Holding It All Inside

I've wanted to tell you how I feel,

But the sight of you steals my words.

I thought I could show you

With a gesture or a touch

How much I need you

All that I feel,

I shied away at the last moment.

Every now and then I manage

To sneak in a kiss

Temple, cheek, hand,

Carefully avoiding your lips.

I'm too afraid of what I might find there.

Acceptance, revulsion,

I don't quite know what I'd do

With either one just yet.

We are comfortable with ourselves.

I can hold your hand,

And run my fingers through your hair

(I liked it better before you cut it.)

We share dreams and talk of old memories

We have a lot of those.

All of it in innocent intimacy

Both of us know our souls are bound

And saying "I love you" comes naturally.

Sometimes I wonder what else might.

I am too terrified to risk it,

So this is enough for me … for now.

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