Chapter 1 of my first Big Time Rush fanfic, hope you enjoy!


James stepped out of the shower, it was warm and relaxing , it definitely helped to clear his mind of everything, especially of Kendall, yes, it might not seem like it but James Diamond was gay and not only that, he was also in love with his best friend Kendall Knight, he still wasn't sure as of why he fell so hard for Kendall, he was bossy, stern and constantly needed to be in charge, not to mention that he was kinda dorky and that his jokes were sometimes plain stupid, yet he was also so protective and caring, you could just get lost in those deep green eyes of his and also he had the most adorable dimples. James' been lusting over Kendall for so long that it was beginning to get disturbing, perhaps that was why he built this image of heartthrob for himself, because he wanted to make sure no one will ever find out who he really was and how he really felt, never.

After finishing his every night ritual which involved putting on a moisturiser and several hair lotions (because he had to look good the following day, he always has to look good) James was ready for his beauty sleep, he entered his room and noticed Kendall peacefully sleeping, there he was, the object of his affection, looking so serene and beautiful, he walked towards Kendall's bed and stroked his cheek lightly, causing him to moan and turn around, James took a deep breath and laid on his bed, closing his eyes as he tried to sleep; Kendall was so close yet so far from him.