adrian. Lissa decided to finally ditch court, so we lived out in a small house in the country. Surrounded by only the trees, mountains, and quiet meadows. It was late at night, but I got up from bed and went out to the front porch.
I know this isn't what I wanted,
I never thought it would come this far,
Just thinking back to where we started and
How we lost all that we are
Before Dimitri and I fell in love, we used not get along, but after awhile, we just couldn't stay away. He was the reason why I continued training, the reason that I stayed at school, and the reason why I lived. But when he was turned, that all changed.
Dpov
I was wondering through the woods mindlessly when I caught sight of a little house out of nowhere. What the heck is a house doing here? I thought when I caught sight of her. My Roza. She was standing on the porch with a look on her face that always makes me worry about her. I remember the day I came to turn her. She fulfilled her promise and staked me. I was suppose to be dead, and yet here I am breathing. For some reason, when she staked me, instead of dying, I actually came back to a dhampir, but the Strigoi inside had to die. I believed God gave me a second chance to be with Roza, but how can I face her now?
We were young and times were easy,
But I could see it's not the same,
I'm standing here but you don't see me,
I'd give it all for that to change
She started sobbing there. I wanted to reach out and hold her, but I can't. How can I just go and expect her to take me back?
And I don't want to lose her,
Don't want to let her go
But I was still in love with her.
Rpov
I'm standing out in the rain, need to know if it's over
Because I won't leave you alone
Dimitri, why did you have to become a Strigoi? I thought to myself. Why? Then I felt my self having trouble breathing, then the waterworks came.
Dpov
Flooded with all this pain,
Knowing that I'll never hold her,
Like I did before the storm,
Before the storm
I can't stand to see her like this, so helpless, so weak, in so much pain. I already knew what it was though, me.
Rpov
With every stroke of lightning,
Comes a memory that lasts,
And not a word is left unspoken,
As the thunder starts to clash
Even though we've had troubles coming from everywhere, we overcame them together. Especially when I intentionally took the darkness of spirit from Lissa when she had lost her temper with Jesse. Dimitri took me to get cleaned and calmed down, but instead, we shared a special memory in the cabin.
Maybe I should give up
But he's dead now.
Dpov
I'm standing out in the rain,
I need to know if it's over,
Because I won't leave you alone
She continued sobbing and sobbing. I never thought I would ever see her like this. But then again, I never thought I would be turned and have to leave her for forever. Doomed to only watch and view, with out doing anything to help her.
Flooding with all this pain,
Knowing I'll never hold her,
Like I did before the storm
Both
Trying to keep the lights from going out,
And the clouds from ripping out my broken heart,
We always say: "A heart is not a whole"
Without the one who get's you through the storm
I miss you. Please, don't forget me. You're the one I can't be without.
Standing out in the rain, Knowing that it's really over,
Please don't leave me alone.
Rpov
Please wait for me Dimitri. I'll always love you. Now and forever.
Dpov
I never wanted this to happen. I shouldn't have left her, alone.
I'm flooded with all this pain!
Knowing that I'll never hold you,
Like I did, before the storm, yeah,
Like I did, before the storm
Rpov
I felt my tears come to an end. I stared into the field, and headed back inside. Sometimes, it's like he's still here. Nothing will ever go back to how it was with him before, and it'll never be the same with another person because no matter whose arms I'm in, I'll imagine there his.
Dpov
She cried one last time and went back inside. I'll always hold her, in my heart, and I know she will too. But, times are different now, I can't just walk back to her like this. Every memory is dear, and irreplaceable. With that in my heart and mind, I walked back the way I came.
Sorry if you were confused. This was my first SongFic/Story, so I didn't really know what to do. Sorry!
